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@suisside
@pasteldrip

suisside x pasteldrip - whatever

Gentle soundtracks for remembering yourself.
Each track is a quiet doorway—identity, presence, beauty, self-trust, creation, peace.
Nothing forced, nothing loud.
Just warm chords, soft beats, and the kind of stillness that feels like home.
This album is for late nights, open journals, and the moments she needs her own light again.
Heaven on earth, one breath at a time.

Breathe in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzXEM2beb8g

You can ask me how I'm doing, I'll say fine.
Even though the pain is killing me inside.
You can Ask me how I'm feeling, I'm alright.
You want the truth then you can look me in the eyes.

You can ask me how I've been I'll say okay,
I never gave a fuck about my feelings anyways
You can ask me hows its been I'll say, it's great
I never wanted your sympathy in the first place.

And I know I really mean that in the worst way.
I'd share my side by I don't think you'd ever see it.
I turn my back on everybody even me.
I'd say I'm sorry but I don't know what It'd would mean.

Black Nails, Black Sheep
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see.
This world was never meant for me
 
Should I stay or should I go,
I've been walkin down this road.
As of lately I've been homesick 
but I'm still so sick of home.  

I'm feelin just like a ghost 
I'm nobody, I'm alone
Got no body, Just a soul
My backs been been on these ropes.

My hearts been getting cold.
My skins been getting numb
My minds been getting dull
I see what I've become.

Black Nails, Black Sheep, 
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see
This world was never meant for me

Music Video

Black Sheep (Prod. ʎpoqou & combination lock) [Music Video in Description]

I close my eyes, then I see your eyes,
I look around, and your not around.
In my mind, I start to realize,

Tell me if you need me,
You know that I need you.
I don't really need you,
I just really want you.
I want you to come through,

Tell me what you wanna do,

Tell me what you wanna be,
Tell me if you want me,
You don't really need me,
I just really want you.

Tell me what you wanna be.

Baby won't you come to me.

MUSIC VIDEO

I Know It's Complicated (Prod. Lunar Vision)

vocals: soundcloud.com/omenxiii
prod: soundcloud.com/colorhue

lyrics:
when i close my eyes now
i can see your face but
i can not erase it
i can not replace it
feels like it was yesterday
i used to see you everyday
i remember everything
i don't want you to fade away
i still pretend that you are here
watch me look into the mirror
disappear then reappear
hanging from the chandelier
i wish i was alive again
wish i cloud be by your side
now i just flout around our room and cry
every day and every night

i am a lost soul
without you
i am a lost soul
without you
i hope that you die so that you can come back to me
i am a lost soul
i feel alone without you i am half of me
i am a lost soul

omenxiii - a letter to the living (prod. color hue)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUatwmfJBrg

Drums by: OmenXIII

Greaf Album, Soon.

There's always so much going on, I can't go on like this.
I can't stay strong like this. Sometimes I'm wrong, like you. 
Sometimes I'm right, nothings new. 

Nothing new to me, 

I just go to sleep then lucid dream and I wake up again
 
I could work, get everything, but when I die I'll lose it all
I'm nobody special, but to me that really means a lot,
I've been copin' with my demons secretly I know a lot.
I don't see the point of life, so I'm a dissapointment, yeah.

I just wanna go to sleep and meet the thing that sent me here.

And now I'm runnin again,

VIDEO

There's Always So Much Going On (Prod. GREAF) [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

MISS U SPENCE <3
FT https://soundcloud.com/barrenwaste
PROD @GREAF
mixed by @prohibeo

gizmo

Shitt, I still miss my fam and my friends but I swear that most of all I miss my bro lil spence, whip tha Acura out Tha pad smokin Newport cigarettes, I still think think about those times, little stress it was the best, but,

Now I gotta grow up, but I'm still wastin my money on green stuff ta roll up, you can eat my dick, if, ya don't know us, and I still ain't shit but I ain't gunna slow up now


Codiene, high - c, back woods fulla terps, Im without a place to be,

Feels like I'm living in a deam, but I'm missin the feelin of when I had you next to me girl

Naw wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted ripped my life ta shits,

that's a pain that Ill never forget,

I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich, if you granted me wish, I wouldn't take that shit cuz

I never fucked with my life, and there aiint a single thing, that could make it all right,

Everyday I'm up all night, with the music in my head, it's the only thing I like,

It's so hard to love me you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly

Fuck me let me disintegrate,

deep into the soil and deteriorate

barren

before i say a word
please listen close this time
i said this all before 
but Ive really lost my mind
i know you're always worried
my fingers looks so blurry
crossing over to a new world
i love the way you look so lovely 
my self worth is so ugly
i am absolutely nothing

contradicting thoughts
read back on the screen
makes no sense to me
its all a dream
i can’t be thinking these
dreadful thoughts about
you and me

I’m living in a void now
just testing all my patience 
with no one to try and say shit
its just a statement
that I’m making
please no mistaking

deteriorating ft barren (prod. GREAF)

OmenXIII - Battles

You looking for problems but can't seem to solve them
Making a difference whatever you call it
They stay on the top but you stuck at the bottom
How far have we fallen?
I eat and I sleep in repeat every day
Surviving's just part of the game
See I'm making moves while you making mistakes
Don't change the game, just change how you play
Claim that you sad, but you mediocre but I'm above average 
You on the streets so hungry for that action
Only thing I'm hungry for satisfaction
The rest of these people are hungry for change
but show up to the table no spoon and no plate
You won't make a difference simply by just saying
You gotta get up or it will stay the same

OmenXIII - Mindgames (2015)

OmenXIII - Battles

OmenXIII - Winter's Kiss

OmenXIII - ____ (2015)

_Blnk

OmenXIII - Winter's Kiss

They try to judge how we live, by the way we waste away.
They try to see our intentions, by the way we make mistakes.
Feeling numb, feeling great, I think I want to fade away.
Smoking blunts in the rain,    Just cuz it help me take the pain.

I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.
I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.

People live, people die, that doesnt change our fragile minds.
Loss is hard all the time, we keep that pain trapped deep inside.
I cry alone, I cry alone, please keep this between me and you.
"Die alone, Die alone," that's what they told me I would do.

I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.
I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.