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"Small" is a luminiscent pop ballad about love, negative miracles, and getting hit by a car on Thanksgiving day.

Written & Produced by Nicholas Holden 
Mixed by Greg Tock 
Mastered by Zoltan Sindhu 
Photography by Alison Dias 
Graphic Design by Nick Demasi

drum + voice

Small

Live on SharedFrequencies in September 2023.

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Orange Fanta

First track from my new album. Each person perceives actions and events differently. Experiences that I thought were bringing me, and the object of this song, closer together, were not that for them. It hurt a lot but it was an important lesson for me to learn. This song song is about acceptance, healing, and moving on.

Lyrics: 
I think about the day we pushed the sun across the summer sky
Waking up next to you, riding to the movies on our bikes
And how good it felt telling everyone your name
Holding onto you beneath the bus stop roof, trying to keep away from the rain.

My heart is in cancer, my head’s in a bad place
I want to be with you but not in a bad way.
Your love is a cancer, your bed is a bad place for me.
I wasted so much time praying you would change.

It wasn’t my birthday, it was just my birthday party, but you brought a gift anyway.
Dirty magazines and a joint you rolled for me. I liked your outfit and I took your picture against the green wall.


You left early, I went to the club
I called you at 2am real fucked up and said wherever you are, baby I need you.
You left early, I went to the club
I called you at 2am really fucked up, and you said baby wherever you are I’ll meet you.

My heart is in cancer, my head’s in a bad place
I want to be with you but not in a bad way.
Your love is a cancer, your bed is a bad place for me.
I wasted so much time praying you would change.
credits
from Heart in Cancer, released June 21, 2024
Written, Produced & Performed by Nicholas Holden
Mixing Engineer: Stephanie Chow
Mastering Engineer: Zoltan Sindhu

Heart in Cancer

GAMH Prod. by LYKOS

go! is about love and cynacism. 

lyrics: 
First time I laid eyes, fell in love in love with you. 
Couple weeks go by, planning life with you. 
Now it seems naive, but it’s true. 
Thought were the one for me, thought I was the one for you. 


Now you’re telling me you have to go. 
I’ll be honest, I don’t want you to go 
But if you have to go 


Then go. 
Wind ya hips and move it like dis. 
Then go. 
Wind ya hips and move it like dis. 


Fear isn’t a god but it’s there for a reason. 
When you go go go I’ll be questioning everything I believe in 
Is free will for real or is it all pre-determined? 
When you go go go I’ll be wondering was any of it worth it? 

Because now you’re telling me you have to go
I’ll be honest, don’t want you to go. 
But if you have to go. 
Then you have to go. 


Ginger tea in Berlin I’m
Thinking of you again Like
Every song that I write is 
about the love that you give but
You’re turning on my again like 
Everyone predicted I 
Only have my self to blame for 
Swimming out into the riptide 


Now you’re telling me you have to go. 
I’ll be honest, I don’t want you to go 
But if you have to go 
Then you have to go. 


You can do what you want do. 
I’m going to Miami. 
Feel like I’m losing everything. 
My love, my faith, and my family 
And with everything I got going on 
I look up and it’s raining 
And I don’t know how but I’m sure that you had something to do with it 

You don’t even know what to do with it 
How could you be the one if you couldn’t even
Make me
Without closing my eyes 
Dragging myself across the finish line 
Humiliating comprise 

Naively I thought other things were more important 
Naively I believed you cherished and adored me
What I thought was real turned out to be fake 
What I ignored turned around and punched me in my face 
 
Everything’s a hammer to a nail 
Tired of being toxic to myself 
From making the same mistake, over and over again
I’m finally over it. 
I’m finally over it. 


You were a staple 
My lil rice and potato
But I can’t take anymore of this 
I took your picture off my fridge… 
And tore it into pieces 

My heart it is in pieces

Stitch Me Up Freestyle

Vocalist and Lyricist: Nicholas Holden
Producers: Nicholas Holden and Julien Gorena

Harbor EP coming May 2016

Iberian Blue

Produced by Kojau
 Written by Brandy Norwood, L. Daniels, Fred Jenkins III, Rodney Jerkins and Joana Tejeda

Put That On Everything

Harbor

Lyrics/Vocals: Nicholas
Production: Shorp

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Lose My Number

Written: Nicholas Holden & Jamiya Phillips 
Produced: Nicholas Holden
Mixed: Leo Quintero

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