How i still have these times i cant help i feel weak

OMENXIII

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You don't know me,

No you do not know me,

You don't know me,
you don't know anything
I see the hate but to me it's just jealousy,
desperately typin on keys I can see through the enmity,
There's no complexity.

You look for approval, I do not have that dependancy.
You look to make moves but as usual you just keep movin without no integrity.

You step to me then I'll be your last enemy.
My specialty shortens your life expectancy.
I'll show you what to expect when you only show trechery.
OmenXIII and there ain't nothin left of me.

I was the kid with the blade to my wrist every night in my home.
I was the kid with a couple friends and I still felt all alone.
I couldn't talk to nobody that would understand,
I couldn't talk to my parents my siblings, my friends,

music was the only thing there for me.
I was the kid at night that couldn't go to sleep.
I was the kid that hoped nobody notice me
Everyone tryna tell me what the fuck I'm supposed to be.

I feel like I heard it all, feel I seen it all
Tell me who's dreams am I dreamin if I just want freedom, 
somebody please come make the bleeding stop.

You don't know me,

No you do not know me,

Nameless (Prod. ɐɹᵗʰrᶰ & Chromakey) [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Crows (Prod. ʎpoqou)

I close my eyes, then I see your eyes,
I look around, and your not around.
In my mind, I start to realize,

Tell me if you need me,
You know that I need you.
I don't really need you,
I just really want you.
I want you to come through,

Tell me what you wanna do,

Tell me what you wanna be,
Tell me if you want me,
You don't really need me,
I just really want you.

Tell me what you wanna be.

Baby won't you come to me.

MUSIC VIDEO

I Know It's Complicated (Prod. Lunar Vision)

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$igil:


My life wasn’t even worth living
I was only there, to see what i was missing
Never really fit in yet it never hurt my feelings
Do my own shit, yea bitch I do it different.

I was just hoping and wishing that shit would start switching
I saw in a vision with no inhibition
I said i’m the one, and I never was kidding
Now i’m in the open and look where you sitting.

My godlike cognition saw no opposition 
Psychotic, I want it, I need it, I got it.
The power I harness so strong I’m unconscious
I harvest the crops of my garden.

You planted the seed, then forgot it, it’s rotten
No progress accomplished that’s why you are boxed in
I went on my own, and now i’m forgotten
But i do not mind the silence is calming.

Digested the fluids for my own embalming
The grip of the blade is what I am palming
Get off me!  You got it!
No need for your comment
I’m comin, I’m heated, I’m hot as a comet!

You bleeding, you dropping then beg me to stop it
But there is no mercy I leave for a toxin

There was nothing I could ever do to stop it.

OmenXIII:

OmenXIII, black shirt black jeans
Hands on my face so I can't see a thing,
If human is a race then who's in the lead
and who's last place would that be me 

Me, I've seen a lot of things I can't explain with any certainty,
Why do people live and die, and what's this feeling irkin me

Why's there so much hurt in me, blood is blue until it bleeds.
I can't change until I speak, not much to say just leave me be

Let me be alone, sometimes I need it just to feel inside,
I don't really feel, but when I do I like to write it my,

minds in constant motion, the momentum starts to wear my down,
but if I try to stop it then I contemplate a different route.

but that is not option, see society has let me down,
now I live my life in silence, I don't let it get me down.

MISFIT

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You Can Do So Much Better feat. $igil (Prod. ʎpoqou)

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I been spending all this money cuz I might not see the sun again,
I've been smokin drugs, in the slums, have you runnin when
I step on the scene, I ain't mean boy I just ain't your friend,
You been off the shits, off some shit that I don't reccomend

I been on my shit, that's why these women on my dick,
I ain't even got a job, I get some money make it flip,
See you runnin like a bitch, just chasing dreams you'll never get,
And, I dont need to dream, because to me my dreams are dead

I can only make it happen, I ain't happy in the end,
Just a little satisfaction, if that's all that I can get
See me dressed in my own fashion, I don't have to fuck with trends,
It's OmenXIII the assassin steady clashin til the end.

Then I'm back into the shadows where they cannot seem to see,
See to me my life's a battle and I'll have to face defeat.
But until that fuckin happens I'll keep rappin on these beats,
And I'm reppin' 10 black nails til OMENXIII R.I.P.

Bitch i Started doin me, Because I lost my will to live,
But I can't give into the pain because the pain is not my friend.
But it helps me feel alive, so I respect for what it is,
And I tried to keep it cool, but now my patience wearing thin.

