prod Wendigo x LetDose

i walk alone like always
1234 idc
jus one more, please, n ill be safe
teach me how to die n ill teach u how to live
crush some fkn pills up n slit ur fkn wrists
were meant for each other but ill kms this summer
its so fkn easy, so why i like to suffer?
ill nvr see in ur eyes
but i know deep down theyre suicidal like mine
scars run deep in my mind
yeah im so fkn high
i escape when i drown
dk where else to go
so i fly from the world
im not tryinna ruin this any more
so much blood, i might make some gore
so fucked up, nothin ever works
so much so deep in my core
go, find the pieces, make me whole
out of xans, leakin on the floor
nowhere to go fkn everything hurts
forevr jus an empty fkn girl
i don need anyone, this razor by my side
idk what real life is like
draw blood n it feels so nice
i swear its perfect like every fkn time
cry, girl, cry, pour out the last of ur heart
jus go n feel alive
take ur life with u this time
just this one, just this once
whys me so hollow?

hollow

prod vsumy

pretty scars, im an artist
lost in the stars, idk where my heart is
addicted to the stops in my heartbeat
i love it when i cant evn breathe in
deep scars, im an artist
yeah i fkn love this
drawin blood cuz im an artist
withdrawin n then forget everything

oh, ur so fkn perfect
i crave u every fkn moment
every night die holdin ur hand
id spend my lifetime in that one second
all the memories are faded
im so broken from tryinna escape them
im jus tryinna feel fuckin anything
n i feel blood, i feel drugs, can u blame me?

pretty scars <3

n no im not fixing the clicks but fuckkk 😭

prod recyclebin

wanna float away, its so tempting
jus wan be okay, stop existing 
im ending, i hate me, i rot away, im fading
idk if i still wanna hold on
wish i could vanish, im so lost
im a fuck up but its my fault
ran out of love n now ur gone
i still got drugs so its alright
take a few xans, sleep a few nights
n it goes by in an instant
it feels so nice to be distant
i breathe in, don breathe out
its peaceful while i bleed out
im a ghost, but its perfect
it kills me, but its worth it
it heals me, i lose everything
i gave up so many things
my life sucks, im invisible
wtfs a heart, do i need one?
its so fkn hard to fkn stay here
when everythings a fkn maybe
n nothin has meaning
n i feel no feeling
i mean it im numb
do drugs to feel alright
n no one gets it, im jus dumb
i wan attention, get high for fun
yeah cuz its so fun to ruin ur life, right?
have u seen my wrists? n is that fine?
will u tell me, that ill die?
i fkn know that n i don wanna die
i try my best but i fail
im sorry, relapsed again
always high, miss every day
i miss everything, i wan feel anythin

distant

this is a bit old

prod margoproxy

i fall apart so much
n xanax stitch me up
i float on, im far
i i idk
i need drugs n thats a fact
cnt survive on my own without fallin
im too high to evn care about dyin
i feel fine, im fine
i wont fight if i don have to
give in to the urge to fkn cut
im on the floor with all my blood
wrists leaking from the questions i asked u
do u love me? "i do"
would it hurt more if u didnt lie?
i don wanna evn think anymore
so ill jus take another two yeah
yeah the floor feels like a best friend when u don wan me, n im waitin for the xan to take effect
why, why cant i leave too when i break myself?
i try that all the time
yeah all these fkn lines on my wrists arent for nothing
theyre for u an me and all the times i shldve felt things
but it makes me feel like shit, n i deserve it
this life is too much, i cnt take it
school bathroom, anxiety
skip class, snort oxy
yeah ive found a cure
fuck i wont make it to twenty for sure
ill be dead soon ye

cure

prod robert6beats

flyin higher than the ceiling
i cnt see shit wi all these needles in my eyes
im so infected
cut my body i don feel shit
goin deeper is this masochistic? or suicidal?
but i don feel it?
uh idfk
n idfc, im self-destructive,
when i look in the mirror i don recognize me, self-agnosic
self-diagnosing cuz i think im goin crazy
yeah swear ill fkn go psychotic one day off the benzos im takin
i mix it, cuz idec about livin
idk but its toxic
kms now, im a fuckin ghost bitch
i like to test things, yeah, yeah, thats why my wrists are fkn leaking, n ill stop breathing
yeah too many things gone wrong for me to evr heal
n im like everdead n still forever here
i shouldnt be here, no
idk wtf im on rn
but i think i took too much
yeah it feels so good
can u see it in the way i walk
don talk please yeah
im peacefully leavin this earth
i was reachin, but nobody helped
thats fine, im ready to forget
four xans n a canvas to paint red
my razor n many more pills
more than enough to be painless
yeah cuz i cnt fkn take this
so ill go, take my life, i don wan it
im a failure, i tried my hardest
no more fkn hearts left
oh no, im scared to be heartless
im so used to bein in pieces
but i want this ye
no more time here wasted
im sorry i was here to begin with
n im sorry im choosin to leave
but ill nvr be the girl i wanna be
n ill nvr get clean
not worth it, i cnt be healed
i became everything i feared

everdead

uhhh yeah i make music bc its my only escape from myself ig <3

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