___Okkatus - Freezing Cold___

Wherever is the bloom
I am calling
In this nongrowing doom
I am fallin'
A desert in my breast
I am sweatin'
Forlorn in this rest
I am ready


Ice melts - an inner unrest
it is leaving me
Never forget - Freezing cold
...An inner war


Leaves felt down
I am reaching
An unbroken crown
I am bleachin'
..This inner deep winter
I am crying
Snowflakes to splinter
I am dying

Freezing Cold (demo)

____Okkatus - Final Fragment_____

I fall down onto my knees
silence all around me 
no more hope and fantasies
it's my pleasure, it's my decease

Oh Lord, can you hear me pray?
Did you ever listen to what I say?
It is not an option, that I'll stay
I will follow the darkened trail

Farewell, my mind will fly
the mirrorside will be mine
on my knees, I start to cry
don't worry, it will be fine

The shiver runs through my bones
here on this ground, I am alone
the blood pours out, I begin to mourn
A last breath - salut - I am gone.

Final Fragment (demo)

___Okkatus - Entrails___


A vision creates an illusion
disappearance of the absolution
emotions run, an inner conflict
destruction of my self-grown districts
the feelings fight creates a turmoil
sadness, sins, personal recoil
rearrangement of experiences
acts of blindness, a cloudly sense


This fog interlopes (me)
into the final neverness
this feels like: drop me out
until my entrails hail


A riot is about to heartly begin
I lay down and I am just breathing
This unspeakable thought is there
emotional beings running ...Where
they are? It is an experiment
My Me and my I are too different
I will keep this chaos a secret
Form it to peace, and I'll keep it

but..
This fog interlopes myself
into the final neverness
this feels like: drop me out
until my entrails hail

Entrails (demo)

___Okkatus - I was & I am___

A blizzard throws into me
mind bends to outer space
Welcome home, as they say
but I am in this gaze

Do you remember me?
We laughed hard in some times
Creation was at its best
I felt... that you were mine

...you didn't know, what to expect:

I am the beauty
and I am the beast
I am all the ugliest 
you can think of
I am all the struggle
and I am all the hope
In case: I am what you are 


In all my memories lie a secret
Forgotten sorrow, forgotten past
All my feelings are dead again
As the tree never bloom a second time.

This roots have to be filled
as my trunk nearly explodes
but this feelings belong to you
you deny, so my I erodes... itself

...you never felt, what I am, but:

I am the beauty
and I am the beast
I am all the ugliest 
you can think of
I am all the struggle
and I am all the hope
In case: I am what you are

These lines can't bring you back,
for sure you never listen to these words
But future belongs to the past
like beings belong to hordes.

I Was & I Am (demo)

___Okkatus - What you left___

I see your drownin’ eyes in my mind,
but they still telling lies.
I look into the mirror, and slowly dry
and see my own drowning forgotten eyes.

You sit on my side, lovely, I can feel it.
Heart on heart, feelings. 
Kissing forever, like allways.
A relationship.
...But then, again, 
and once again I look into the mirror

…and you are disappeared.


What have you done,
what is your goal?
what have you done with me?
and all you left, 
was your own purity..
…without my hope


I see your glipsy lips,
but they still don’t touch mine.
I look into the mirror,
and see my own lips rotten.

Again...

You still stand on my floor,
lovely, I can see it.
But then, again. And again.
I look into the mirror…

…and you are vanished again.


What have you done,
what is your goal?
what have you done with me?
and all you left is darkness
and all you left are my scars
and all you left is me, alone
...alone.

What You Left (demo)

i don't know, where to start.
About this feeling, oh so smart.
I met an earthling, oh so sweet,
and my heart began to beat.

What is this looping in my mind?
No one can ever tell me.
Like butterflies, drowning aside
A sun kissed a moon.


this feeling - is maybe,
oh, my baby,
A glimps of shimer.
But sorry - I am not perfect
oh sweatheart,
We are forlorn


Where to start, with this feels?
I don't know how to appeal,
and the future, oh so bright,
is forgotten in my sight.

What can I do, to make me happy?
What can I do, to carry her wishes?
It's a mess, my mind is crappy,
I hope maybe some day,
a sun will kiss a moon!


this feeling - is maybe,
oh, my baby,
A glimps of shimer.
But sorry - I am not perfect
oh sweatheart,
We are forlorn

A Glimps Of Shimer (demo)

___Okkatus - Reflection___

Mirror, mirror on the wall
show my self the bitter fall
Beauty is a locked up secret
can't find it in me, I am dead
All these failures I have done
All these paths I came along
dumped me to the darkest side
where the joy forever hides


Take me down and give me hails
push me on the lightened trails
Show myself the wounds of fun
Punishment under the sun
Give me wings to fly up high
a falling cloud; off the sky
cheer me up and hunt me down
beneath these walls, I wear a crown


Mirror, mirror in front of me
help my blinded mind to see
all the colors of all stars
cool down all these inner wars
Wake me up from all this dreams
wandering in darkest realms
Save me from cleaning of myself
Please, take my soul out of my shell


Take me down and give me hails
push me on the lightened trails
Show myself the wounds of fun
Punishment under the sun
Give me wings to fly up high
a falling cloud; off the sky
cheer me up and hunt me down
beneath these walls, I wear a crown

Reflection (demo)

___Okkatus - Dissipation___

At the end of this one year
I met one of my greatest fears
Your last thought, I didn't hear
and lost a tear

This allrounding touch of us
inner feelings, total frost
hundred to none, stone to dust
and I was lost...

Do you, as a leaf of our tree
remember the second you felt down?
When the blind eye of the wind
called you back?


Dissipation walks into me
Separation of myself and thee
I can feel it, but won't feel
must remember, seein' me kneel
Dissipation takes me home
onto the place, where I am forlorn


The second day, I was able to see
One moment after, i was ready to be
Waited for you, watered our tree
you didn't appear

This moment, then, I came along
Saw you with this other son
Lovely together and something you've done
and I was stunned...

Do you, as a drop of our rain
remember the second you felt down?
When the the blind eye of our cloud
called you back?


Dissipation walks into me
Isolation - of myself and thee
I still stand on her heartbuilt gate
must remember, allways remember, 
on this place, where I am forlorn
but it is too late...

Dissipation (rough mix)

Shades Of Lullaby (rough mix)

___Okkatus - A Journey___

A broken soul meets a colourless shape
A history is born.
Skin so pure, a heartaches ground
and candles flicker on.
A mistress, a mind, a contact,
but afterall it is lost

A Journey - Oh so well
To hell and back
A Journey - oh so sweet
I am on the ground
...to touch her skin


A hopeless soul found beauty at all
A history forlorn.
Eyes so gold, a heartaches mass
and candles flicker on.
A women, a face, an onbound,
but afterall it will fall again

A Journey - Oh so well
To hell and back
A Journey - oh so sweet
I am on the ground
A Journey - Oh so well
To hell and back
A Journey - oh so sweet
I am on the ground

An unborn moment in a dying world
A history long done
Heart so bright, a heartaches soul
and candles flicker on.

A Journey - Oh so well
To hell and back
A Journey - oh so sweet
I am on the ground

A Journey

This is an One-Man-Project from Leipzig/Germany.
The guy behind it played a long time in Metal and Punk Bands and also has a dark history.
So, influences of Black Metal, Crust, Heavy Metal, Punk Rock and other musically grounds, plus his own ground of feelings gave him the base, to create this kind of music.
Everything is D.I.Y.,  every second of tone is recorded in his own chamber of home. 
In isolation.

okkatus