i'm really just getting started.....

self produced/mixed demos part 1, 

i'm sure part 2 is soon

out of mind w/ seph

beat/vox/mix/master by me

lyrics:
bitch i'm off these drugs
i can bearly feel shit
i can't show no love
cause you catching feelings
strobelight in the club
dancing too appealing
you can leave with us
cause i'm through the ceiling

x out in space, no musk. keef dusted
blunt ash cast it on the roof my nigga bucking
fuck you and your whole team sucks
they too grimey, with my slimeys
hear me on the track and i'm sounding way too shiny
drinking on that black label
weed about to grind it
maybe take a pull out of the cart to get the highest
everything i'm touching turning golden like i'm midas
i might say that i'm the best but know i got a bias
but i'm still gon' say it with my chest ain't no one gon try me
federalies always wanna see just what i'm hiding
molly in my body nothing round me gonna bind me
energy around me feeling like i'm coinciding
team is looking good, ain't nobody gonna divide it
shawty looking good so i might just have to slide in

euphoria

if this song is relatable, i'm sorry. things will get better for you soon <3

vox/prod/mix/master by me

i hope this song helps at least one person feel better.

lyrics

i'm not sad at least most of the time till the sun goes down
i'm not mad at these hoe ass niggas tryna bring me down
demons all around me, i just wanna see the sun
evil my surroundings, i just wanna feel like i won for once
drowning all the sad shit, crack the blunt
hounded by the madness, try for what?
imma die with none. imma cry all alone cause i trust no one
fucked up more than i ash my lungs
imma tuck that heat till the casket comes
shit not sweet, always bitter and a nightmare
thoughts beat the shit out of me they don't fight fair

overdose twice, gave my mom a couple slight scares
motorboat pipe all these hoes just to feel care
can't share shit i'm a phantom with a grim stare 
not no bitch, i'm just showing you a few wares
tare on the scale before i weigh a couple new shares
pale when compared to myself before the new year
and i got some new fears, sheer pain with a few beers
new lane, switched up sorry i'm not too clear..
looking in the mirror getting harder with the day close
done with sipping faygos, lean was feeling way slow
and i gotta speed up the pace just to pace up
waking up to fray from everything i hate hate bruh
losing all my friends quicker than i drink the k cups
midnight strikes to distract imma play somn
followed by the dread of thinking that i'm getting fake love
getting fake love.

my life is a nightmare

a song about how other people want me to perceive myself, and how that effects me. hope someone finds it relatable

prod/vox/mix/master all by me

lyrics:

i live my life like i'm a broken man
troubled by all my demons and my sins
often forgotten how it always is
left back and cast out, i'm a piece of shit
isn't that what you want me to think?

pissed off at the thought that i can do it for free
still plagued by all this fucking evil i see
what is freedom and peace if you can't go back to sleep?
why am i always decided that i'll never believe?
in the moments that make me that nigga dressed to succeed
doubts bleeding out the mouth again it leave me deceased
shouts pleading getting louder with the absence of dreams
why don't anything remain how you remember it be?
waking just to sleep, if i don't then i don't dream
when i'm cold and getting mean it's because i fuck up everything
overloaded bust the seams, i'm imploding i don't think
that i'm chosen for the things i think about when i'm on beans
and that four-five in my jeans, it say OFF-WHITE on my seams
you look sideways now you beamed
then my party hop off of the scene 
i cannot fuck with these new ones 
because they always be out switching they teams
flipping that shit make a hit
then get back to the things in my crib that i know that i need

isn't that what u want me to think?

we just having fun with it this week.

