ADAMANTINE

Lyrics:

I'm slow dancing on a Sunday
letting the night carry my wounds
sparkling glitter on my eyelids
alone in my bedroom 

I'm wearing a dress for myself 
i talk to stars, they know me so well
getting high,  thinking about my girl 
getting high, the world is in a swirl 

im touching the sky
its all in the mind
i wont be held back this time

i want to feel young
scream, cry, have fun
at least for tonight 

slow dancing with myself on a Sunday night
slow dancing with myself on a Sunday night

I'm slow dancing on a Sunday night
letting the lights take me to space
runny mascara on my eyelids
alone in my bedroom 

im touching myself 
i reach the clouds, they hold me so well
getting high, thinking about my girl 
getting super high, my vision is blurred

I'm touching the sky
its all in the mind
i wont be held back this time

i want to feel young
scream, cry, have fun
at least for tonight 

slow dancing with myself on a Sunday night
slow dancing with myself on a Sunday night

the past is just a disruption
I bleed in glitter, i'm unshakable, nothing scares me
so hold my throat, don't let me go

WATCH AS I GLOW (Demo)

GIRL SCOUT COOKIES (Demo 2)

Lyrics:

i arrive an hour late
i like to make them wait
they know as soon as i hit the floor
i drop it low, so low, so fucking deep 

i roll one on the sink 
a girl in the bathroom
gives me cash and winks
i wish her a good trip to the stars and dip 

there's darkness in me
but i dance it away
im not afraid, 
i sharpen knives in my head

knives in my head
i daydream about death
i like clinging to clouds
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

knives in my head
i daydream about death
i like the feeling of clinging to clouds
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

i sleep during the day
and wake up with moonlight on my face
high on stardust and cosmic lust
i'm lost somewhere in her

my girl is such a thrill
instilled into me like 
addictive pills. 
she helps me forget
all the hate ringing 
in my chest

there's darkness in me
but i dance it away
im not afraid, 
i sharpen knives in my head

knives in my head
i daydream about death
i like clinging to clouds
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

i'm disappearing
behind a shroud of smoke
your hate is loud
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

i'm disappearing
behind a shroud of smoke
your pain is loud
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

i'm disappearing
behind a shroud of smoke
your hate is loud
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

i'm disappearing
behind a shroud of smoke
your hate is loud
i like the feeling of shutting your mouth

I LIKE THE FEELING OF SHUTTING YOUR MOUTH (Demo 3)

DON'T MAKE IT STOP! (Demo 3)

Lyrics: 

There’s a pool filled with my emotions
But I feel scared to jump in

I know I was born to experience devotion 
But I just can’t seem to dive in 

Maybe my problem
Is that i'm putting a deadline
to my grief 

In my head, there's an everlasting wave
It crashes on the shores of my brain 

I keep expecting it to end 
but it never does

Maybe my problem
Is that i'm putting a deadline
to my grief 
I feel it deep underneath
I just want to feel alive

The wind blows my hair 
Each strand a dandelion
floating away  

I keep thinking I 
healed everything inside
Until it all comes back

In my chest, there is a rotten fruit tree
That I keep watering 

It lays there, scary-still 
And I know it can’t grow, but I will

floating away
(I was born to experience life)
but I keep forgetting why

I KEEP EXPECTING IT TO END (Demo)

SO GLAM (Demo 2)

Lyrics:

im an outlaw
im a misfit
i smoke for breakfast
what a fucking nutriitous way to 
start the week

im a night owl
im a freak
cut me open, i bleed glitter
no one can cure 
my authenticity 

im morbidly in love
with ethers
clouds hold me 
as soft as feathers
my mind is a comet 
as far away as i want it

im too much 
i feel too much 
so i need to escape
i need to forget
im not really here
im not really here

im in outer space
parallel universe
so far away 
i need to forget
im not really here
im not really here

im a black hole
im a dark nebula
a meteor shower 
im everything between
darkness and light 

im a galaxy 
im the earth 
you should feel scared of me
im sour and sweet, never know
who you are gonna get

im morbidly in love
with ethers
clouds hold me 
as soft as feathers
my mind is a comet 
as far away as i want it

im too much 
i feel too much 
so i need to escape
i need to forget
im not really here
im not really here

im in outer space
parallel universe
so far away 
i need to forget
im not really here
im not really here

sometimes and i mean
most nights
i just need to escape
my mind
go far away
where i cant think about a thing

i dont wanna feel
i dont wanna cry
and i dont want to remember why
i want the past to stay in the past

but sometimes the past
it still lurks, hidden behind
my addictions, and inflictions 
i look over my shoulder
and see shadows of her 

so i run away
and i mean
float away, much further 
like a meteor shower

DARK NEBULA (Demo 3)

MOON CRATERS (Demo 2)

Lyrics:

over
saturated
thoughts
wearing
this drippy heart 
under 
my long sleeves 

roaller
coaster 
trying to define
who I am 
why im burning 
like the tip 
of a cig

glitchy brain
(blip)
pixelated truth
(blop)
blurry pics
(beep)
photoshopped bruise
(system malfunction)
alter ego switch 
two steps ahead of you 

artist
in a cage
singing bird
mockingjay
muffled down
muted ache

crackling
fireplace
relaxing
sound waves
covered screams
pillowcase

asphyxiated
ctrl z
calibrated
deleted memories
recuperating  

im afraid of myself
dont know how to put
the fire out

im melting
on the pyres
of my own shadows now

if i can 
duplicate my strength
and dominate my doubts

i will fight 
with my demons
until the sun comes down  

glitchy brain
(blip)
pixelated truth
(blop)
blurry pics
(beep)
photoshopped bruise
(system malfunction)
alter ego switch 
two steps ahead of you

CTRL Z (Demo 2)

Lyrics:

your love felt so violent 
your words sounded like silence

i dont know why i stayed for so long, 
im walking away, im going back home 

im finding my way out, digging a hole
entering my body, you had left to rot

i’d like to touch myself
the way the moonlight grazes me

i had turned so dark, so dark
you could sleep inside of me

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 
uhu, i feel so lucky 

i feel so lucky
i get to be with myself
never again 
will i lose me in someone else

so imma smoke until
i bleed glitter
exoplanets are seeping
out of my eyes like rivers

i would like to lift up myself
the way the sun, rises in me 

i will turn so bright, so bright
no one around me, will ever fucking sleep

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 
uhu, i feel so lucky 

and when i die 
a little inside
i will light up a j 
and call it a night

i will revamp
my thoughts on the past
i went thru hell
and now im dancing my way back 

i will erase you
and your tints
i refuse to stay where
my light dims
i was born to 
make the sun envious 

uhu, i feel so lucky

LUCKY (Demo 2)

every villain has an origin story 💜 🐙

ADAMANTINE

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