I used to listen to this back in 2017 while on the Ice, used to relate so much, btw I've been clean for 8 years now 🙈

Misundertood. . .anthem for the tragedies and the comeback kids!!

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Vocals and instrumentation by Fifty Grand

[Pre-T]

"When i come up, from the grave
i hope, what's mine, won't lose this time
walk you, through fields
fields of golden flowers
running, in circles
I've lost all my power"

The People You Love

From "I Don't Know Why"

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Oh Well (Instrumental Version)

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EMBRZ & Chelsea Lankes - Visions (DJ Topsider Mix)

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Memory (Mr FijiWiji Remix)

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Foreword & Matters - Journey

I feed on what’s left of me.
day after day.
it’s not hunger, not really.
more like… maintenance.
keeping the rot from falling apart too fast.

the demons
they don’t scream anymore.
they hum.
soft, constant,
like the sound behind silence.

I tell myself it’s discipline.
that I’m fighting.
that I’m becoming.
but I know what that smell is.
I know what it means when the mirror looks tired before I do.

sometimes I think the rot isn’t decay.
maybe it’s transformation.
maybe I’m not breaking, I’m… refining.
yeah.
refining.
that’s what I said last time, too.

there’s no redemption.
no release.
just the slow rot of trying again.
again.
again.

I forget what I wanted to fix.
I just remember the shape of the wound.
it’s familiar.
it’s home.

and I feed on what’s left of me,
day after day,
so the demons won’t starve.

two_o_three_no_more_me

“He just was in so much pain
That he, you know, took it out on his mom
And took it out on his dad
And took it out on his siblings
But it’s almost like he didn’t—he didn’t feel worthy because he was rejected
And I don’t know how anybody feels with having your whole family reject you”

“He was searching for whatever made him feel like he wasn’t alone
And that he wasn’t so different”

“Well I know that some people will say that I treated him maternally, took care of him
But I like to think that it was more I was trying to nurture him rather than take care of him
Trying to nurture who he was and get him to let him do his art, let him do his music
And encourage him to get better at it as opposed to trying to stifle him
But also not trying to be the mom, but trying to be a nurturing girlfriend—or friend”

“So who would support him?”

“Me”

“And what would he do all day while you were at work?”

“It was kind of funny cause sometimes he would just sit there and watch TV for four hours
And you’d think he wasn’t creating
But he’d be playing guitar while he was doing that or think of stuff later and then, you know, and you go out for a few hours and you come back and there’s a painting on the wall or there’s a big comic strip—or whatever, he wrote a song, you know, recorded it.”

“He hated being humiliated. He hated it. And if he ever thought he was humiliated, then you’d see the rage come out. And he was very careful about and stubborn about how the way the artwork was presented because he didn’t want to be humiliated.”

“He’s home. And he comes downstairs in his little whitey tighties. No shirt. Barefoot. Up and in his undies. And uh—hairy dong coming out. That’s another thing I got sick of looking out. And he’s standing there with this tape in his hand and I go, ‘What’s that?’ And he goes, ‘It’s the master cut to my new album. Can I put it on the stereo?’ And I go, ‘ Yeah! Turn it up. Up, up, up.’ Cause I listen to music really loud. And I look at him and I go, ‘Oh my god. Oh my god.’ And I almost start crying.”

“It just, every week it got worst. And sometimes he would come home, I think to hide. And it was really bad. He started getting sores and losing weight and nodding out. I was pretty sure he knew I knew. That I decided one time to just confront him. And I went up to his bedroom. He’s sitting on the side of the bed. And he was crying because I had just arrived. And he knew it was breaking my heart. That I—and I talked to him about it. And he burst into tears. And he was just ashamed."

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Burden (Mr FijiWiji Remix)

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CityTronix - Calling For Your Warmth

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För Alltid - High (feat. Sarah De Warren)

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Waltz Of The Hanging Hills

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Helena's Skin

Electus - Beauty From Pain

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This song is somewhat of an ending to what Ive been. 

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Your Light

Laniakea: A Hawaiian word meaning "endless heaven"

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