prod/vox/mix/master by me

lyrics:
lean up in the sun drop, whip is color ice cream
told em i can't fuck with them if they don't play for my team
back at 17 all i cared about "the pipe dream"
now i'm running up a fucking check until the ice gleam
drugs is kicking sprite lee, shawty looking spritely 
all these other rappers out here looking like a hypebeast
yeah i fucking said it pussy nigga fight me
imma tell you now, imma stomp you till your eyes bleed
you ain't going my speed, sailing through the high seas
pushing 80 knots when i'm riding on the jetskis 
bro know i'm so wavy surfing make it to the crest peak
barrel to the money while i'm gunning on this damn beat

all these drugs so i can't think straight
shawty wanna show me love but i know that shit is fake
put that 2 up in my drank, cause that 4 would have me late
do it big you can't relate, cause you coasting with them snakes
draco in the trunk thump it, make that nigga meet his fate
you could never match the swag, we got very different traits
we get scary when it's late, so don't let me see your face
cause the second that you look again you'll end up in a lake
(chrous)
drop no tea mix with mango lemonade
diamond dancing to bag, it's that money promenade
meet up with the plug trust him he gon never give me shake
now we move that fucking weight, maybe off to different states
yeah fuck aye, geeking but i'm making bread
yeah, hoe might hold her shoulders so no hands when i get head
uhh, fuck with me the wrong way you gon end up holding lead
leave you posted for the feds, focused on getting ahead
tripping on these fucking meds, flipping shipments off the ship
break the burner once he read, drop the pack and then i dip

substance abuser

it's okay to be sad. it's okay to feel like nothing is right with you. it's okay to be vulnerable. it's okay to ask for help when you need it.

you are not alone. you are loved. you are not broken to the point you cannot be fixed. you can be happy again. 

if you ever feel so isolated and depressed that you don't know where to turn, please reach out to me (i'm deadass) or someone close to you. you don't have to go through this hard time by yourself <3

written/prod/mix/mastered by myself.

lyrics:
tired of.. running from myself, running from the help
knowing that i felt so low
find me in the depth, tryna get a breath often i get so close
always do what i can to make it through the worst of winds to blow
some days the death of me seems to be the thing i want the most
slowly roasting, over the coals
the commotion, divides my soul
i just wanna feel something else besides alone

old facade barricaded like a foggy windowpane
wonder if the days will ever come that i don't feel the pain
what's to gain when you still be stuck up in the fucking frame?
what's the change? i'm the same ghost but in different chains
phantom, grim, sullen. wish i wasn't under clouds
you can hear the thunder shout
phantom, ghost, fade away. stuck inside another shell
the only thing that's real is hell, for me.

ghost in the shell, i ain't feeling like myself
host body coasting through this shit up in the cell
never chose to diminish, niggas stealing on my swell
so i rose, didn't think of staying grounded for my health
please help me breathe something other than the damn smoke
please i don't need none this shit up in my damn phone
baby i'm a phantom, don't just let me fade away
why i need the drugs in my system to regenerate
yeah, ion feel so great 
why there's nothing left around me that i can relate
said you found me but i'm drowning in a higher state
leaving my surroundings just so i can go and elevate..

if you made it this far here's a little fun fact about the song: i purposely finished it without a complete bar or chrous to have an incomplete feeling to the end of the song to mimic the feeling of being incomplete that most people feel when they're down bad. i hope this song was as therapeutic as it was for me to make it. love you

the only thing that's real is hell

that moment when u off the drugs and everything feels like it's falling apart lookin ass song 

beat/vox/mix/master by me

lyrics:

darkness, out of light i can't really feel things anymore
senses, out of line i don't wanna feel things anymore
who am i to say that i'm lonely? 
if this is what i wanted from the start of the scores
who am i to say that i'm broken?
all the pieces missing still are here on the floor
crying through the drugs in the christian dior
dying in the tones that you're hearing before
i am just a glimpse of what i have ignored
it's time to pay attention to what i say 
when i'm missing sleep all because of the mind
the ease of making endings happen quickly
all because i'm visceral denying divine
denying the signs, i'm caught in the vibe
because they telling me that things get better with time
it's been a couple decades of environment tides
and i've been trying not to drown inside of the lies
provided the guidance, and still i collide
cause moments never give you time to reference a slide
dividing the ocean, the feeling is like
so how am i to make it work with nothing to pry?