My mind is in constant motion,
Thoughts created by the slightest notion.
I'm screaming out for hope and,
The same thoughts strangle til I'm choking.

GRIM

I Didn't Want To Do It This Way, But (Prod. Purpdogg)

Do just I want until they put me in the dirt.
Can't tell if I'm a fucking blessing or if I'm a curse.
I see you flex and stunt, you chump I do that in reverse.
You fuck around and I'm gon' to have to show you what it's worth.

shawty said she wanna fuck me, but she suck me first.
OmenXIII, Holy Ghost but I don't go to church.
King of Demons, I'm the Reaper pull off in a hearse.
I got a genocidal tendacies and that's for sure.

Kill the game bout every time I drop another verse.
I ain't movin' but my brotha's prolly got that work,
If this a wave then see me hangin ten bitch watch me surf,
What comes  around, goes back around bitch you don't have to search.

What comes around, just goes around again.

Do just I want until they put me in the dirt.
Can't tell if I'm a fucking blessing or if I'm a curse.
I see you flex and stunt, you chump I do that in reverse.
You fuck around and I'm gon' to have to show you what it's worth.

shawty said she wanna fuck me, but she suck me first.
OmenXIII, Holy Ghost but I don't go to church.
King of Demons, I'm the Reaper pull off in a hearse.
I got a genocidal tendacies and that's for sure.

Fingertips just like a scythe, snatch your soul and take your life.
Anarchy personified, ten black nails and butterflies,

Rockin drop dead, I'm the first one to do it.
Remember that next year when people act clueless

Everything changed, from my life to the stage.
From the house the to the planes, now the crowd scream my name.

Now you see me in your city, tear it down in 30 minutes,
Fuck around, and I'm not kiddin', I'ma make a fuckin difference.
and my life is still a burden every single fuckin day,
but all the people that around me help me live for a change.
Bitch I'm dead, been dead for a minute, anyways
new clothes, new blades, and I got jean chains.

World so cold, bitch make no mistake
Thought I already told you, we just aint the same

XIII, The Reaper (Prod. Smitty The BG)

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Up late with a blunt in my hand,
Thinkin back, things were different in the past.
Used to scrape change, couldn't meet the demand
Now things changed, I need cash in advance

want a bike just to ride by the sand,
every night I just die in a trance,
Come alive when I rise to the flash,
Shut the blinds then the light disbands

Things change then they keep on changin,
Lifes great, but it's still so painful
Lifes pain, but I'm still so grateful
Isolate myself from everybody hateful

Things change then they keep on changin,
Lifes great, but it's still so painful
Lifes pain, but I'm still so grateful
Isolate myself from everybody hateful

Tryna get to close but you are not able
any chance you thought you had just know it was a fable
-I'm a demon but they say they see an see angel 
OmenXIII King of the Demons stay with a halo.

To myself, I will always stay faithful,
To myself, I will always stay faithful...
To myself, I will always stay faithful.....
To myself, I will always stay faithful.......

Aye, you don't really know me so don't act you like you do,
It's OmenXIII by my lonely, it ain't anything new.
I would never thought I'd make to see this point of view
And now I'm watching everybody switch up their attiude

They could make a better change but they got lost to the truth
They been steady acting lame but that ain't anything new
Actin like they know the game but see they haven't a clue
Independent from a label still I'm makin' these moves.

Things change then they keep on changin,
Lifes great, but it's still so painful
Lifes pain, but I'm still so grateful
Isolate myself from everybody hateful

Things change then they keep on changin,
Lifes great, but it's still so painful
Lifes pain, but I'm still so grateful
Isolate myself from everybody hateful

MOONLIGHT

Dark Light (Prod. Foxwedding)

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Smokin blunts on the comedown, why?
Just to get back up now, life
get's me down when I just can't, fight
The pain of everything I keep in-side.

Self-hate and I can't control,
My emotions when I lose control.
Wanna die, but I don't wanna die.
Wanna try, but I don't wanna try.

Live my life, I don't need to lie,
I be inside by myself every night,
with the glass on the dresser I could never get enough.
I been drinkin too much and I know it's fucked up.

Smokin' so much and I know I'm fucked up.
but everybody that around tell me things are switchin up.
Nah, Nah, not me lil bitch, bitch it's OmenXIII fuck your team lil bitch.

Smokin blunts on the comedown, why?
Just to get back up now, life.

DECODE

01000111 00110010 01000111 00101110 (Prod. GREAF)

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We rollin', rollin', roll.
We rollin', rollin', roll.
We smokin', smokin', smoke.
We smokin', smokin', smoke.

