shit still kinda ah but its getting better i see the vision

this feels exactly like my current year of highschool rn

prod my nigga @odihu 
chronically always online
i just want talk to you all night
be with you like all the time
i just want talk to you one last time
stupid bf always online
retard bf always online
chronically always online do you want play games all da time 
i like you do you love me ?
ant social loser online
im such loser online 
dont even talk im so lost online 
loser bf always online
i just want play game all the time
i love you do love me
i just want play games all the time
ouuuu
i just want be onlineee
im your loser bf online

online bf

old song prod @bloodsekai

wish i knew what to say
u could b mines today
nothing comes to me
i must be dumb truly
my brain doesnt work
i question my worth
why do things just get worse
am i living with a curse

i feel so clueless
dont know how to live
im starting to drown
need therapy now
dreams of me put down
theres no joy in bound
i hate my sound
hate going out
i let love down
it took three rounds

i let love down

@bloodsekai @yukisasayaki

after hours of reflection, yesterday is always the worst

ft @yukisasayaki instrumental by me @deathsuppressant

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

the glass i look through's tinted
my eyes are causing faults
and the concrete i walk on
there's cracks in all the spots
with your arms surrounding me
am i bothering you?
i'm harmful to everyone
yet i can't hurt you

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

i cant stop it
ur not jus somebody
everything i could ask for yea u got it
i dont wanna hurt u
yea i said it
but i tend to fuck up yea i regret it

cant take the life out of me 
its constant pathetic fallacy
my fantasy
is all i see
but u shattered all my dreams
cant take it
ur all in my head
i dont care bout my problems
i embrace the dread
i dont care bout ur problems
or maybe i do
i want u to be happy
but im so confused

everyday's disaster
don't ask me what's the matter
all my dreams are shattered
i can't make new ones even when i sleep

bloodsekai x yuki .. everyday's disaster

Backfire

produced by @bloodsekai

i just rewatched ReLIFE and omg i love it so much i had to make a song about it 

lyrics:

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

im so glad rio asked me to ReLIFE
but im so sad that you had to fucking die
x2

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be
x2

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

I'll restart my life!! || ReLIFE (p. bloodsekai)

bloodsekai x yuki .. i'm a monster now (demo vers.)

@bloodsekai 

(lyrics)
as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

i don’t know what youre talking about 
i got blood in my hair and it’s running down
you know that it gets to me i’m scared
talk about your trauma i had my share

i don’t know what youre talking about 
i got blood in my hair and it’s running down
you know that it gets to me i’m scared
talk about your trauma i had my share

as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

as i look at you 
you cut me up
you throw me out
you say im not much
you know what you’re doing
youre driving me crazy 
ask if i love you
thats a maybe

romantic killer prod bloodsekai *all plats*

ill stop spamming this preset i need to get my others from my old computer

its 6 o clock and im trying to stay up
gotta catch the bus to school man this really sucks
i hate talking to people cause theyre always super rude
so i stay by myself and im always mute

im at lunch and i just wanna eat
a group of guys came up to me
can you record a video
i said sure then they gave me the phone
i was already in a bad mood
then they grabbed the phone and recorded me too
they laughed at me and said look at you
and i sat there and cried i didn't know what to do



everyday i suck up the pain
but i just want it to end so ill find a way
when will it all get better? it feels like never
when will it all get better?
its so much pressure


im finally home and i run to my room
my mom bursts on inside and says whats wrong with you
she said ever since the year started ive been rude
but im scared of telling her what ive been going through

everybodys mad at me
i live in pure misery
i get a message from a friend
its the same video again
my heads in the pillow while i cry
why cant i just fucking die
i look around for old bed sheets
so no one will find my dead body

everyday i suck up the pain
but i just want it to end so ill find a way
when will it all get better? it feels like never
when will it all get better?
its so much pressure




































when will it all get better?

@pekarot_161

300 soon @ _ @ 

i bet you 
didnt know i fought hard 
holes in my back
im just like a cart
oh with u 
i dont know where to start 
it kills me to be apart
im addicted to ur call
leave i'll b in withdrawal 
(oh with u i have it all)

im not one to objectify but u were just my drug
i dont know what it means i said i was in love
i found u i talked to you its not the same as it once was
ur words had potency u did it so effortlessly 
i want it back im begging
is it love 
is it drugs 
why am i stuck
u dont give a fuck
i miss what it was
cant explain no because 
was it love 
or was it drugs

im still fighting your ghost Prod pekarot

https://open.spotify.com/album/5I5bS0srGrAVOi91U1uZXV?si=9XZIeY3mS3qiNr0RZ9JdEQ
prod me
ft @odihu + ty for the carry

based off of the anime "maquia"

i love my friends so much
it hurts to see 
they'll go away someday
and after all these years
its u n me alone
n thats okay

its ok 
its alright 
its ok 
its alright
x2

my friends to be here is all i that i ask for
never wanted to live long enough
 to see them all die
in my eyes
ill cry when i see them for the last time

i hate my life
this hell i live inside
everythings gone away 
ill be alone with time
their laughs and their cries
will stay inside my mind
and even when theyre gone
theyll be right by my side

ill paint a pretty picture as if theyre still alive
ill speak to everyone of them in the moonlight

its ok 
its alright 
its ok 
its alright

when will it all get better?

odihu

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