sore throat today 
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PARDON MY SON 
HES A BASTARD 
A LAMB WHO CAN SEE BOTH SIDES 
YET THE COIN SAYS HEADS 
SO HE DIES 
AS THEY TRY TO OMIT HIS LIFE 
BUT ITS ALWAYS MINE 
LED TO THE EDGE OF A KNIFE 
SAID IT FELT SO REAL 
DID THE PAIN FEEL NICE
NO 
I RECKON IM A SACRIFICE 
WELL YOUR RIGHT THIS TIME 

SO GO SIT WITH YOUR SAVIOR 
IN THE WAY THAT YOU OUGHT TO BE SAVED 
THOSE WOMAN GAVE BIRTH 
TO YOUR CHILDREN 
MY LOVE FROM THE 
SECOND DIMENSIONS 
FLESH IN MY WORDS 
AS THEY’RE MENTIONED
AS I WRITHE IN MY OWN DISGUST 
CONCUSSED I BLED 
EVERY BAD WORD
AS MY LUST FOR YOUR LOVE WENT DEAD 
NOW WHENEVER I REST 
A DISASTER 
ONLY EAT WHEN IM FED REGRET 
DID I MAKE YOU STUMBLE 
I APOLOGIZE 
SUN ONLY SHINES DOWN 
ON THE SINNERS SIDE 
LORD I DIDN’T REACH OUT 
I WAS TOO ASHAMED 
BUT YOU GAVE TO ME 
ALL THE ONES 
WHO GO ASTRAY 
WHY DID I MY MOUTH SHUT
WHEN THEY WANT A NAME 
FOR THE CERTAIN WORDS 
OVERHEARD 
WHEN YOU’RE IN THE RAIN 

COLLARBONES AND CARCASSES 
MY SKIN IS STILL A NARCISSISTS 
SUBMISSIVE TO THE WRATH OF GOD 
EXPOSING ME AS OPPOSITE 
PETALS BY THE PIT
AS SHE CATERS TO THE STEM 
SATAN POUNCE UPON MY RIBS 
TILL MY THROAT IS FILLED WITH FLEM 
HOLY FATHER I AM SICK 
SPIT 
RIGHT INTO MY EYES  
GET THE MENTAL FROM THE MUD 
WILL YOU TAKE ME 
AS YOUR LIFE 

Ooohhh 

Come all ye 
Come ye weary 
Faith over all your fearing 
I love it when your near me 
Love still when disappearing 

“I DIDNT CHOOSE MY FIRST GENEISS 
BUT I CHOSE MY SECOND ONE” 

“YOU DARE DEFY MY GRACE AND ANNOINTING? “Your kingdom come” 
“Noah”

FATHER, YOUR THERAPIST RAN AWAY

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dorian concept - hide but it's midwest emo [dark fantasy][by jacalmusic]

𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒹𝑜𝓂𝒶𝒾𝓃𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑔𝒽𝑜𝓈𝓉

I had a dream where I was in a large public indoor space, and I was acting quite loudly, interacting with others. I remember being with a group of friends and bothering the employees who work there. I return to where there is a hub of people and everybody is looking at ********, who is talking about her dress. At some point there is an odd phase in setting as I continue with dream content I don’t remember and I see ****** flirting with ****. I immediately get the idea to walk up to Jordan and be over dramatic and pitchy, about how she was mine. I physically pushed him back as I walked in a particularly goofy and non aggressive way and he let me push him as he laughed stepping back. I then grabbed **** by the waist and started talking to her. There may have been more instances of ****** and **** but I do not recall it. Unable to recall anything else in particular I phase out, to a segment involving league that I don’t really remember detail to except for me really being focused on how to win the game. I then phase out to a similar setting as the first location but all the lights were dark, as I began a homosexual sexual engagement with a man with black hair I don’t recognize, fairly tall. I may have kissed up his neck, and I laid down. He bent over me and laid his face into my neck and that’s when I began consciously wondering about what I was doing. I was sexually detached and seemed to be doing it just to do it. I felt a certain sensation that wasn’t exactly accurate to lips, but I simply assumed that it was such. I laid down and saw ******* in the distance and ***** talking about something to all of us. Albeit the sexual interaction it seemed a rather casual scenario as me and the other laid on the white flat blanket with pillows. In my head I wanted ******* to lay with us, but I never said anything on the topic as I opted to ask if she was familiar with a particular game and joined in the conversation with *****. It wasn’t the exact game I was talking about but it reminded her of a game with a heavy relation to revenge, which I happened to be very familiar with, and we started talking about it before I phased out. The next setting involved a flashback I was shown somehow involving ***** and ******, and I was curious about how ***** felt about me. I saw in fast speed ***** and ****** having an intimate relationship, and I immediately said out loud as if this flashback was presented by somebody I was familiar and comfortable with: “yeahhhh he probably hates me”. The flashback continues to show me, ****, and other friends in a limousine in colorful suits, as if we were posing for the field of view in separate seats. It then showed us as we got out and started dancing around a car and I saw myself, realizing I was in my white and navy blue homecoming outfit. The flashback ended. I started talking to ***** and asked him how he felt about me and he said I was fine, but he confessed that he had a problem with me cussing to much. I said: “I understand that, I don’t want to make you stumble. I can definitely stop swearing. Can I mention that you wanted me to stop cussing to other people so they know why I’m acting different?” And he replied that he would prefer if I used the “he” pronoun instead of the actual name. I was fine with this, and woke up after.

FATHER, YOUR THERAPIST RAN AWAY

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