Name: On Purpose by Nymphetamine
Duration: 1 min 58 s
Description: "i'm not a violent dog, i don't know why i bite"

The B-side of my new single "Cynical Morning Smoke". Listen first here on SoundCloud. Release on other plattforms November 21st. (2024). A quite fast punk rock song with not so very important lyrics :)

Buzz Killers

Matthew Heller’s latest record, Criticism, Judgement, Heartbreak, and Peril, marks a significant moment in his evolution as an artist—a point where his self-reflection meets his bold commitment to examining the complexities of the human experience. These songs dig into themes of growth, discomfort, and a deep yearning for connection. It’s a raw and honest exploration of what it means to wrestle with one’s place in the world, and how to navigate a life filled with contradictions. Heller isn’t afraid to face the uncomfortable truths head-on, whether it’s his own struggles or the broader issues he contemplates. Each song on the record invites the listener to join him on this journey, to reflect alongside him, and to find resonance in shared human experience.

Sentinel -  DP master v1 - 16 bit

My wonderful child. 
Crying for the saddest thing ever. 
Losing your heart entirely and never finding it again. 
Doubting the sky and those who live in it. 
A difficult story to tell. To remember. 

Ohh Wonderful
Wonderful 
My Wonderful child
Great joy for too short a time. 
But enough to be loved. Infinitely.
Ohh Wonderful
My Wonderful child.
Too soon to go.
Too much pain to bear.

The leaves fell in a season that wasn't yours.
And the sun set without ever rising again.
Impossible to find serenity in this hell.
I am consoled by the fact that you will have a paradise all to yourself.

Ohh Wonderful 
Wonderful 
My Wonderful child
Great joy for too short a time
But enough to be loved. Infinitely.
Ohh Wonderful
My Wonderful child.
Too soon to go.
Too much pain to bear.

One day I will meet you again. 
We will live everything that was taken from us. 
Wonderful creature. It will be love forever. 
In the fields among thousands of flowers we will walk together. 

Ohh Wonderful
Wonderful 
My Wonderful child
Great joy for too short a time
But enough to be loved. Infinitely.
Ohh Wonderful
My Wonderful child.
My Wonderful child. 
My Wonderful child.

My wonderful child

A Very early Demo of my next track. I will be expanding this further. Feel free to leave a comment as your feedback really helps.

Swamped (Very Early Demo Idea)

Instrumental Guitar Track, for background music, for collaboration.

Instrumental Background Guitar, for Collaboration

Just a couple of small additions bass and some strings later on. Please feel free to comment as i am just experimenting a little making this track and any feedback is valuable and appreciated.

Prometheus ( Early Demo Extended )

From Stockholm´s streets, Frank & Hilma

A track about scrolling back to her...

Here are the lyrics:

I've been around for so long
dig in the ground 
it's time to go
Nothing that i'm afraid to lose 
there's noone who'll miss me

I felt that i was strong
i did not hold my tongue
I could not stand of being ignored
like i was not there

I know it's true, that all i do
trying to get a clue but i'm just 
crawling back to you

Another day is through
it's over and that's true
She is not coming back
and i don't want her to

Well it's late at night
and i'm returning home alone
Man, this is what you get
when you 're out of date
you're thrown away

I know it's true, that all i do
trying to get a clue but i'm just 
crawling back to you

So Long

Sorry for the messed up levels! 

Lyrics:

Phone face down
Screen got cracked
Said I’d quit
Then I slip back.

Boots in the hall
One sock on
Glass in the sink
oh my god the bourbon’s gone.

Scrolled through drafts
I Didn’t send
Lied I’d stop
Then oh my god I pressed send.

Fridge light buzz
Flickering white
Tongue feels thick
Oh my god my skull feels tight.

I’m not most people
I drink just to fight
I regret every drop.
If I remember it right.

Coat on the floor
Keys by the drain
Bottle cap bent
Oh my god a weird pain
Words came fast
You moved slow
Left the porch
oh my god into the snow.

Room went dim
Thoughts turned loud
Tried to stand
But oh my god I fell down.

I’m not most people
I ruin what’s right
I regret every drop
If I remember it right.

Wiped the mirror
Missed a streak
Same as the thoughts
I never speak.
I swore I’d quit
Even set the date
Laughed alone
Oh my god that's my fate.

Sun broke in
Seared my face
Breath like cigarettes
Oh my god there's no escape.
Called my sister
Voice was low
Said I’d quit
Oh my god She hung up slow.

I’m not most people
I ghost what I love
I regret every drop
If I remember it right.

Sink ran warm,
Scrubbed the cup,
Let it go,
Oh my god that's enough.

Bourbon

Dear friends - Chlorophyll is also our friend - it absorbs carbon dioxide and uses sunlight to make wood. Scientists are increasingly emphasizing the importance of preserving the greenery on Earth. Trees also provide shade, coolness and retain moisture in the soil. Trees are the climate's friend! At the same time, I would like to tell you what my grandfather taught me: chew each bite at least ten times so you don't get fat and have no stomach problems - and - save on electricity!!

Quietly the River Flows

Quietly the river flows under the green embrace 
of the willow trees whose leaves are moving with the wind
and birds like to catch all the flies swarming around here
and under the trees a lot of children have
gathered here to learn
all to know about our nature

They all lose their breath when they see the greenery
over the stream that sparkles by the morning sun
they enjoy their life and they can’t understand why
that not everyone are able to see this 
wonderful show
that are created for all of us

And they listen to the words given from their teacher
that say how it is when everything is falling down
how nature react - during the years that lie ahead of us 
it is magical how - nature swallow all the
carbon dioxide 
that we people have let out in the world
It is a magical sight to see these green leaves here

Lyrics in Swedish

Tyst flyter floden

Tyst flyter floden under den gröna famnen
av pilträden vars löv rör sig med vinden
och fåglar gillar att fånga alla flugor som svärmar omkring här
och under träden har många barn
samlats här för att lära sig
allt att veta om vår natur

De tappar alla andan när de ser grönskan
över bäcken som glittrar i morgonsolen
de njuter av sitt liv och de kan inte förstå varför
att inte alla kan se denna
underbara show
som är skapad för oss alla

Och de lyssnar på orden från sin lärare
som säger hur det är när allt faller ner
hur naturen reagerar - under de år som ligger framför oss
det är magiskt hur - naturen sväljer all
koldioxid
som vi människor har släppt ut i världen
Det är en magisk syn att se dessa gröna löv här

Quietly the River Flows - 2025-07-13 14.27

"i'm not a violent dog, i don't know why i bite"

On Purpose

Nymphetamine

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