The Upload 6/22/2021

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Will I See You Again

mixed by @matthiasproducer

if i come on way too strong
just remember it’s been so long
since i met with anyone
new but trust that i’m trying
and
if things get a little awkward
burn my bridges, i’ll walk on water
tear the stitches and i’ll grow taller
see i warned you that i come on strong

it’s been a while since i felt i connected
i pretend and i smile but i feel so rejected
i can try to be what everybody wants me to be
but i dont think it makes a difference if that’s not really me

chasing acceptance they mistake for attention
do i have what it takes, or is divine intervention
what i’ll need to let them know that i’m not all that i seem
ever so invisible presentable but unseen

so if i come on way too strong
just remember it’s not my fault
i’m trying to be honest
it’s not me it’s just all of y’all

if i come on way too strong
just remember it’s been so long
since i met with anyone
new but trust that i’m trying
and
if things get a little awkward
burn my bridges, i’ll walk on water
tear the stitches and i’ll grow taller
see i warned you that i come on strong

at times it’s difficult for me to get along with people
well maybe i don’t know if the feelings always equal
i get nervous overthink a lot i try to keep it peaceful
but the past and getting hurt will always crush me like a beetle
i get tired i try to stay away protect my beating heart
i’m surprised it still gets pumping palpitations do their part
even though at times my soul is slowly ripping at the seams
i gather up the scraps of energy to chase a dream



if i come on way too strong
just remember it’s been so long
since i met with anyone
new but trust that i’m trying
and
if things get a little awkward
burn my bridges, i’ll walk on water
tear the stitches and i’ll grow taller
see i warned you that i come on strong

honestly w/ re: (prod. heydium)

prod. by mangust

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1J9W7VFMg9YUB0vIiTX359?si=6b0e327677034a37

d i s e a s e d

Listen to 'Somewhere In-Between' : https://eloise.ffm.to/somewherein-between.oyd

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Animation by Lovely Little Animations

Music Credits:
Written by Eloise
Performed and Arranged by Eloise and Bruno Major
Produced by Bruno Major
Engineered by Steph Marziano
Mixed by Nathan Boddy
Mastered by Matt Colton

Lyrics:
I could cross the mountains and the oceans caught In wanderlust
Just proving my devotion it still won’t be enough

I could turn off all the stars for you then light them up

It wouldn’t do you justice


How I’m with you is beyond me
And for the life of me I can’t see

How I deserve you, deserve you
There’s no one else I’ll ever be with

And I will never know what I did to deserve you


I could write a hundred different poems on a candle light
Pour my beating heart out into every line
But words don’t know the way that you look in my eyes

They’ll never know the feeling


How I’m with you is beyond me
And for the life of me I can't see

How I deserve you, deserve you
No one else will ever come close
You are all the things I love most
What did I do to deserve you


If I tried to tell you
You’d make fun of me

So this note will stay
somewhere tucked away
for my eyes only

How I’m with you is beyond me

And for the life of me I can't see

How I deserve you, deserve you
There’s no one else I’ll ever be with
And i will never know what I did to deserve you

Somewhere In-Between

Wanderlust

The Door

what she’s like (ft. Clunis, Tanner Hoyt, zach kursman)

This is an official audio of my outro song, 'Sunny Sunday'.

[YouTube]
https://youtu.be/qZK0HC8KRTY

[Spotify & Others]
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/chillingsmite/sunny-sunday

Sunny Sunday

Lyrics ♡ 

You think you’re not alone 
but you cry all night 
What a fucking whore
That’s what’s on your mind 

We use a little more 
We ruin our lives 
Will you take control 
and blow my mind 

Can I be yours just tonight 
Can I hold you one last time 
I can’t breathe, I lost my mind 
I  still think we’ll be alright 

When it’s dark outside 
I’ll keep you by my side 
You think she never cared  
Why the fuck should I

Can I be yours just tonight 
Can I hold you one last time 
I can’t breathe, I lost my mind 
I  still think we’ll be alright

Whore

𝓑𝓵𝓾𝓮 𝓙𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓪- 𝓘 𝓓𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓦𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 (𝓢𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓭)

Habits (Stay High)- Beaurial & Sarah Meow

Hope you like this beat! I usually make them when I need an inspirational boost and I go to Splice to look for samples.

It's free btw if you want to use it, I just would like a mention!

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/08HJtN2fPXv7YyluxvdlMA?si=U21snYf-Re6TXgUSNPiIZA&dl_branch=1

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0qEVeTnLyDw-VvjRzlfeqg

Lofi hip-hop beat - Can't You See

SPOTIFY - https://open.spotify.com/album/7dCjSsxIaQnPL0Qr9rIPEl?si=zQujleNyS9GVHFlNZsJJVg&dl_branch=1

APPLE MUSIC - https://music.apple.com/us/album/the-love-song/1570754478?i=1570754483

LYRICS

fucking up
has never been so much fun before
you can say what you mean

losing trust
has never been more honest than right now
so bring in the fucking beat

i got some shit to say
if i’m being honest
and honesty from me is something that is always promised

unlike you i try to keep all of my promises
i swear to god it feels like we are total opposites 

yeah you could write me a check
and still it wouldn’t make up
for all the time that was spent
just tryna give you my love

i wasn’t perfect, i know
but never had any hoes
was always loyal to you
but that is how this shit goes

love, love, love, love, love
stays fuckin’ me up
stays fuckin’ me up

love, love, love, love
keeps fillin’ my cup
and i drink it all up

love fucks me up

and you can say what you mean
doing whatever you please, yeah yeah

then you blame it on me
pulling my heart with a squeeze, yeah yeah

cause you know we breakin’ up after this
breaking my heart while i’m breakin’ your shit
you don’t got no answers for me, i know what it is
you’ll be screaming my name while you’re taking his dick

and you don’t gotta be the one
i’ll be moving on when the sun comes up
go out again and fall in love
just so i can write another song

The Upload 6/22/2021

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