synesthesia

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(GORESET)
Noticing the way that you talk to me now
Yeah this isn't where we started out
Always been afraid of things I can't explain
Its out of my control, I started watch you changing

Don't know if its for the best or for the worst
Lately everything been feeling like it in reverse
Had no time to heal, I had no time to learn
Yea I'm gonna leave a curse on you
I wanna watch you burn

Frozen lake its breaking, bitch you left me standing on ice
All night, know I cant decide if I wanna be alive or with you
And now I'm staring at the sky it isn't blue
Thought that I'd understand but there's shit I never knew

Yeah there's shit I didn't know about
Left me in the dirt like I'm something you could do without
Look where I'm at now, staring in the crowd
Think I saw your face and I fell straight to the ground

Don't know if its for the best or for the worst
Lately everything been feeling like it in reverse
Had no time to heal, I had no time to learn
Yea I'm gonna leave a curse on you
I wanna watch you burn
(Don't know if its for the best or for the worst
Lately everything been feeling like it in reverse
Had no time to heal, I had no time to learn
Yea I'm gonna leave a curse on you
I wanna watch you burn)

Don't know if its for the best or for the worst
Lately everything been feeling like it in reverse
Had no time to heal, I had no time to learn
Yea I'm gonna leave a curse on you
I wanna watch you burn
Frozen lake its breaking, bitch you left me standing on ice
All night, know I cant decide if I wanna be alive or with you
And now I'm staring at the sky it isn't blue
Thought that I'd understand but there's shit I never knew

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curse (dercept)

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@oldcollin

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https://open.spotify.com/track/75TBDR2qvO0UOR8TNCa3ej?si=c0801757b7d74861/

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instigate (p slicky)

p slicky 
this is fucked!
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track 2 @corefish

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/idwflt-feat-corefish-2

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idwflt (feat. corefish) (p yungspoiler)

scam (p mndls1600)

live:relearn (p slicky)

oh man (feat. alkyl) (p slicky)

a cover of better of dead by @8graves

lyrics:

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

Break and mend
Hear the call
A crack in the sky
Be a friend
Build a wall
And I’ll be the fly
I’ve been staring out the window
At the world burning down
You can nail it to my head, no
I’m not wearing the crown

It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

I was made
In the dark
Original sin
Be the blade
Leave your mark
And I’ll be the skin
I’ve been living with no feelings
I get so sick and tired
Of just staring at the ceiling
While the room is on fire

It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head
It’s not safe inside my head, oh no

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead

I need keys
That can’t be made
The sun and the shade
A needle and thread
What I feel
Is best unsaid
It’s not safe inside my head, oh no

I’m better off dead
It’s always the same
I’m better off dead
It’s all razors and chains
I’m better off dead
-----------------------------------

flower petals ✾

grasior - better off dead (8 graves)

big thanks to @sinxi for jumping on the song with me 
Prod me

grasior - 
who would you lie for when every single day just feels like a chore
nothing ever goes the way you want it too
so you bring it too war 

maybe lifes better alone
all this peace n quiet never hurt your soul
does the past always bring you home

i know deep inside your scared
the abyss never felt this eerie
its so dark i can barely stare
why it all so become dreary 

just behind feeling perfect
friends dont think your worth it
telling you to stay the same

makin you think that your crazy
sitting feeling lazy
laying in the inbetween

though i dont want to take you out
everything you do just drowns it out
do you feel it all again or
is it better with a way home
you never see a way
just for what ive done too
oh i dont wanna see you go away
when you take me out away

sinxi -
uv given your attention
mustang in your driveway waiting for ya
don’t wanna be pretentious 
but the way that your moving got me oh yeah 

i’ve been gone for hours 
and your friends text your phone like we’re outta here 
but i don’t wanna leave yet 
so i’ll stay here fixated on the same shit 

that you told me a month ago 
i can’t let it 
go yet u said that ur comfortable 
with being here and i don’t wanna lie 

i don’t understand your parables 
your a demon in plain disguise 
so i’ll tell u here in some syllables 
i don’t care right now if we just die 

you know that we’ll be fine 
my heart just straight declined
let me just close my eyes 
take me to the other side
i know you hate me 
but just let me back inside
don’t be so heartless 
let’s just give it another try
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

again w/sinxi

smile

I don't need luck though
I don't want it

Say 'send no search party'
And pray the airlock stays in place
No pressure though I'll be ok
Send no search party

