realize +mental (maknae & sense)

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prod https://soundcloud.com/shishy77 + https://soundcloud.com/prodsoulsss

she's just an apparition
i'll play the cards i'm given,
skin still itching.
(uh) keep living,
how come when im still kicking,
im the villain?
evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

and i look in her eyes
and i just see a lie,
see the ghost of a smile
while i'm watching her cry, wondering why
nothing to live for, nowhere to die
look at the sky, stars in a flight
i just want love, guess it isn't my time

she's just an apparition
i'll play the cards i'm given,
skin still itching.
(uh) keep living,
how come when im still kicking,
im the villain?
evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

i guess im the villain
gotta build my resistance
its a haunting existence
cause im the villain

evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

villain

villain (shishy/souls)

@mental @1yugenn + tactic (idk his @, sorry)

lyrics:

(victxrw)

take tht bullshit put tht 2 the side
i just wnna know that ur alright
ur the only1 thts on my mind
i cant even lie

i cant even lie girl u got me feeling down
i hold back all my tears till nobody is around
i would never try 2 make u frown
ull try to pick me up but ill just fall to the ground

i feel terrible, nd now my feelings are a little unbearable
stuck in my bed because im feeling unstable
im going all in chips on the table
my feelings are fatal

(mental)

im holding the tears in
its just like before
but you're more than a weakness
walk thru that door
and escape and retreat it
hurts me way more
when you have to repeat it

im watching you solemnly, i
could never look apart from these eyes
watching you for all of these times
i just wanna know youll be mine

(victxrw)

take tht bullshit put tht 2 the side
i just wnna know that ur alright
ur the only1 thts on my mind
i cant even lie

i cant even lie girl u got me feeling down
i hold back all my tears till nobody is around
i would never try 2 make u frown
ull try to pick me up but ill just fall to the ground

i feel terrible, nd now my feelings are a little unbearable
stuck in my bed because im feeling unstable
im going all in chips on the table
my feelings are fatal

nobody is around ft. mental (yugen + tactic)

prod meee yep
@ogpichu
@veezuh
@victxrw
#us

ive been thinkin that ive been an asshole
i thought u was gang but you turn into a foe
how could i think that youre my bro?
i guess thats your problem u gon find urself alone
u broke my world, when u said i werent the same anymore
i tried to change but i couldnt anymore
hate my brain hit my head on a wall

talking shit now
hurt my feelings
u say love now
i cant feel it
used2it now 
used2it now
need to face it
i can take it
2x

veezuh:
yeah im used to it
everybody means more to me than i mean to them
and im looking clueless
cuz everybody look at me like im not their friend
is it really that easy just to put me to the side?
sometimes i wonder if you'd even care if i died
you cant even fucking count all the nights that i've cried 
yeah i felt so weak
yeah i felt weak inside
i cant face the facts
i just wanna go back
felt like i wasn't enough, u turned ur back 
now im way too attached, i cant turn my back :(

victxrw:
rewrite, all the memories
said ill be fine when ur not next to me
and i know i act so selfishly
but u never saw my apathy
turn back the clock to a different time when i was fine
i cant explain why i cant think straight im stuck in my mind

hook repeats yep

used2it w/ veezuh, victxrw

https://youtu.be/NRHGuxyo9ew

@e13venthirteen
@hialyx
@haveonlyonechance

lyrics
shawty called me said she think im next up
i just popped a perky in my red cup
i was down bad now im flexed up
what the fuck is sleep i cannot rest bruh
lately i cant even count my checks up
still i cannot seem to pick my head up
pussy really thought that he could press us
dont he know i keep the smith and wesson
adderall and acid starting to turn into a habit
i dont give a fuck about a thing bitch im just laughing
learning as im living im just swerving and im crashing
whatever u want i promise u already have it

whatever you want ft eleventhirteen (alyx + tenoji)

