this sounds like the starting line - song for her

giving flatsound and i love it but wanna cry more

lyrics
--------
so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

lyrics
--------
how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

he was a hero in this town
wore his whole heart on a damn string
scribble the faces of all of these people
cause they won't ever know a damn thing
what a shame
you had lots to offer to the world
you were more than just a name
this sort of thing
doesn't happen often round here
but the stories all the same so

how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

follow xlhc

silver bullet (prod. xlhc)

"Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me"
w/ @guardinmusic
Prod by. @hkfiftyone2
Cover art by. @walkerdunnvisuals on Instagram

Lyrics:

yung van/
How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

guardin/
But I said a lot of shit I wish I didn’t
Feelin stuck inside my head like it’s a yankee fitted
Homerun is what I call it when I disappear
And if I’m being honest witchu goddess I ain’t even here
Checked out of my mind
I ain’t doing fine
Wished upon a star that I would see past twenty five
Blisters on my body from the way I’m passing time
I’m alright

yung van/
my life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

What happened to when you were all over me?
Didn’t have to pay cause your loving was free
Got me romanticizing all the times we were arguing just cause you're talking to me
Now you’re always ignoring me
All these other girls are boring me
No matter what they do, they just ain’t you and that thought has been getting to me
I adore you, but I couldn’t afford you
Your love’s amazing, always entertaining
You had me locked out, I was in the dog house
You only called my name when it’s dark out

How you gonna block my phone
When I’m not home
How you gonna do me like that?
How you gonna say you care
When you’re not there
How you gonna do me like that?

My life is a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters
My life’s a disaster
You taught me nothing matters
My heart has been shattered
There’s peace when nothing matters

there's nothing left to say

Other Platforms <3

there's nothing left to say w/ guardin (Prod. HKFiftyOne)

[Verse 1]: 
“Aaaah—eiyaaa—hoooh—”
Nel silenzio che sorge dal muschio,  
dove il sole accarezza il legno antico,  
ritroviamo il tempo che non consuma,  
il passo lento, il cuore che si riaccende.
[Vese 2]
Eiyaaa—eiyaaa—  
Soffia il vento tra le pale leggere,  
canta l’acqua che scende libera,  
non c’è più fretta, né fame d’oro,  
solo mani che intrecciano il domani.
[Verse 3]: 
“Ooooh—eiya—eiya—”
Nel cerchio delle stagioni danziamo,  
con la luna che guida i raccolti,  
il pane si impasta con storie antiche,  
e il fuoco scalda senza possedere.
[Bridge]
Haaah—hoooh—eiyaaa—  
Le comunità si risvegliano come semi,  
piccole, forti, radicate nel vero,  
l’artigiano scolpisce il tempo,  
la tessitrice canta il filo del mondo.
[Verse 4]: 
“Uuuuuh—eiya—eiya—”
Oltre il vetro delle vetrine spente,  
oltre il rumore del consumo cieco,  
c’è un canto che non si compra,  
una libertà che nasce dal poco.
[Verse 5]
Eiyaa—eiyaa—hoooh—  
Energia che non brucia ma abbraccia,  
vento, sole, terra e acqua,  
un patto antico, rinnovato ora,  
per vivere, non per vendere.
[Verse 6]:
 “Aaaah—eiyaaa—eiyaaa—”
Nel nord del cuore,  
dove il ghiaccio custodisce la memoria,  
torniamo a essere parte del tutto,  
non padroni, ma figli della terra.
[Verse 7]
Fin da piccoli, noi danzavamo col vento,
Sotto il cielo che racconta segreti,  
nel giardino che fiorisce lento,
Siamo radici, siamo anche fiori.
[Outro]
Eiyaaa—hoooh—  
Sotto l'ombra degli alberi antichi,
Ascoltiamo il canto degli uccelli,
L'acqua scorre, porta via i sogni,
Una vita semplice, scriviamo domani.

