this track was extremely difficult to produce properly

LYRICS:

Living in a different day 

What’s the song you’re gonna play 

Call the shadows 

Let me hope 

Many years 

On haven road 

And I could look forever 

And take Gods story in 

I pray we’ll be together 

You have my heart to give 

Father you forgive me 

The day I crossed the line 

Leave my phantom living 

And hold them in my eyes 

Oooh I remember what you say 

Oooohhh

Anything to make you stay 


Please give me time 

I needed to trust you 

I need to get right 

You need me to come to 

You want me alive 

Who do I run to

When I choke on the lights 



Smile in my dreams 

Feel what you think 

Out of my mind for you 

I drew a door in my room 

And set out of view 

To see if this all was true 

Has it clouded you 

The hearts in your pocket 


Feeling unreal 

Pray these voices are decrypt 

Pray these people find me interesting 

Love is fatal 

Are you listening 


Everybody had their say 
As I mirror their spirit 
Enter my mind all day 
Sound of your voice 
I got it 
Thoughts when your making a choice 
I have it 

No point in staking the farce like I’m dreaming 
Devils subjecting me harsh without meaning 
Deny it admit that you’re out of your mind 
But you’re totally calm 
rather detached with life 

Admit it 
Embody the visions 
That veil this religion 
and feed two positions of sanity 
Everyone puts on a show 
The purest devotion 
Hella inspiring 
As I wash my head 
In that river 
To realize I’m tainted 
with clarity 
Illicit by all of the means of this world
To indulge in the God who’s aware of me 

Do with me as you want 
As you turn haven road 
Just please don’t leave me all alone 

Jesus i wait for you
I Remember you came 
You took the weight of all my fears 
And told me it’s ok 

You held me way up here

Look to the driver to make your world sane 
Your god is a writer 
And he wrote your name 
Spoke of the chosen at birth you're delivered 
By quivers 
The feathers had murdered the mane 
Section of hell is reserved with the blame 
Lord am I falling or flying away 
Removing the limits of what I believe in 
Just if it’s ripe 
Just if I’m needed 

There is life in the meaning of GOD
You told me my vice is fiendish
John 15 
You are the vine 
Permanent Grace 
Oh Jesus divine 

You are in me 
And I’ll be in you 
Asking him anything 
Ask for the truth 
Show me the way to get closer to you
I’ll search for your voice 
Cause he knows what to do

ｈａｖｅｎ rｄ．

LOVE + POP Pt 2

carti

lemme know if I should drop on all platforms

Lyrics:

promise me we'll never grow old

you watch as my heart turns cold

longing for what you never told me

wondering why you'll never hold me

hoping that'll never be me
[it's not me]
hoping that you'll set me free
[I'm set free]
hoping I can be at ease

just make it so this pain can freeze

this hopeless life

where all is lost

promise me we'll never grow old

you watch as my heart turns cold

longing for what you never told me

wondering why you'll never hold me

hoping that'll never be me

hoping that you'll set me free

hoping I can be at ease

just make it so this pain can freeze

cold [prod. clvr]

Insomnia(prod. disphxria)

PlzDntGo (bring me with you) Prod. RFM Beats

Haven

fault

pinwheel(calm)

vanity

time stands still

if i take your hand

𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒹𝑜𝓂𝒶𝒾𝓃𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑔𝒽𝑜𝓈𝓉

I had a dream where I was in a large public indoor space, and I was acting quite loudly, interacting with others. I remember being with a group of friends and bothering the employees who work there. I return to where there is a hub of people and everybody is looking at ********, who is talking about her dress. At some point there is an odd phase in setting as I continue with dream content I don’t remember and I see ****** flirting with ****. I immediately get the idea to walk up to Jordan and be over dramatic and pitchy, about how she was mine. I physically pushed him back as I walked in a particularly goofy and non aggressive way and he let me push him as he laughed stepping back. I then grabbed **** by the waist and started talking to her. There may have been more instances of ****** and **** but I do not recall it. Unable to recall anything else in particular I phase out, to a segment involving league that I don’t really remember detail to except for me really being focused on how to win the game. I then phase out to a similar setting as the first location but all the lights were dark, as I began a homosexual sexual engagement with a man with black hair I don’t recognize, fairly tall. I may have kissed up his neck, and I laid down. He bent over me and laid his face into my neck and that’s when I began consciously wondering about what I was doing. I was sexually detached and seemed to be doing it just to do it. I felt a certain sensation that wasn’t exactly accurate to lips, but I simply assumed that it was such. I laid down and saw ******* in the distance and ***** talking about something to all of us. Albeit the sexual interaction it seemed a rather casual scenario as me and the other laid on the white flat blanket with pillows. In my head I wanted ******* to lay with us, but I never said anything on the topic as I opted to ask if she was familiar with a particular game and joined in the conversation with *****. It wasn’t the exact game I was talking about but it reminded her of a game with a heavy relation to revenge, which I happened to be very familiar with, and we started talking about it before I phased out. The next setting involved a flashback I was shown somehow involving ***** and ******, and I was curious about how ***** felt about me. I saw in fast speed ***** and ****** having an intimate relationship, and I immediately said out loud as if this flashback was presented by somebody I was familiar and comfortable with: “yeahhhh he probably hates me”. The flashback continues to show me, ****, and other friends in a limousine in colorful suits, as if we were posing for the field of view in separate seats. It then showed us as we got out and started dancing around a car and I saw myself, realizing I was in my white and navy blue homecoming outfit. The flashback ended. I started talking to ***** and asked him how he felt about me and he said I was fine, but he confessed that he had a problem with me cussing to much. I said: “I understand that, I don’t want to make you stumble. I can definitely stop swearing. Can I mention that you wanted me to stop cussing to other people so they know why I’m acting different?” And he replied that he would prefer if I used the “he” pronoun instead of the actual name. I was fine with this, and woke up after.

ｈａｖｅｎ rｄ．

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