if u made it this far love u, pls presave the EP!

crying through the drugs

lightspeed, moving fast
niggas ask me how i do it while i'm moving past
i could tell you but i promise you that you would never last
once i venture out the map, if you follow you could crash
why i'm rolling solo by my dolo they can't match the swag
they could photocopy what i'm doing still gon sound like ass
got me laughing to the bag, i could put that shit on blast
but if i give enough attention to these niggas i could lag
blinders up, all i'm seeing is the path
binded like a diamond all my faces looking glass
shining brighter everytime i wake up see the light amass
they designed me for the dash, now i'm headed to the cash
all i'm doing going up my nigga that's a fact
show and proving that i'm doing shit that you couldn't grasp
always got em asking brodi where'd you get that clap?
damn that 808 a slap, can you send it in a pack?
can you show me how to mix? what's that synthesizer patch?
man i learned this shit from scratch, niggas leeching too attached
off a veek they fucking tweaking gatekeep em they can't match
niggas waiting for the snatch, if you let em they gon' latch

lightspeed

LIGHTSPEED

PANAMA!

made this today from scratch, hope ya'll fw it.

lyrics:

down bad, c'est la vie. cry too much so you don't get what you need
nigga lack all week get packed up on the street
so you can't be mad if you don't track on the feed
down bad, c'est la vie. cry too much so you don't get what you need
nigga lack all week get packed up on the street
so you can't be mad if you don't track on the feed
niggas wanna be like me, man they mimicking
you a gimmick nigga nah you ain't no G
you steal swag, you not good at anything
all you do is laughable brah i swear you ain't no king
brand new class, you repeated second string
effervescent off a bean, ya'll be stressing out my chi
learned the lessons now i'm free to do what i want and need
so i'm flaunting while i'm stunting on these niggas i can't see
hoe i'm blinded by the light, able shade myself and weave
hoe i'm off it for the night, might just chill and smoke my weed
take a pill and now i geek, while they searching for my leaks
man they seeking so they can see how i'm getting to the peak
i might hit you on the slide, dip out fore they find my piece
and you know i'm fucking high, i mix shrooms up with my tea
diamond nigga got my face shining bright you watch em gleam
ride out fly off with my team, midas golden i'm too chic
bitch i'm holding so the feds might watch me glide off in the jeep
flip it dip don't want no heat
so i'm getting money while you ripping everytime i speak

c'est la vie

everything by me. vibes out the roof.

lyrics:
i know i'm hard to deal with
promise i wanna change
yes, it's true that i hurt you
i know it's not the same
never ending cycle make up then we back in a bind
tell me little lies instead of really what's on your mind
every second that we had together leave it behind
do you hate me? do you hate me now?
overthinking every single thing is bringing me doubt
overreaching got me preaching things that shouldn't come out
overstimulated by the fire raging about
do you hate me? do you hate me now?
fearing moments that we made together souring now
hearing voices in my head they only bringing me doubt
nearing something that we might regret a decade from now
do you hate me? do you hate me now????

do u hate me now?

tripping in the stars

FRACTIONS!

just put this together, kinda slaps. hope u fw it

saturday freestyle

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tirade

one of the last demos I could find from my old pc, new music coming soon

lowdown

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facetime

mourning

2nd ambient track.

i'm enjoying making these feelings come to life

back to regular music programming soon.

melancholy

fightingmydemons - goth remix

hi, it's been a while.

i've been really busy with life the past few years 
but I feel like it's time to start sharing some
of the things i've created since 2022.

i'm not expecting the love i used to get
but if you see this and listened to me then
thanks for still being here.

if you're new, thanks for showing up.

more unheard often sooner than you think.

runaway

so so so much more coming soon

everything by me like always

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still much more coming soon <3

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easily the hypest thing i've dropped in a while

hope u fw it

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