Il giardino dell'Eden

it's been ages since i've dropped a project & to be completely honest, i've been more than hesitant about releasing this, but it's my birthday today & i promised myself that i'd put this out. i really hope you enjoy it. thank you guys so fucking much for even taking the time outta your day to listen to anything i've created. this has been a passion for me for a while & to know that i can impact someone elses life through my craft is unbelievable. you guys have truly helped me get through so much & i promise, this is just the beginning. i love you

- guardin

FOREVER

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/teenpregnancy

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=seALdEu4TX6ltgKcseuT-w
www.instagram.com/poppytears_/?hl=en
twitter.com/poppyxtears
itunes.apple.com/nz/artist/poppy-tears/1268266116
https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/

☆ LYRICS ☆

Poppy Tears: 

under her skin like the ink on my arm
cold where I’ve been I’ve got a broken heart 
ten sedatives slow down I’m gone
she’s the one I’m with she’s the one I want

I don’t wana ever take you for granted 
when I’m coming down you’re the one who helps me manage
heart so pure I don’t mean to enchant it
and when I’m fucked up girl your so understanding

I can’t fall asleep and I want it change
lost in this world I’ll help us find a way 
it’s a gift and a curse and I’ve been led astray
I know that it hurts I’m here till we decay 

9TAILS:

too many nights I’ve spent on my floor 
I don’t know where to go my mind is slipping from my reach and its shows
my whole family see’s I’m not really me anymore too many times I just fall asleep -getting stoned

break away, days come and they go 
loves fades, plans change and lose hope 
fucked up and useless and its shows, 
people change but I know that I wont

love me just like you used to 
I’ll be just like I used to 
mornings, wake up around noon
body wrapped up against you

spotify

until we decay w/ 9TAILS (prod. teen pregnancy)

produced by syndrome

lyrics:

i got some problems
run and tell that
to the few of you talking that shit
but you never would hit my dms

got shit on my mental
im fucked in my mind
but with the distractions i still look at you
and i still see the slime

your main girl at my door like hello
like moto
want photos
girl its a no go
gimme the loot and im out like diablo
or in twenty
actually no ones home spend plenty
she lose the clothes
tell me motorboat
got me muffled out like kenny

no something doesnt sound right
hollup 9tails
i thought u were a sad guy
im persuing music
im not pursueing a bad life
if i get a chance to fix my shit
i wanna live nice

on that "i dont wanna listen to u if u do not wanna die"
tell me why
cause those comments tend to keep me up at night
im not offended
but im not pretending
that my sadness more than average
just so i can take advantage of the scene

whiter then the filling in a krispy kreme
got no lean
but the green
come a quarter ounce a week
i smoke until i sleep
substitute my antidepressants
for some og

i got some problems
run and tell that
to the few of you talking that shit
but you never would hit my dms

got shit on my mental
im fucked in my mind
but with the distractions i still look at you
and i still see the slime

big 9mm glass bong
walk in with it
dirty week old water
dump it out and fill it in the kitchen
see the resi hit the dishes 
shit digusting
swear this shit could prolly kill some fishes
im insane
but u prolly think im bluffing
next time i should down the water burping like its nothing
next time i might leave the party without saying nothing
think i gotta meet my cousins or something
i should get cutting

talking all that shit u gotta try and back it up
know u told the boys but that shit will not be enough
i could pick and choose what verses i could light u up with
bars that burn you down it have you looking like a sunset
smoking on the beach i blow it out into the ocean 
none of you are good for anything but the commotion

i got some problems
run and tell that
to the few of you talking that shit
but you never would hit my dms

got shit on my mental
im fucked in my mind
but with the distractions i still look at you
and i still see the slime

i got some problems
run and tell that
to the few of you talking that shit
but you never would hit my dms

got shit on my mental
im fucked in my mind
but with the distractions i still look at you
and i still see the slime

dirty nike roshes
guacomole
breathing inward slowly
24 grams in my bag i call it kobe pack
shit'll blow u back
make u see the zodiac
start the sodastream
bubble up the juice and jack
she gimme oral b
like she was tryna fight the plaque

problems (prod. syndrome)

occam's razor

Shinigami - i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

original sample: https://soundcloud.com/kahlua-and-milk/cheap-wine-1
by kahlua and milk 