Black blunts, gathered grass wrapped in backwoods 
Bands up, we smoke packs by the handful.
Act tough, say y'all bust like some canned goods.
Flash floods, stay inside when the rain comes.

Make what I make in one day you take months
fake fuck, bitch that aint yo whip, you can't stunt.
Lame stuff, don't get laced up with laced blunts.
Say somethin, you might get traced up with white chalk

Quite dark, It ain't safe on the sideyard.
Might walk down to the the woods let the woods spark.
Try hards, y'all aint hood, y'all got good parks.
Might harm, take that arm if you reach far.

These days, seem weak hey, seems the scene's changed.
Sweepstakes for leaf rakes, cuz these hoes these crazy.
Don't rap bout no straps if you roleplay.
Y'all actors act up in the wrong lanes.

Hot meals on these streets, bitch we serve fades.      
Chiefin on this weed, we feel no pain.
Real g's might keep heat, I just bring blades'. 	
Can't ride, can't play sides swervin both lanes. 

Black night, camoflouge put your boots on.
Hack knife, cut half off like some coupons.
Slack twice, y'all gone fold like some futons.
Black, white, don't think twice pussy move on.

Weed stretch likes two weeks, if I need some
Keep left, when I write, fuck what you on.
We stress, we suggest keep your cool son.
Deep breaths, one wrong step then your crew gone.

We rollin', rollin', roll.
We rollin', rollin', roll.
We smokin', smokin', smoke.
We smokin', smokin', smoke.

BlackWidow (Prod. Purpdogg)

They try to judge how we live, by the way we waste away.
They try to see our intentions, by the way we make mistakes.
Feeling numb, feeling great, I think I want to fade away.
Smoking blunts in the rain,    Just cuz it help me take the pain.

I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.
I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.

People live, people die, that doesnt change our fragile minds.
Loss is hard all the time, we keep that pain trapped deep inside.
I cry alone, I cry alone, please keep this between me and you.
"Die alone, Die alone," that's what they told me I would do.

I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.
I think I live for nothing,
I want to die for something.

SWEAR

Please Keep This Between Me & You (Prod. GREAF)

Seconds now drag on, but moments seem to fade away,
When I wake up I wait for the end of the day,
but my mind can't make time for my thoughts, so I cave,
Know things change, but I've watched my emotions decay,

Every day try to maintain, I just break away,
And the pain gets so numb that it leaves me afraid,
Now my gaze is something that they just can't mistake,
Losing touch with this world is so easy to me,

Dissappointing how easy it is to delete
Anybody that tries to step infront of me,
Things are different when there's really not much you need,
When perspectives start bleeding there's not much to see,

I feel guilty for things that I don't need to be,
How I've felt, how I should, how I can't even sleep,
How I still have these times I can't help but feel weak,
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me,

These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.
These are words, but these feelings are so real to me.

These Are Words, But These Feelings Are So Real To Me (Prod. GREAF)

It's the same thing time and time again.
Put my life on the line to find a means to an end.
It's all in my mind, it's all in my head.
Should I still be alive or am I better off dead?

We dont gotta live, I think we all gotta try.
we ride through the night whether we live or we die,
it's all in our  heads, It's all in our minds.
We live in the dark just so we can see the light.

I get the feeling that there's noone watching me,
I hear whispers I feel something's calling me.
"You're all I need,
If anything.
Remember me
Remember me..."

A slave to the blood that I release with my knife.
I keep turning away, until there's nothing in sight.
feels like there's nothing inside, and so I swallow my pride.
But that can't just subside the hunger I have of time.

It's the price that we pay, that measures all our success.
Trust me, I've seen it all, so I know what to expect.
How the fuck can you give, what you can't even accept.
Don't look into my eyes, unless you're ready for death.

I get the feeling that there's noone watching me.
I hear whispers I feel somethings calling me.
"You're all I need,
If anything.
Remember me
Remember me..."

Remember (Prod. Purpdogg)

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Gotta keep my voice down, cuz I know they sleepin.
Racks still stackin, every day still a weekend
House been jumpin every night full of demons.
Creepin, up and down the walls just like some creatures.

you said you think, but do you really fuckin know though.
Smokin on a oz. so we callin this the o-zone.
6 Bottles in the bag, Two blunts in the roto,
These moments last way longer than a photo.

Keep it on the low low. Still ridin solo. 
Bout it while you bouncin like mothafuckin a pogo,
Switchin up, flippin side to side bitch that's a no-no
I'm hidden while you flexin bnb's out in Noho.

