Never again I tell myself that a lot.
And I never learn, one day I’ll be at peace with it being over.

This might actually be the best song ever written

now on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/1HuuHimszG0rwRJa8OJqNT?si=kNLgzqfCRUCVeG0XnSwLkw

produced by me

I wish you wouldn't ignore me, I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early, you said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties, apparently, now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me, I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute, maybe we could still start dating
You said you'd think about it, I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone, can you just pick up the phone?
I'm so in love with you, I'm so in love with you

beta orbiter (xo_willow cover)

@weejk | 3 billion (＾◡＾) i luv u guys

met her on roblox late last night
we started talkin off the bat
then she said gimme ur tag
n now im fallin all over again
wanted more than just a friend <:(

met her on roblox late last night 
i had to add her quick 
she was just so fine 
and we *ksd in the moonlight 
it was a like a dream
it was going right

u say that u'll never leave me
man i laughed i called u crazy
u said u'll forever hate me
"just kiddin im lyin baby"
ik that u wont betray me
dk how i've been feelin lately
u could see just try to sway me
he wont succeed believe me baby

beleive me baby i was up with you for too long 
you said you ahd to go to sleep yeah u were soon gone 
i wanna be the guy to get u everything u want :(

hook

met her on roblox [+ wujek]

@akira3ksucks all of these files r directly from pwnd, none of these were ever officially released 

(excluding "why do i still feel like this?" which was deleted)

track #1 - stare (prod. pwnd)
track #2 - hell is near (prod. pwnd)
track #3 - lust (prod. xowillow + ft. jared)
track #4 - drug induced (prod. pwnd)
track #5 - bleed (prod. deadyami)
track #6 - kms (prod. deadyami + ft. h4rtbrkr)
track #7 - great, everything sucks (unknown prod)
track #8 - my girlfriend is a dead zombie popstar (prod. xowillow)
track #9 - why do i still feel like this? (prod. pwnd)

the pwnd archive (@akira3ksucks)

s/o sekai 4 helpinmg w vocals

kmk4L dude!!!!

also ty dearpanda

never again
never again tried so dam hard never learned my lesson
but u so damn god damn perfect i js feel it all again
wish i wasnt a loser so u would like me
heartache so bad feel like u bite me
doin so much crying as im typing
got so depressed i feel like dyin
dont know if im trying hard enough
i js wanna get rid of my bluff
social anxiety i feel stuck
just wanna go out and find some love
i feel so sad why am i alone
wish i had good morning texts on my phone
need to find a new way to cope
goin down 2 the forest with my rope

i wish i wasnt a loser so u would like me

@luvwillow

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/6qRIGlX2ZKefErRnfhATQv?si=e23523707cef4dcf

lyrics:

you said that
u love me
i found that
hard to believe

i lied to you
i'm damned to you
i'll run to u
and hope ur mine

i'm always anxious
always scared
i hate when u leave
cuz life isnt fair

i wanna die
i'm breaking down
i'll boil my wrists
till my skull is found

let's run away
and if i die
bury me here
don't take me home

i can't stop crying

FUCVHNAKJLDHNGF prod me ft @humanendeavour & @foreverstained yay

this is a song about higurashi https://open.spotify.com/track/5EBWcQgXdsnhnN5jPapcIc?si=b6dba07396384875

do they still say
romance is dead?
i've been fucking
desperate and yet

she doesn't give attention
she doesn't give affection

call me when ur bored
i don't care anymore
leave at message at the tone
hear u yelling at ur phone
why was i born
if i'll always be ignored 
i can tell why ur mad
cuz i'm nothing but a bore

romance is dead
then i'm dead too
leave me out
i'm always last choose

do they still say
romance is dead?
i've been fucking
desperate and yet

she doesn't give attention
she doesn't give affection

i sent you heart letters
is it wrong to want to kill her
is it romantic
or am i a killer
psychopathic
just to feel her
dead body with her blood on the floor
i turned her zombie cuz shes afucking whore

