why do i always feel like that prod by xemii or spyte

Ya ya ya ya
Running turns to dust

Cant really maintain much
Feels like it rains too much
I've been so fucked up 
Cant really feel much 
I dont i dont feel much
Turning into dust 
Needa stop giving a fuck about the rush 
The smoke gets louder i dont fuss
Dont give a fuck about my lungs
Myself is all i trust in 
Be buzzing 
Place trust in
I have so many years i dont want to waste them 
Friends i want to date them 
My problems imma face them 
Let the demons and problems face em 
I just want to end up in oasis 
ReaLly done playing 
Fucked up laying 
All this money i end up saving 

Ive been breaking ahn
Some taking aw

CANT MAINTAIN 1

Dont why i lie why i lie why i lie 
Feel like ive been like too high like too high
Iiv been like in the night running from myself
I cant really deal with this shit like no one else 
I fucked up like myself, i fcuked it up myself 
I went on my own 
I went running rogue 
I got this money oh
But I dont know where u go 
Im feeling so fucked up and so alone 
Imma get it on my own promise you that 
Imma get some money make these bitch moan promise that 
I got these bitchs on the pole dancing for that
Imma get that cash, run that shit up like way too fast 
Email no fax, i get all the facts, i get str 8 to the bag 
What the fuck is that 
Talking shit str 8 to the max 
Shotting shit, i aint get no fucking lag 
I get str 8 up str 8 up 
To the fucking bands 
I aint give a fuck if ur a fan or not 
Ive been running up ive been running througn my head 
I feel like dead 
All alone i ran the red 
I Dont know wathca know 
I been up like this gold 
I dont wathca know i feel like im in the focus 
I been like all this shit be bogus 
I been going making bands on my own shit 
I aint really notice 
In the background i been frozen oh [[shit
I cant really know what the fuck is on that road 
Where the fuck i go 
Bitch in my fucking soul
What the fuck 
Imma run it up 
Imma get this material 
I cant really deal with this shit like no one else 
I fuck up like myself
I fucked it up myself 
I went on my own

RUNNING FROM MYSELF

Been Feeling way too powerful\
Dont where my damn hour go 
Losing my sense of time 
Different places where i ly

I try 
I strive 
Been tryin all my life 
Cant figure out a why 
Been trying all damn night 
Where does my soul go 
Where do i goo 
Feeling damn too rome (roam)

Feeling damn no matter where i go 
No matter how i show 
How emotional vulerable

TOO POWERFUL

Ur real 
I cant figure out ur deal 
I dont really know whats real whats real whats real  
Baby i just want to heal 
Maybe theres something i want to feel  
Baby i just want to heal 
Maybe theres something i want to feel  
There was something i wanted to feel 
Seemlying it was nothign real 
It all was a facade 
Why the fuck i feel so odd 
Why the fuck i feel like a god 
Up in this fucking public lob 

Where tf my mods at 
Where tf a job at 
Where tf a job app
Couldnt never chase a job app 
Never dreamed about chasing a job application 
Never could stay at my station
Sat here patiently waiting 
For some kinda conformation 
My words and my beats be like paintings 
Dont know why these random peeps be hating 


Baby i just want to heal 
Maybe theres something i want to feel  
Baby i just want to heal 
Maybe theres something i want to feel  
There was something i wanted to feel 
Seemlying it was nothign real 
It all was a facade 
Why the fuck i feel so odd 
Why the fuck i feel like a god 
Up in this fucking public lob 
Where tf my mods at 
Where tf a job at 
Where tf a job app
Couldnt never chase a job app 
Never dreamed about chasing a job application 
Never could stay at my station

