in these walls (prod. caspr)

5/12/2023 - venting.

I wanna know -
Am I still pathetic - wishin you were mine
am I still pathetic -In your eyes
Am I still pathetic - Trusting your lies
am I - worthless -in your eyes

5 aM im here alone again
stuck inside my head, where i never win
everyone leaves at my lowest
fake a smile, noone would of noticed
nightmares of your sky blue eyes
can't tellthe truth from the lies
they all say youll be fine
i don't feel fine
to be honest

all my love 
all my trust

what happened to you and I
they all say youll be fine
i don't feel fine
to be honest
nightmares of your sky blue eyes
can't tell them from truth or lies

what happened to you and i
thought everything was fine
wanting to start again
no, i can't do that again


Am I still pathetic - wishin you were mine
am I still pathetic -In your eyes
Am I still pathetic - Trusting your lies
am I - worthless -in your eyes

they say I never knew you maybe thats the truth
maybe it was never gonna me and you
maybe I was wrong the whole time
I wished you were still mine

am i? (prod. caves)

(Chorus)
You always got me in a bad mood
Didn’t wanna cut you off but I had to
Thought I had you stuck to me like a tattoo
But now you’re just bad news
I don’t get it
All these people talking shit they’ll regret it
And I’ve been feeling this way since I was seven
And I’ve been doing my best but nothings helping (nothings helping) x2

(Rugee :D )
I, just need this one chance
Will you just take me by the hand
And we’ll go somewhere that’s far from this nightmare
You are trapped in my mind
And you know that you’re divine
So won’t you please just be mine for this one night

(Chorus)
You always got me in a bad mood
Didn’t wanna cut you off but I had to
Thought I had you stuck to me like a tattoo
But now you’re just bad news
I don’t get it
All these people talking shit they’ll regret it
And I’ve been feeling this way since I was seven
And I’ve been doing my best but nothings helping (nothings helping) x2

(Kika :3 )
I'll, just give you this one dance
can't give you my last chance
took my heart, broke it, in pieces
You, said forever you're mine,
and I just
can't get behind
the words you told me
cz you know,
its, not fair

(Chorus)
You always got me in a bad mood
Didn’t wanna cut you off but I had to
Thought I had you stuck to me like a tattoo
But now you’re just bad news
I don’t get it
All these people talking shit they’ll regret it
And I’ve been feeling this way since I was seven
And I’ve been doing my best but nothings helping (nothings helping) x2

Tattoo ft. Rugee (prod. chromey)

My Interlude Draft

Rugee 
I can't handle it, they try to drive crazy
do you feel the same? The story's never ending
cant realize how I'm feeling, time and time again, it never really works out
but I need this more than ever, and you're always there when I'm feeling left out
my senses might betray me, I'm wishing on the daily
that you might come and save me
the smoke clears out, I'm too far gone, its getting hazy

Kika 
Told ya, come an meet me
let's leave this town now baby
come grab my hand an hold fast
I know you're scared but we can last 
forever, we'll sing this song together
no matter what's the weather
I know you're hurt but trust me
I won't let go that easy 
was scared of their reaction
but I'm so tired of actin'
that I don't get to feel loved
but you make me feel enough
just know you're safe here with me
an you'll see, it's not scary
I promise to be caring
it's okay to fall for me ~

Rugee 
I can't handle it, they try to drive crazy
do you feel the same? The story's never ending
cant realize how I'm feeling, time and time again, it never really works out
but I need this more than ever, and you're always there when I'm feeling left out
my senses might betray me, I'm wishing on the daily
that you might come and save me
the smoke clears out, I'm too far gone, its getting hazy

more than ever

(Lyrics)

In a world I don't belong,
Silent tears, love went wrong.
Lost in echoes, cold and strong,
Searching for where I belong.

Would you miss me if I was gone?
In the silence, would you even know?
Lost in whispers, tears untold,
Caring or not, as I fade and go.

In the quiet, shadows play,
Yearning for a brighter day.
Letting go, feels like decay,
Embracing scars, finding my own way.

(Ty @akarugee for final touches since I'm still learning <3)

I Dont Belong (Prod. Dosteyboi)

I Shouldn't Stay.

i cant read you

Lyrics

Baby can't you see 
what you do to me?
Baby don't you see 
We are meant to be
All I want is you
I never got over you
Baby can't you see 
What you are to me?

Kika

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