do they still say
romance is dead?
i've been fucking
desperate and yet

she doesn't give attention
she doesn't give affection

i dont think she means it all
but her lies always win me over 
every time u said u loved me i wondered if u were sober
the precious lies u told i'll think ab them forever 
the precious lies u told i'll think ab them forevermore

i regret like so much stuff
i wish i kept my mouth shut 
its all in the past 
we weren't meant to last 
but now im stuck in last
every girl just turns their back

do they still say
romance is dead?
i've been fucking
desperate and yet

she doesn't give attention
she doesn't give affection

if romance is dead, then i'm fucking dead too

kmk discord server - discord.gg/EyaZkHkwZG

instrumental / mix / master: @bloodsekai | featuring: @odihu @bloodsekai @foreverstained

[odihu:]
im feeling empty like no ones at home
im scared im gonna die alone
a feeling that nobody knows
and my head is feeling really cold
its only me inside of this school
everyone stares at me like a fool
in their heads i think that theyre judging me
or its just my thoughts that are killing me
i deal with this shit like everyday
i really do not like my face
why not just speak to me and say im okay
i wish someone would just take my place

[sekai:]
stuck in this school
idk what to do
im not comedy
not another stupid fool
and all of these jerks
and all of those jocks
they treat me like trash
just another kid to mock
wallowing, wallowing everyday
sobbing crying in the hallways
feels like the protagonist left me in the rain
u'd think by now i'd know my place

[odihu:]
im feeling empty like no ones at home
im scared im gonna die alone
a feeling that nobody knows
and my head is feeling really cold
its only me inside of this school
everyone stares at me like a fool
in their heads i think that theyre judging me
or its just my thoughts that are killing me

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

[lifeless:]
in ur crystal palace
i enjoy this poisoned chalice
i see ur face thru the flashing lights
yea ur glare stabs my guts wit a knife

my ice heart
is shattered art
are u ashamed
blood splattered face
u turn away
i jus suck in pain
my hearts filled with waste
all i am is a skeleton
i'll still be a gentleman
maybe i'll feel real again
maybe i'll just settle in
i cant hold this embarrassment
maybe i was too love bent
i watched u disappear into the crowd

music too loud u cant hear me shout
pulled to hell i cry on the ground
pushing thru jus to find u
why's it odd that i see two
its him yea its him
ur lips fixed to his
i'm hollow chested and my eyes are lifeless

imdyingalone

everything by meeee, kinda old style tbh. sorry for less music, the past few weeks hav been rly shitty lolll

https://open.spotify.com/track/6uPWypnH7UxjkhBGl59iwH?si=ec3a529e86ec4e6c

do u even wanna talk 2 me
i'm trying my best not 2 overthink
feel like nothings been the same since i was 14
im so boring and emo, i'm a sad machine

i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not

i've been watching higurashi
i don't leave my house
i'm scared to go to school
ik how it sounds
don't kno what to do
i sound like a fool
just so uncool

idk anymore
im such a
such a bore
i want to try
try new things
but it's such a fucking chore

a chore to me's a chore to you
and god i know i'm not a tool
if i can't help
then what am i
to do, to do, to do, to do

do u even wanna talk 2 me?
i'm trying my best not 2 overthink
feel like nothings been the same since i was 14
im so boring and emo, i'm a sad machine

a chore to me's a chore to you
and god i know i'm not a tool
if i can't help
then what am i
to do, to do, to do, to do

i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not
i'm okay, now i'm not

what am i to ever do?