#us x boystars real
this song is really loud and

verse order:
@ogpichu
@tropes777
@veezuh
@peplep
@kkyprxo

prod:
@heroinsick
@kyur0
@viinssoo

u know it w/ tropes, veezuh, peplep, kkypr (heroinsick, kyuro & vinso)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @gnde

https://open.spotify.com/track/2HkysUlkqHuFLpt71lECl4?si=27e8105b95da441a&nd=1

lyrics:

im aching
i feel my body fall apart
make my walls collapse
im crawling back
to somewhere i can start

wish they would talk to me
i feel them watching me
its almost constantly
its hard to fall asleep
wake up and walk between
hate me and want to be
i cant keep promising
that this is all ill be

i feel dead
til they tell me that they love me
i feel better
every day im losing friends
i can barely even walk on my own legs
like im floating
or maybe falling instead
but im not
its not that bad
i start feeling lost
ill hold ur hand
havent smiled since december
it might be like this forever

yea its aching
body shaking
i cant fake it
the conversations
got no patience
i cant take it
the violations
vile cadence
i am faded
the constellations
got me jaded
ive gone manic

with life on my back its just got me in panic
all of my friends they just went in and vanished
and i always felt like a monster thats banished
and all of my life i just felt like a menace

all of my time has been wasted again
trying to keep all my friends in my head
but i rather have noone there and depressed 
cuz all of these people they used me and left

i want a chance just to be by myself
cuz all of you fakes want to drain all my health
and i have been trying to fix how i felt
but all of this time and u wasted in hell

ache ft grandee

prod me :)

featuring the lovely @victxrw

https://www.instagram.com/aiu404l/

cnt get over u w/ victxrw

@victxrw
@carna007
@resolve1k
@kiryy

lyricz:
[arid]
i always feel like u push me away but idk how i made u feel
yeah idk if its even real
got too many things that i cant conceal
and it goes on and on
yeah i didnt wanna stay around for long
it hurts
everything i tried it doesnt work
u know i only wanted to put u first

[victxrw]
nd even tho I do I still come last :/
it’s always something old, always in the past
I’ll say it again, I still like ur laugh
I’ll say it again, but u just don’t react
can u hear me from ur room
all the yelling that u do
last time u said were through…
all of the blame isn’t on u

I cant function when ur gone
nothing I can call my own :((
trying to find me a home
somewhere someone I’m so alone…

[notelove]
oh the wounds, they cut so deep
im catching thoughts not catchin sleep zzZ..
im bothered by my memories 
you left me out to bleed..
youve taken all of me, wasnt meant to be 
searching for clarity, you were my remedy <#3

it hurts w/ victxrw x carna 007 (inno x kiryy)

trying my very hardest but it's never enough
@vertigoth
prod @shishy77

you took it all away
this can never be what it was, its not the same
still but a call away
never said that i didnt love you, every day

you did me wrong and ill take the blame
now every drop of the rain's the same
now i know you took it all away
and i hope that you know
know i only wanted to make you stay

never wanted to go so bad, oh no
just leave the past in the past and please dont go
its so hard to approach, so far to go,
youre always fast, and im so slow

and i know its hard, i dont blame you
you know you are what i pertain to
i will stay, guess its something about you
i cant say if ill settle without you
---
and my blood still stained on the keyboard
I'll never peek so just check at the backdoor
and with all that I can and I please
so please don't tell me that u wish it were different cuz I'll be down on my knees

say you'd be down for the winter
I couldn't think of the past
u slid beneath my skin
fragments they splinter in half
and the leaves still fall, give life when stuck to my sweater
once just a schoolboy's crush, and now I picture forever :')

Love, as we let it be
I can't lose touch, ur apart of me
I sing these songs from my chest
checking the screen for the weather
you float upwards of my flaws
my blaze as light as a feather

I know that it hurts when in motion
when confusion evokes from emotion
when I struggle to look u in ur eyes
and I can't cope with the thought of goodbyes :(

used2it w/ veezuh, victxrw

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