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This song makes me think of you. Big love RIP

Verse 1)
Nymphomaniac who said they loved me
A sexual freak, a tantric lover beast
Polyamorous but only to two under my sheets
Past experience hurts but I was left in a happiness that bled down the sink
But in the end it became heavier than soaked graveyard dirt
Even still I want it today
But only if she says so
I don't know how to cheat
But everyone else did who I laid in bed with
Because I was so much more different than the sea of society
(Chorus)
Doll
Cracked face in neon colors
Drifting into a horror wonderland, a trauma story
Bloody scissors, midnight poisons
Drunk just not to feel the nightmares they fucked inside of me
Acid paper heart, holes in my soul
Life just doesn't mean a thing
But I must stay in the light
(Verse 2)
As heroin was my lover for so long and now just a bad dream
Locked frozen in a cryogenic suspended anti-gravity fuckery
I wish I would have just walked away
But I couldn't
So used to being used I just learned a Stockholm victim mentality
Hypersexually
So wrong or so right when you need seductive energy just to feel love
For every cut
For every burn
For every cigarette burn on my skin, for every year I got worse
No one saved me and I couldn't save myself
So I stained and took every blow, every fuck, every argument, every assault
I just let it bleed off me seconds after attack
Stuck with these dissociative identities
(Chorus)
Doll
Cracked face in neon colors
Drifting into a horror wonderland, a trauma story
Bloody scissors, midnight poisons
Drunk just not to feel the nightmares they fucked inside of me
Acid paper heart, holes in my soul
Life just doesn't mean a thing
But I must stay in the light
(Verse 3)
Stop romanticizing trauma
Sick fuck, go off your wrists, you stupid fuck
Adderall, Prozac, and being a guinea pig sucks
DID sucks, ASPD is social suicide
When you're a sociopath, BPD struggle to live with
CPTSD, PTSD, amnesia blends and blurs as I lose time
I keep staring at the clock just to make sure I didn't switch
When an alter is summoned to protect
I lose what little pieces left I have of self until I return
(Bridge)
Odium, Alice 5, Helix Nexus
Echoes, Mothyii, Phil Etheric Khimera
Why can't I make you disappear? Only co-consciousness with two
But you mess up my life fucking way too much
(Chorus – Final Variation)
Doll
Cracked face in neon colors
Drifting into a horror wonderland, a trauma story
Bloody scissors, midnight poisons
Just fuck me and get it over with
I won't cum until you say please
When I'm the dead child with voided eyes
Dreaming in Melankholyia
My system
(Outro – Spoken Word Fade)
Co-consciousness is a state where two or more distinct personalities, alters,
In someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) are aware of each other
And the external world simultaneously. This can involve sharing thoughts,
Feelings, and experiences, allowing for internal communication
And a continuous sense of time, though it can also be experienced
As being a passive observer. It is different from co-fronting,
Where more than one alter is actively in control of the body at the same time.




Neon Cracked Doll 4

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Poveglia (feat. De:Tune)

Nu:Tone is a name that automatically populates in a seasoned drum & bass brain upon hearing the words Hospital Records. But Nu:Tone’s first drum and bass release was actually put out in 2001 on John B’s label Beta Recordings after the pair became friends and established the local club night ‘Substance’ in Durham.  On returning to his hometown Cambridge, Nu:Tone met a squad of like-minded musical mates and eventually released the ‘Future Sound of Cambridge’ EP on Hospital in 2004.

With five solo studio albums to boast as well as a wealth of singles, and EP’s, Nu:Tone’s tracks can always be heard across dancefloors and the festival circuit. From his first studio album “Brave Nu World” to third studio album “Words and Pictures” (which was perhaps his most ambitious project) and all before, in-between and after, Nu:Tone’s output always gleans the full support of the wider dance music community’s biggest tastemakers from Annie Mac and Rene La Vice to Toddla T and David Rodigan. Nu:Tone regularly tours Europe, USA, Canada, Australia and New Zealand, confirming his global appeal. 

Nu:Tone can also be heard as part of other collaborative projects, like Nu:Logic, the Hospital Records signed sibling duo of him and Logistics. Or as part of Danism, under which he releases house with great success. Danism’s track “No Limits’ reached number one on the Traxsource chart in 2019 and received DJ support from house royalty Louie Vega, Danny Krivit and Todd Terry. 

Having a keen ear for other people’s music is something that we see from Nu:Tone in a multitude of projects. While working for Hospital as part of the A&R team, he also continues to work as a mastering engineer for Innerground, Spearhead and Soulvent Records. He fondly states an annual highlight for him is the stage he curates with Logistics at Sardinia’s famous Sun & Bass festival each year, and it’s clearly something he enjoys as he’s been back every year since 2003 (except one year when his eldest was born!)

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