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
lips on your thighs got the roses beside 
swear to god i think the stars have aligned
drunk out my mind like your pussy is wine
stuck on your lips like a grape to a vine 
words fall from petals like roses
loving you shawty you know this
cupid hit me at my lowest
missing you takes all my focus

9TAILS:
turning grey
youll be okay though
no halo
i am no angel
gotta worn down old face
cold gaze
how im spose to love you how u want it
with a full plate
every step i stumble i got no grace
its a trick maze
up inside my mind im on a tight rope
how i fix it up fuck if i know
fuck a high note
smoking blunts singing slow while my eyes low
thoughts attack me make the lyrics sappy
turn up the tune cause my voice scratchy like a vinyl
i hear another person bitching i might uninstall the game
eye strain back pain tooth aches weed shakes
took a break from the music for a week 
came back and it was all the same
new face with the same sound
damn
something like a "we already lost" game plan
fucking up they life to make a new song slam
u wont make a banger just because u kick cans
still it could be poppin if u got the right friends
no reason to sweat it tho u bringing in bands
you and me are gone eventually we all end
we should live the life we proud to live amen to that
amen to that

shattered:
your beauty is something to notice
unravel my mind like a lotus
got something to say you might know this
but everytime i see you i just lose focus 
i'm losing sleep over you
dreaming of colors that i never knew
painting the picture of you in my mind
wish i could somehow just stop all the time 
from the ashes of your love
we can go and fly above
leaving rainbows when we die
really hate it when you cry
feeling really slow
i got the flow
give her the ice now she colder than snow
i wanna know will she love me for long
or is it a feeling from ripping the bong

flowars:
babe i'm afraid
i'm just letting you know
i never loved someone like you before
hearts in my eyes
i been shot in the skull
mind in the sky
feeling gravity's pull
oh
words fall like petals from roses
your beauty is never unnoticed
shawty you're glitching my focus
oh shit
shawty you're glitching my focus
you're bringing hope to hopeless
i think you already know this
know this

lotus love w/ 9TAILS & flowars (prod. taurusmoon)

Thank you for listening <3 

prod. @oceanonthebeat
big thanks to @lilsadeyes for doing this <3
also featuring the amazing @ivrii who basically inspired the whole concept <3

Available on the following and more!
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7kdSD3DfVg9bMbtXtX2ECm
iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/pathos-ep/1462224279?app=itunes
Google Play: https://play.google.com/store/music/album/I_m_Geist_Pathos?id=Bgk4q7nahjlex2fiye53jgpcsm4


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Twitter: https://twitter.com/imgeistny

Full EP Stream:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEp9oBqLZWw

Mix/Mastered @farhantnvr

Art by Ko.tsuki
https://www.instagram.com/ko.tsukii

Lyrics:
ivri:
I’m ready to self-destruct,
Will you hold me please?
I don’t want to deal with it,
I’m taking you with me

i'm geist: 
I’m out of luck, my time is up,
This city doesn’t seem to breathe
With you here, I’ll self-destruct
In heaven, it’d just be you and me

But I stayed here trapped as a ghost,
And you moved on without me
I’m left here to wither alone,
I’m hoping that you’re free

ivri/i'm geist:
I’m ready to self-destruct
So, will you hold me please?
I don’t want to deal with it
I’m taking you with me 

sadeyes:
I self-destruct 
I’m losing love
I self-destruct
I’m losing touch 
I been going hard as the cement
Oh I murder every flow I hit the beat it drops dead
Oh I, I self-destruct

iTunes

Self-Destruct w/ sadeyes & ivri (Prod. ocean)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

Shinigami - i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

numbed emotions

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