wats REAL

Locked in since arrival 
Been locked in since ur arrival 
Didnt mean to be that high though 
Feeling my mind go 
Been lock in since my arrival 
All these ppl try to rival 
Im on different planet of existence
Idk why the fuck i keep missing 
Dont know why tf i really cant listen 
Really think no does listen too 
Listening too 
My fault 
I Been fucked up too
Every moment 
Everyday i think of you 
Every moment ive been going through 
Without u 
It feels about u 
Swear to god never doubted u 
Feel my body's engulfing u 
These clouds gonna put me in a coffin soon
All this smoke keeps engulfing ow
Cant reall quit coughing  o
The smoke leaving me exhausted 
Idk i just keep tossing 
Idk why it keeps on costing 
 Imma be up in my office
 Imma be bossing 
 All these stupid fucks they got bought 
 Somedays i cant remember alot 
 Please stop 
 I cant watch i feel so obnoxious
 These ppl be toxic 
 My heart got combination locking
 Cant really ever stop talking 
 In my own shit i be walking 
 Feel my organs talking

arrival

Feeling incomplete 
Like a past for summer 


Dont understand what i say half the time 
/
Been dead like a grave like all the time 
\
Feel my pain like all the time 
/
Feel the shame like all the time 
\
NEED SOME PAY OR IMMA END MY LIFE 

Hoping right

incomplete

Ive been fucked up for a minute now 
Ive been fucked up on this beat like im in the clouds 





Ive been fucked up for a minute now
My head wont stop spinning out 
The fuck u say spit it out 
My heads been in the clouds 
My heads been in and out 
Lets start sinning now 
Ive been really sitting out 
Like gym class really thought u were gonna count me out 
Really thought i was gonna be a fucking clown 
Then i fucked it up and than i made that rebound 
Really thought i was gonna fucking dream about 
How the fuck imma be aloud 
With all these different sounds 
Been upping rounds 
Next level shit ive been up in the clouds 
Feeling my doubts 
Up in the count 
Pussy really wanna keep running there mouths 
On the beat profound deep down 
Cant feel shit in my Heart about now 
Cant feel shit with out 
Been falling down 
Yeahh
Idk

rebound

I stopped understanding 
Understanding 
Trying to understand what its all for 
What im here for 
Whats the tears for 
Whats my years for 
Whats the reason u made it clear for 
Getting over my Fears what for 
Helping my peers 
No ending near 
No ending here 
I do it all for my deers 
Reflecting just to mirror 
No more dying here 
No more living just survival here 
Why did they die 
Just for me to survive 
Just for get more high 
Just for me to be sufficed 
Just for me to skate on by 
Just for me to skate through life 
In my head In my head preventing me to sleep at night 
Telling me i just exist to die 
End with the same fate as them and i 
 Most i can do is try 
 Most days cant make up my mind 
 Seeing Opposing sides
Like the numbers 6 and 9
Letting the times tell me signs

understand

Idk 
In the Clouds 


Ive been feeling doubted 
I aint really know my worth 
I aint really know why the fuck i walk this damn earth 
Back and forth im tossing 
I dont got an option 
I dont really know why the fuck im so locked in
Dont know where im walking 
Nothing can stop him 
Mf better watch imma start boxxing 
Running around bottle rockets 
Dont know where im walking 
Idk what im even talking 
I went around logging 
I didnt know the login 
Why fuckers got to keep on talking 
I aint got no options 
You looked chopped man 
Aint give a ffuck if u gonna start doxing  
Ran around doxxing 
Cant really clock in 
Dont want to login 
I keep on stalin 
Dont know where im falling 
Bitch im all in 
Been feeling so damn lawless 
My soul hollowing 
Dont know where this is 
Ive been following the clues to the end 
My head spins 
Ive been in the end 
Been fucked up in the sin 

Dont know where i go 
Been rolling, frozen 
Too fucked up feel dope sick 

Focus on where were going 
Why do i sit

got no option

thank u @!tale for the guitar and the vox sample..
and @Crystal Ash for one of the synths and percussions
i love u both sm

why do i always feel like that prod by xemii or spyte

ohkeyzzagain

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