lyrics are cheesy i know i wrote them in like 2 minutes
1st actual song with guitar

lyrics:
i failed again
why am i not suprised
i spend most of my day
trying to read through the lies
i cant pay attention
and i just cannot keep up
i dont know when its all gonna be too much
i never get mad but i still get upset
i cry to myself and say things under my breath
"it will be fine" "its all gonna be okay"
i know it will, but i still feel led astray

i ground myself to try to focus for a bit
responsibilities i only forget
never get any work done anymore
i used to be gifted now work is just a chore, now
i take my time, with everything that i do
falling behind, but i do it just for you
bandaids, blood lines, its the only thing i do
i try, i tried, ill do anything for you

broke my streak again

relapsed again lol oops!

lyrics:
slit my throat twice im still here
it might be a miracle or just pure luck
i try my best to have the best appearance
but i do no work, i guess im stuck

time and time i repeat the past
i dont learn a thing, i just try to run away
i distract myself from the mistakes that ive made
and i try to appear like im doing okay

i hide my tears by muting my mic
i hide my blades by not using a knife
i hide my life from the people online
i try not to die and go along for the ride

oliv!asongdump