sicker and sicker

another old verse I trashed for ages.
im working on new stuff slowly, things on the way 

SP-333 [PROD. PXLSDEAD]

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lyrics: 
Feel like I'm dying again feeling pain in my heart let me get some more medicine 
No point in trying again when we break it apart I think that'll be evident
Voices inside of my head been relentless I rarely get time to myself 
Choices I made in a mess of a mindset they sent me to dwell in this hell
Call me whatever you want I'm a junkie like oh so you noticed aswell?
Falling forever my gut feels funny tonight I'm a ghost in this shell 
Don't be so kind I don't think I deserve your respect and I don't want your help
I sit in silence and think about stepping off edges but I never fell...

EDGES [PROD. STXYALXNE]

lyrics - 
Im feeling sicker and sicker 
im working and working im tryna get richer 
I made a bag off of wickr 
I burned it on purpose on highs in the winter 
Try understand it's a hiccup 
I know that youre nervous but mumma ill fix it 
I know im not perfect but nobody is 
its a shame that I did what I did 
...It's a shame that I did what I did but I did it 
And im sick of wishing I did what I didn't 
And I don't know if I can make a decision 
And everybody tells me hold my position 
Yeah theyre all telling me to hold my position
But I'm sick of writing shit nobody listens to
Im sick of trying to cope im a prisoner
When will this end? Im fucked again 
Yeah when does this end? I guess it depends 
Im stuck on the fence Im livin but dead 
Im sick in the head forget what I said 
Fuck em all, I got my eye on the fuckin ball 
I think im fine then i suffer more
I got desires for somethin more
Am I back on that shit again?
I'd prefer you don't ask cause I don't wanna answer 
Is it bad again?
I said don't fucking ask shits not going to plan bruz
Everyone round mes got shit going on i got nothing worth telling 
These people I love asking if they can help but they know im not ready 
Fuck look at me sitting here clenched jaw
Got numb to the pain never not sore 
Guess I'm insane I was hunting for it 
Blessed all the same I got something for it 
Still fucked in the head tho
Still Addicted to meds I don't get enough rest 
I struggled and fought til the end and im finished 
Times up, come and lay me to rest 
I couldn't care less if uou like it or not 
cause I do it for me shut the fuck up 
Been looking for death in the right spots 
but you can't kill me mother fuckaa
You're doing your best but you've had it with this 
no wonder you've been falling under 
You knew you were testing your limits a bit 
yea I bet that you feel like a dumb cunt 
Since the same day I dropped die alone 
I never needed friends I been fine alone 
Why the fuck am I such a dick head 
nah never mind let me light a load 
Like I'll never learn, waiting patient till it's my turn 
Let it burn
Let me burn bitch

NOTHING WORTH TELLING [PROD. WXRST]

rough demo, had to spit these old bars over something

HATCHET [PROD. NEZZY]

VERYRXRE Ft Shape Vader, Sonzo, Cix50. (Prod Deadboy Posh)

MUNGO FT CHRONIC SHNXMAN [PROD: DUB A]

demo mixed by me 

the same people i hold close are the ones i should be avoiding 
had the same conversation too many times to ignore it 
im fucked up in the head and im not scared to admit it 
i got demons saying life isnt worth it and i should quit it
i think im probably pushing it with all these pills
i dont give a fuck at this point im just keeping shit real 
i wake up and ask myself why the fuck am i still here 
i wake up wishing i could just disappear 
sometimes i remember how good ive actually got it 
then i start missing her and i get straight back on it 
i been smoking the same shit since 2013
thats 6 years straight flipping packs since 16
still rock the same jeans and double xl tees
6'3" '96 on the 12th of the 6th..
ive been the same since day dot i always knew i was sick
finna smoke a sack of green and bend your bitch over the sink
dead boy walking not hearing you when you talk to me 
run on my own agenda not flippin until the coffin 
i guarantee you im not stopping 
im up late night most nights sittin and smokin chronic 
blacked out lay another track down 
hit it from the back, nah i dont want you back now 
i put my old feelings up high upon the shelf and forgot about em
forget about it bitch get your head around it 
i made my own lane and im not gonna let em in 
i got a secret i cant tell em cause i dont know what it is 
im a freak with a flow that could put you in a pit g,
they can see im gonna blow they tryna finish me 
i cannot see or hear the clones or the mini mes 
fuckin listen g i do not fuck with what youre spitting 
you cannot compete with me..
better duck bitch once again i came to wet em up
5th time this month and i dont even have a gun
dont try to bring yourself up or try pulling me down to your level you pissweak little cunt
ive fucking had it if you couldnt pick it up
scenes full of trash and i came here to clean it up 
i got sick of bagging it up and its all just music now 
i finally had the guts to give up, but i am clueless how 
the tides just seemed to switch themselves up
im on the rise these other boys be out here packin it up 
im cuttin ties with everyone thats showing me fake love
i know youre just hitting my line to try and get a leg up
i dont know why they still be trying they just do not let up
i promise homie ill be fine without your feature bad luck 
since a young mother fucker i had plans to live it up
got you sprung mother fucker think its time you give it up
why the fuck they always talk about the same shit, lame bitches 
i be on some other shit my game way different 
the fuck they tryna be up in the same whip, lane switching?
i be on my own shit i stay a safe distance
bad boy baby im the only one that does it like this 
right quick im boutta level up like ten times with it 
made the choice to ride with it
made decisions high as shit
shit got iffy with my bitch i told her this is how it is..
i told her this is how it is yea i got plans of getting rich i aint tryna have no kids...
kill

