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why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?

monday again
just another week
cant do this anymore
im to weak
im going inside of the bathroom just so i can eat
cause when they see me all alone they wanna bully me

everything cools down when im in my bed
in a place called home where i can rest my head
but this cycle just repeats itself over again
if nothing ever changes i might end up dead

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?
x2

its monday again...

prod me

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping

darkness all around
left to following the sounds
and ill wallow in my tears
if i might slip and drown

im nocturnal
drink elixir
im eternally dead
i wont die in any way
try and cut off my head
x2

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping
x2

i need change

@bloodsekai

treat me like the rest do 
i dont even get to 
say that i like you
my message goes right thru
i see ur online too 
why cant i attract u 
why cant i attract u
why cant i attract u

im stuck in a loop 
can someone please shoot
or say that they love me

when will my life shift
how long it will b like this 

treat me like the rest do
i dont even get to
say that i like you
before u make me feel all alone
all alone

in a loop Prod bloodsekai

im so pissed
you can see the blood thats covering my fist
throw ur stuff into a pit 
cause you treated me like shit
i hate fighting for our love when u miss treat me all again
my emotions stuck inside like a bottle filled with sin

why am i still fighting?
dont know why im still trying
you just keep fucking lying
i think im done replying
all of those messages went right over ur head
i guess thats it where done i wont text u again




i guess thats it were done i wont text u again
u had ur fun with me no i am not ur friend
i guess thats it were done i wont text u again
and i wont say goodbye this is the end

why am i still fighting?

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

hi im back very short song 
prod me
ft. @odihu

im so damn lonely
u call my name
i get ecstatic
only u understand me
when im manic
im just waiting
for the day to end
so i can play pretend
act like im a movie star
then life wont be so hard

im so lonely please hold my hand
im not used to romance
glad that i can be ur man
cause you gave me a chance
i dont know whats wrong
with the thoughts inside my head
but i know that if you left me
there i would end up dead

im so damn lonely
u call my name
i get ecstatic
only u understand me
when im manic
im just waiting
for the day to end
so i can play pretend
act like im a movie star
then life wont be so hard

im so lonely!! (ft. odihu)

prod @bloodsekai

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die
but what u said 
its in my head 
n ive been thinkin bout suicide
but instead keep it to myself
i really promise that i tried
x2

i cannot do this on my own
but i begged for u to go
cant let u see me get this low
but ive never been this alone
call my phone
tell me what u wanna do
ill come thru
all for u
cut myself n eat no food

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die
x2

but what u said 
its in my head 
n ive been thinkin bout suicide
but instead keep it to myself
i really promise that i tried
x2

i cannot do this on my own
but i begged for u to go
cant let u see me get this low
but ive never been so alone
but what u said
its in my head
n ive been thinkin
about suicide

i cant believe u left me here
i cant believe it
i want u to decide
if u dont wanna make it clear
then ill jus do it
lay here until i die

u decide

prod me ft @weejk (aka @revivle with new preset)

yeayeaeya pop the molly in theclubb pop the molly in the clubb

fuckin on dis girl n her new best friend
pop another molly yea the party never ends
i kno that u like me yea no need to play pretend
but i get so attached n ill always depend on u
when u dont want me to
spending every night staying up for u
cus thats my nature
get jealous grab my razor then
cut my skin like paper cus
i can not replace her

cryin on the club floor
like what the fuckk
i jus need like one more
n thats enough
x2

pop the molly in the club
gettin too fucked up
pop the molly in the club
bitch im off of these drugs
woah im walkin dead

the party never ends w/ wujek

@bloodsekai

:speedwhyutryinnottolaugh:

maybe if i tried a little bit harder
id see results flow in like water
god i wish it was this easy
i just live and watch time beat me

last week i watched a long vid of social tips
i think me and u know i didnt benefit 
speaking out loud sucks it really makes me sweat
i hate being myself unless im around my friends

my lips are stapled shut
i wanna talk to you but i'd look dumb 
i wanna talk to you but i'd sound dumb

maybe i should try harder Prod bloodsekai

my brain feels like its turned into mush
maybe im on the internet too much
i love candy i got a sugar rush
fill me up

my nintendos my only friend
and when it dies ill cry again
mario carts my medicine
until the end

(mikus part)
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happy
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happyyyyyyy

my nintendo makes me happy its all i ever need
i feel fine as long as im in front of my screen
