💔 Does She Love Me? — an emotional ride through love, lust, and confusion. Bendjy Calixte pours his heart out in every track, questioning what’s real and what’s just a feeling.

Oh She's Bad

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

blackheartemoji

spotify

what i am (ft. guardin)

prod and mix/mastered by me

I feel like a ghost bitch I’m transparent 
Smoking thrax up in the hills in the clouds bitch I vanish 
All these fucking thoughts I can’t manage
All these fucking thought up in my brain it needs a bandage 
I'm at a disadvantage 
Tryin not to panic
Not the best at planning
Some days barely standing 
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what big deal big bags shits real
The door inside my mind is locked shut
So what the key to the door is the drugs as of late
I’ve been staying up late not answering the phone making music smoking strong pop another to keep calm 
They just mad at me 
Oh trust I know 
I’ll just smile as I blow another o like

Driving down the road at night
Confessions to the star light 
I want a bag and bag and another bag
Yeah I know it’s sad know you’re mad yeah I know it’s bad 
Yeah I want a bag and Benz and another bag and another bag
I’m just wrapped up in my old ways 
Same songs blowing haze in a daze I hope it stays like this 
Can’t hurt like hurt like this
Just numb like this 
Took 2 more percs just to stay like this

i feel like a ghost (prod. kryptik)

{toomanyproblems}

Track five from Make It Through Fall

Guitar/Lyrics/Vox - Lil Xtra
Additional Production - Kado

Links:

Spotify

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Soundcloud

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Merch

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Insta

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Twitter

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Youtube

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Facebook

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And she says

I just want to see the real you 
Show me what your limits are, what you will do 
Answer that you’re looking for won’t thrill you 
Wishing on a shooting star as it kills you

Separated by the start of a new plague 
We’ve been living in the dark need a new day
So we fail at the sights that the news play 
And fall apart to the sound of the new age

And I wish you’d believe it when I say 
Things are hard right now but it’s okay 
When it heals then you’ll feel much less pain 
Just the scars to remind you to this day

I Keep picking up the pieces 
To see if they still fit 
But I know something’s missing 
We both know how this ends

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

We just want to leave in the worst way
Didn’t want to be here in the first place 
I’m just gonna surf to a new wave 
And fall apart when your heart strikes doomsday

So you sleep all day and I can’t rest 
Couldn’t be what you want just the next best 
And I told you everything, shoulda left it at
my dreams, so you couldn’t pull my heart out my chest but

It’s beating right there on the floor 
As you say, “just a little more” 
“I’ll always love you don’t forget”
Is the worst lie that you’ve told yet
But I hope you remember me
Cause I remember everything 
Please don’t talk to me like that 
I know you’re never coming back

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

(It's okay, It's okay)
It’s okay that you left me in pieces 
It’s okay that you left me in doubt 
It’s okay that I don’t know the resasons
But now I have to let this out

It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
It's okay that I hate you
...I don't hate you, I just hate this

It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
It's okay that I miss you
I'll never say I miss you again

I’M DOING FINE I SWEAR TO GOD

My bed is cold she likes it hot I guess he’s everything I’m not, never forgot 
It’s okay it’s okay 
I guess I knew it from the start I knew you’d break my Fucking heart, I played my part 
it’s okay okay

Make It Through Fall

DIE WITH SAFE (prod. DELIVERTHECRUSH)out on Spotify

Official Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXARZqsm6vs

Vocals by @supachefm
Produced, Engineered & Mastered by @guccihighwaters

Only Between

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