CLEAN IT UP [PROD. LCS]

mixed myself 
lyrics - 
i got sick of counting the tears shed, my fears dead 
left all of the hurt behind cant see it in the distance 
steppin out the shadows got em sayn shit like hes next 
bet you know im dead inside you hear it every time i vent 
i do not pretend, these words are from the chest 
i dont need to worry if my shit makes sense 
could have died during the fall but i survived through the winter 
i still cry for what i used to have she knows that i miss her 
12 months i couldnt see it for what it was and off top 
i couldnt even count the times you hit me with a dog shot 
guess i lost the whole plot, seshin on the wrong block 
burn me down to ashes baby treat me like an old sock 
told them boys to get off, im about to jet off
do not come to close to me the temperature is red hot 
reconnect my heart to all the finer things i took for granted 
pleased to get an early start i had to come in upper-handed 
i did, but these pussies never understand it 
they think they should be above me just cause they had better planning 
this world is not demanding, i do it how i please
and wonder sometimes how the fuck im ever gonna manage 
i paid the price to live the life i always wanted 
this is all ive ever had its not a maybe i am on it...
im only ever being honest i dont have the time to fake it 
why the fuck id even bother?
i got sick of counting the tears shed, my fears dead 
left all of the hurt behind cant see it in the distance 
steppin out the shadows got em sayn shit like hes next 
bet you know im dead inside you hear it every time i vent 
i do not pretend, these words are from the chest 
i dont need to worry if my shit makes sense 
could have died during the fall but i survived through the winter 
i still cry for what i used to have she knows that i miss her
kill

FEARS DEAD [PROD. CRCL]

KILLJAY X DIELIZM
verse 1 KILLJAY
verse 2 cix50
verse 3 kno.money
prod. ronwood
mixed/mastered by chronic shnxman

NOTHING TO PROVE - KILLJAY x CIX50 x KNO.MONEY

Artist: Ødin (Feat. Muks Died) 
Leaked off "The Dope Man" EP
Distro: POiTA - PMR - Empire Records

The Dope Man

Commotion

Ødin - "Commotion" (Feat. Muks Died)

SOME CYPHER TYPE SHIT.
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THIS SONG WAS FINISHED ON APRIL THE 27th, 2019. We got heaps of hidden gems left.

TVCKED IN - CIX50 x CHRONIC SHNXMAN x YOUNG GHO$T

ILLFERAL X REZCHEM - SLICED BREAD

" CHOP - SHOP " 
( produced by SHNXMAN, mix & master by SHNXMAN )
" WHAT'S THAT "
( produced by SANTAN, mix & master by SHNXMAN )
" 3 TIMES "
( produced by SANTAN, mix & master by SHNXMAN )
" TALK IS FREE "
( produced by SHNXMAN, mix & master by SHNXMAN )
Artwork by Cix50

TALK IS FREE [prod: SHNXMAN]

Mixed & Mastered By GeorgeDaLankyLord
Cover art by LZWR

ColdHearted (prod. llouis)

EX1TSCH3ME

NVRSFT RECORDS
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A PLACE FOR NEW ZEALAND'S ORGANIZED UNDERDOGS.
THUS FAR -------------
CHRONIC SHNXMAN
DUB A
CIX50
LBFRMIKEY
YOUNG GHO$T
LUCI
SADHECTORR
DIELIZM
RVNNAH
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FUMER - SLAVE - FANTABUSE
JORDI'S ART
WITHDRAW
TRAP - HIP HOP - METAL - UNDERGROUND.

TVCKED IN - CIX50 x CHRONIC SHNXMAN x YOUNG GHO$T

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