think about u

produced by killedmyself

mixed and mastered by me

completely non profit


lyrics 

Where u going
I tend to fuck off in the moment
All of my tears started rolling
All of my feelings are showing
Not that im tryna be stoic
I dont not like to be open
Not in the moment and they took advantage
So i find it hard to be open
Trusting is hard when u know that
And talking is hard so just talk fast
Straighten her back
Straighten her hair
Take in it all just be glad u were here
Tryna be clear
U kept me sober for almost a year
U kept me locked up in some kinda fear
But now that im numb i just miss all the tears 
So heres toast to the jaded
And maybe one more cause im faded
Raising our cups to the wasted potential
Id say it a was borderline taken
A typical borderline patient 
Cause nobody know what im saying 
My head is not ledgible fuck what im thinking id say im better off braindead
I am not worth conversation
I feel that i am not changing
Stuck on a loop 
All of the same things that i keep replaying
All of the memories that put me in pain
If im feeling fine why i zero the vape
Freezin my brain
Cause down at my core
I do not wanna relate

if i can be clear (killedmyself)

residential. - toxic *acoustic*

get u high (like me) prod waveboys

lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

amber w/ skele (p. acey)

{HOOK}
i have a pain in my stomach 
that I could not satisfy 
it’s eating at me and I don’t why
you left me with no one and nowhere to go and it’s cold its like 20 below outside
I march through the rain in spring and the snow in the winter to make sure that you’re alright    


{VERSE}
a knight with no armor 
a sword with no shield 
but I would be stronger right by your side 
 when I look to the sky I see nothing but darkness
but that was until I looked in your eyes 
my stomach is turning and killing me 
ripping the wings off a butterfly 
my life’s like balatro I’m  playing the cards that I’m dealt and hoping they multiply  
 can’t leave my house without stressin bout death I honestly feel like I’m terrified 
like a horror movie
because I stick to my guns like its call of duty
try to rip through my flesh when the muscles chewy  
and I don’t wanna hear what your saying to me
cus i feel like a mess when it’s late im stressed and the thing that love looks like satan to me

{HOOK} x2


Mixed by @ericgodlow
Prod. by @dercept + @jolst

99knights - satisfy

prod. Jolst 
{HOOK} x2
there’s something that’s lurking inside of the dark 
it’s pulling the veins out of both of my arms 
 and this charm that I wear was supposed to protect me 
remember I sat there and watched as you left me
you let me
now our full house feels so cold when it’s empty
I’m at the point where the armors too heavy
to wear
yeah it’s too heavy to wear 

{VERSE}

I walk through the marsh it’s swampy 
my sword can’t cut when it’s sloppy 
I hear a siren singing out to me
all of my words keep coming out choppy 
and I’m tongue tied can’t say sorry
I look to the sky it’s starry
I’m alive but I don’t have a heart beat
I look out I see the storm ahead like somebody called in the harpees

{HOOK} x2

I hear something lurking….

This is a thing to hold you over til I drop on Thursday prod. Fijimar.m4a <<freestyle>>

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2

blame the pavement (mackk)

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

moving on never feels the same

masterkush420

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