Well I'm fraying and stressing and twisting my stomach in knots
Cause I wanna believe that you're good but I know that you're not

I'm just spacewalking
Spacewalking
Spacewalking
I'm just spacewalking

spacewalking [prod. jolst +homesick]

“After the Blur” is a soul-deep journey through emotional clarity, crafted by Kaelion with haunting precision and poetic restraint. Across 20 tracks, the album explores what remains after the chaos fades — the quiet truths, the unsent signals, the soft armor we wear to survive love.

Each song is a vignette: cinematic, intimate, and structured like a memory. From the ambient ache of “Poignant Flow” to the sensual defiance of “Spicy Hot Ballads,” Kaelion builds a sonic archive that feels lived-in and timeless. The production is minimalist but textured — ambient pads, lo-fi percussion, soft piano, and vocals that glide between confession and control.

Themes of emotional interference, quiet resilience, and late-night vulnerability run throughout. The album doesn’t chase resolution — it honors the blur, the bloom, and the breath that follows.

15. Nocturne Bloom

[Lyrics]

Tryna lie about her ex, shit that he said
She want love but I don't wanna be next
Lying bout her ex, saw all the texts
You got some problems, all in your fucking head

Shawty a 10, hate all your friends
I wanna tell you
hHow much you really meant
Time is a bitch, now it's the end
Wanna turn it back, I only feel regret

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
She lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
But she lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

Wanna know just what she talking about
I'm asking questions, we talking it out
I wanna know why you hide it
She always be talking like she my bitch
My bitch

I don't even know your fucking name ho
Buy her roses just so she could claim those
Said, she on the floor like she JLO
Text me whenever she on her way home

She still gone, you want it bad
But you keep it on the low for me
And when we talk, all these words, they just flowing with ease
She told me what's wrong, girl, just do it on the phone
Cause I just wanna be alone, baby, tell me what you need

Got a haunted past, she caused it
Out of smoke, gas, I be feeling nauseous, yeah
So tell me I'm the 'worst that you had' for me
Didn't know that you were lyin, but I could tell that you bad for me

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
She lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
But she lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

@brakence @50landing
_

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely
than be by myself
dont wanna go home
or put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help
from anyone else

and ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad
trust me im working on it

i thought i'd die young
likes didnt do shit
i know well being well known's useless
ill go to hell too eager to care
im on a screen island where no one stares

i wanna find whats inside me
feel every fiber
done sucking up cause
im no longer a liar
dont know how to be myself sometimes
but whenever i need your help
i always tell you now

i know now
it was all costumes, funny dances
to play my mind
now i need to believe it
and i wont hold onto something familiar
we were kept back from the people we really were
its a start
i just hope i agknowledge the gifts from the past
when we run out of time

i just wanna be known well
not well known
id rather be lonely than be alone
id rather sleep in a hotel
than sleep in my home
but ive been pulling my weight in my thoughts
no matter where i go

ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad

i got a star studded cast of friends
that never answer the phone
no matter when i call
gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
otherwise ill have nobody at all

im still learning to be direct
cause for years ive been a mess
in '18 i changed address
not the right one but the best
cause my parents are my success
i still need to earn their respect

im just tryna figure it out

theres probably a lot
that i should've done differently
and i, oh i went to hear it out
but i was never listening
i knew that it's not alright
just trying to find the light
summon another spark
or maybe its gone and died
i try to stay out of sight
i gotta leave by the night
i cant seem to clear my mind

but i know now, that it was all
a bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
and i shouldn't believe it, so i
cant hold onto something familiar
when ive lost sight of the people we really were at the start
and ive started to see it. cause

i dont wanna be well known
i dont wanna be well known

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely than be by myself
dont wanna go home or
put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help from anyone else
_

thank you to will and graham for the bgv in the second chorus
thank you to the boys, and bekah, and my parents for knowing me well

well known (w brakence & 50landing)

@oldcollin
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