Out The Abyss

Go Home

Go Home (Feat. Jacob Alexander)

where'd you go  (prod. parsack)

https://ffm.to/7ybnjpj

Verse I
All the hate and all my insecurities,
You’re the only person I wished I could keep,
Why did you have to go and leave me?
My friends will never know our true story.

Chorus
(They’ll) say we were nothing more than a fling,
They’ll say we were desperate & easy,
They’ll never know the things that we faced,
They’ll never understand all my pain,

Verse II
I’m scared of my future
I don’t have a purpose,
I have so many people
But I feel worthless,
I call myself artist
But I’m just a failure,
I’m decomposing
Inside of my mom’s basement

You’re the only who knew,
God why did you take her so soon?
Why couldn’t it be me?
Why couldn’t it be me?
I can’t live like this,

Chorus, Instr

Bridge
I can't stand up I can't think of a lie,
You’re not coming back how hard I try,
Too late for amends,
Is this really the end?
Wish you could raise from the dead,
Wish you could raise from the dead,

Chorus, Instr

Fling

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this time my thoughts are getting really loud
rather be alone than with you around
you know i never wanted you to go 
but one thing i really dont know

you said you wanna be alone
so why'd you go replace me then?
its like you really wanna go
i stopped holding back in the end
letting go is harder than it seems
you never really love someone till they leave
but im doing better off than how you've been
you've been getting worse from what ive seen
 
everytime i see someone
always see a bit of you
doesnt i mean love you
only loved the thought of you
you dont have a place in my heart
like you used to do
everytime we met
it was always just a waste of time 
always used to miss it
but honestly just nevermind

i would always build it up in my head
everything you ever said
im trying to escape now
ain no way ill turn around

(ain no way ill turn around)
(i would always build it up in my head)
(everything you ever said)
(im trying to escape now)

this time my thoughts are getting really loud
rather be alone than with you around
you know i never wanted you to go 
but one thing i really dont know

you said you wanna be alone
so why'd you go replace me then?
its like you really wanna go
i stopped holding back in the end
letting go is harder than it seems
you never really love someone till they leave
but im doing better off than how you've been
you've been getting worse from what ive seen

better off

L. O. V. E

holding

1st verse - been 6 months since we drifted away. saw your new girl on the news today. not sure how i felt about it. wanted to kill myself over it. inside of course not outside how. you could be so sure of thats what you want mm now? guess the time we”ve had meant nothing for you.   


chorus- I’m still holding on to the thought i shouldn’t have let you go, opened up my heart to someone i didn’t even know, god really punished me and it mended us worse. Tried and I tried again but that only bruised my tongue worse. I’m still holding on, holding on.


2nd verse - been 8 months since I haven’t hit your line, do I ever seem to cross your fucking mind, not sure how you felt about it, pretty sure you’re fine. once the karma starts runnin, dont you dare waste my time. ugh how could you be so sure of thats what you want mm now, guess me relapsing meant nothing for you.


chorus- im still holding on to the thought i shouldn’t have let you go, opened up my heart to someone i didn’t even know, god really punished me and it mended us worse. Tried and I tried again but that only bruised my tongue worse. I’m still holding on, holding on.

SAN VALENTINE.

HOLDING (M.I.A. PT. 2 )

lyrics //

its 1am and im thinking bout you 
baby please tell me what can i do 
no one wants to die
no one wants to try
everyone wants to see me fucking cry 
making it through cuz im taking these pills
head on the pillow and im lookin at stills
wondering why i tried to fight 
broken hearts baby lets go 1 more time 

2am tears are runnin through my eye 
please talk to me i am not fine 
i just want what we had
baby but i am glad
somethin a least make learn and im making it through
drinking the left over bottles 
only way to get me through im surviving on swallows 
musical therapy craving the sound of her voice but i know all i am is a choice 

3am rain hitting hard
heart is bleeding i been stabbed by a shard
chasing my girl but so far she is gone
kissing and hugging until it reach dawn
loving is hurting but hurtin aint loving
give me a little no please keep it coming
demonstrate to anticipate we must commemorate the love we had cuz it was not fake 

4am baby and its getting harder
dont know you sleeping or wearin a garter i
mustn't confess that i will not dress breathin a heavy beat running through my chest
hearing you laughing it reaching a spot
deeper and darker it means a lot
im sorry for all my lies those times
better off by yourself you feel more alive

5 in the morning im writing bout you
drawing a picture its something to do
write you a letter ink will go through
set up a date for us make us some food
suns coming up but my hearts sinking down
why am i treating you like such a clown
my anxiety is making me drown
open up to you and i am not proud 

it is now 6 and i am still here
baby your thought just wont disappear
am i in love or am i in fear
please say you love me just one time my dear
wanted to last and not leave it so fast
now i am here cutting like grass
nighttimes without you they're not the same
the shit i put you through i am in shame

night without you (prod. bradleyjv)

@f3arme

i just keep running from my problems so i can take a way the pain
its like i want the whole world just to know my fucking name
yeah we're all slowly dying whats the point on playing games
what the point on even trying when everybody fake

its a new day its a new wave
all we care about is nothing but getting fucking paid
is there more to life than what everybody say
speaking to the trees wanna hear bout what they say

they dont understand when i say im being me
i wanna pack my bags up and focus on other things
the things that i believe, i wish that i could see
everybody trying, but some of us wont see

i been losing sleep about the things i wanna see
i been losing sleep thinking who i wanna be
they thinking bout the media they think they could believe
i think the way we spend our time could be better things

i said just look into my eyes ask what you could see
and sometimes i just wanna die so that i can leave
remember that you got one life, you don't gotta leave
i hope that there's an after life cause i wanna see

One Life (Prod. Feardorian)

cure*me & Yvng Burbs - PARANOIA! (feat. JonoJoker) (prod. cure*me)

Striding in slicence 
My steps dont make a sound
My aura gone violent 
Hands give a cold touch now 


You stepped on your chances 
I dont want to talk 
Im sick of the masses 
I could throw a punch at a crowd 

Talk to me , talk to me ,talk to me
Pleading for deaf ears 
Im much too gone to clam down 
Ive watched from the outside
Id never understand in a million years

Your so estranged , i dont know who you are 
Dont grab my hand unless you want the ugly
I could twist my smile into something so sinster 
Would you still love me ? If i broke  your arm right in front of ya ? 
Would you think me harmless if i cried 
Right in front of ya 
Something sick n twisted brewing right under the surface 
Yeah 

Twisting and turning inside of my mind 
Do i want to belong
 am i over this life? 
Should i make a new one where everybody dies?
Death in pardise i want it on ice
Death to the parasites that lurch on to life 
Stealing and weaseling off the back of my kind
Hollow is the inside of myself that i deny 
Others the access to theyre cut off by design

Thekilldemo

letter to my wife

18

maybe it’s time i go 💫

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better off

Okayy Raph ✰ (@okayyraph)

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