@deathwish38

lights out
who turned off the fucking power?
i can't show myself
i'm a fucking coward
why u so quiet
can u speak louder?
i'm sorry i say like
5 words per hour
all my conversations 
end after greetings
left a bad impression
everyones leaving
kinda knew that'd happen
like i had a feeling
laying on the floor
staring at the ceiling

lay on the floor staring at the ceiling
its late at night again my head is fucking reeling
ive proven time again that my life has no meaning
and i dont wanna try
close my eyes and i see stars
im starting to think hell isn't far
its getting hard ur in my heart
reality has torn me apart
i never stood a chance at all
sit back and they all watch me fall
i never stood a chance at all
sit back and they all watch me fall

lights out
who turned off the fucking power?
i can't show myself
i'm a fucking coward
why u so quiet
can u speak louder?
i'm sorry i say like
5 words per hour
all my conversations 
end after greetings
left a bad impression
everyones leaving
kinda knew that'd happen
like i had a feeling
laying on the floor
staring at the ceiling

close my eyes and i see stars
im starting to think hell isn't far
its getting hard ur in my heart
reality has torn me apart

bad impression (ft. deathwish)

We are in demo mode. Very excited about this once I lock in the final arrangement

#Buzzing Metal Candidate

Lyrics

Lost souls... You've nowhere to go
Feel the pain... Then release to know
This life or next... Learned you'll show
Old souls recycled, Known upgrades grow

Be real with yourself
See the whole system
Your bank balance won't ever help you listen
This planet talks... It tells the truth
It's true intelligence is algae and humans
It levels all for youth

Lost souls... you've nowhere to go
You follow an orange... You'll burn
And when you're dead.. With now we'll grow
Poisoned roles... Mis-informed
Modern devil dope
Sometimes it's just funny... Such idiocy
I'd give you the rope...

Why do you steal honesty from yourself?
Why listen to the obvious lies they tell?
It's future history weakness
Like no other... Your answers are there
Which your thick minds just choose to smother

Lost souls...You've nowhere to go
You're so shallow, Musk says Mars
Oh wow... all systems go
More confusion for your poor paws
We have one planet yet to know!
And it's your home
So fuck conspiracy show




Shout out to NIN and Marilyn Manson. Of a genre like this they are without doubt my top two inspirations. I think they hugely inspire each-other too so I have always got them in the same pot in my head since I embraced them both donkeys years ago.


Music is a phenomenal way of letting out anger. The stupidity this song sings at would sooner blame an artist like Marilyn Manson or Kneecap for societies problems then actually fix the simple things that actually cause the issues like idiotic gun laws in america. Except stupid america (auto correct wants me to capitalise that shit.. nah your not a country so. more like a borg cube then a country). For the whole of Earth you need to prove you are a normal human being to get a gun... Even at that we use them in shooting ranges or on land where an owner has given you permission and there are no schools or kindergartens nearby...  It highlights the ignorance so nakedly... You hold onto a meaningless confederate law to fuel a corporate environment that profit from your ignorance and stupidity to have something that is destroying your society and killing your children everyday. There is no future for that type of stupidity....none....

Heres the truth... An evolved society completely restricts all guns and keeps them from the population aside from sport! Thats all we need them for. For me when you realise the pain your country has caused with nearing a century of war mongering... you'll learn gun laws at the same time and Earth will begin to move to a peaceful period.... That has to happen by revolution so whenever I call for that remember the millions of people that have died because of the american war machine and the charade of good you all believe it delivers the world... Well it delivers no good.... All that mindset does is allow you all to go about your lives planting ignorance is bliss to Earth... At some point your all going to have to make that change and in my view the longer its left the more painful that change is going to be. Do it now and we could actually move quite quickly together as a peaceful planet... Extremism which in my opinion is largely born from US aggression around the world and resentment of that should go and the places on the planet that need/want to revolt to change other centers of power... Let them do it themselves...

The passive threat of military power will be enough and that needs to be democratically run and globally controlled by all nations. Theres a charade at the moment from mr orange saying he wants more investment... Smoke and mirrors obviously given the foreign policy decisions he is actually making especially with the weaponising of aid which is imminent in Gaza. But you don't hear those realities properly in your bubbles hence the pain you allow get spread across the globe by your society

I may be completely wrong. But that's what I feel from across the water

i wish i wasnt a loser so u would like me

odihu

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