I think it's safe to say around here that that's a no-go.
Pro Clubs bitch, we ain't never rockin polo.
Whole show bumpin, after that we gotta go bro
But they can't even see me through the tint of the windows.

Twin rows back to back in that whip hoe.
In the sprinter bitch fuck a limo.
Indonesian smoke for my kinfolk.
It goes round and round like a syndrome.

Bitch we do what we do, cuz we need to.
Need two bottles of wine for my sweet tooth.
Keep to myself when I really need to.
These dudes, think that I don't, but I see through,
We do.

We do anything that we wanna do,

Twin rows back to back in that whip hoe.
In the sprinter bitch fuck a limo.
Indonesian smoke for my kinfolk.
It goes round and round like a syndrome.

Bitch we do what we do, cuz we need to.
Need two bottles of wine for my sweet tooth.
Keep to myself when I really need to.
These dudes, think that I don't, but I see through,
We do.

UNDERWORLD

Chroma (Prod. Purpdogg)

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Who do you know?

We do this shit for the streets, we do the shit that we know.
Nothin in life that's for free, not even things that I know.
You want the smoke that I got, you want the plug I can call.
You don't want smoke on this block, Tell me then who do you know?

Bitch if you want it, I got it. Bitch that's why noone can stop me.
These people act like my wallet, These people act out of pocket.
These people flexin alot, When they see me they ain't talkin.
I thought those people was bangin, but why then they can't get it poppin.

I know some people these people don't know.
All of my brothas keep it in the low.
We stay anonymous, we don't need problems bitch
We just keep workin, so we don't need options and

All of those people, they ain't really bout it but
We gotta eat so we eatin without em.
Go grab you a plate if you really about it,
Get in this rotation if you really bout it.

We runnin shit there ain't no way around it.
Live and we die there ain't no way around it.
If I'ma go out then this how I'll be out it.
There's no other way if you really about it.

I'm at the house every day cuz I'm bout it,
I'ma do all this shit with or without em
Stackin up money I don't even count it.
You act like you hungry? bitch I really doubt it.

Who do you know?

Anonymous (Prod. Purpdogg)

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Bitch we pulled up early to the show, I think it's 6 o'clock
Fuck it we smokin blunts in the mothafuckin parking lot
I called an uber so I don't need no fuckin parking spot.
Bitch y'all some losers, I do this shit without no problems, huh?

Why they tryna catch the wave, they need to fall up off me.
All of my brotha's keepin it real it aint no option.
We do the shit y'all want every day and that's a promise.
People wanna fuck with me but I can't take no losses

S.O.S. Save Our Scene, OmenXIII can you do this shit?
You tell me, pull up to all these shows come watch me move this shit.
Thought it was a fuckin fight the way you see us movin bitch.
Bitch this ain't no fight, respect the pit or get dropped stupid quick.

Yeah we gon smoke in this bitch there really ain't no stoppin us.
Yeah we gon sip this shit, I don't really see no problems.
Bitch they just mad as fuck, they not us, that's not our problem.
I got a hundred blades, they solve 99 problems.

808's bangin, the fuckin bass gon make you bounce bitch.
Thought they was some rappers but they stressin bout they outfits.
Bitch my shit black, it's always all black, and that's about it.
I see you lack, you can't get on track cuz you ain't bout it.

If my nigga's trappin, it's cuz they tryna make that money flip.
If my nigga's slackin, you know my other niggas tellin him.
Bitch we stay workin, that's why we really on some other shit.
Bitch we not perfect, my purpose teach you how to get through it.

They can feel me on a deeper level than the physical.
You lookin for talent bitch you lookin at the pinacle.
Labels just study us cuz they don't know what they lookin for.
They need the truth when I speak bitch I mean every syllable.

They just some actors bitch they ain't chillin with no criminals.
I swear when people come round me they be on they tippy toes.
I swear the shelf that I'm smokin always somethin critical.
This is our scene for eternity, bitch we invincible.

A Hundred Blades (Prod. Purpdogg)

The wind took the smoke, and seperated it all.
I hope my ghost a little stronger than these blunts that I rolled.
Sometime's the shit just bring me back when I can't maintain control,
Independent thoughts just wander in my head when I don't.

most the people that I see are hiding behind a mask,
Because I don't it's even clearer to see they not intact.
Fragments of some dreams that they know they repressed in the past.
Way to scared to take a jump and even give it a chance.

Sometime's I think that some of the things on my mind just ain't alright.
Why do I feel the way that I feel when I look up to the sky.
No dark, no light, it's just a product of my mind.
Any way you can describe and try to twist these fuckin lies,

We just live and die, isn't that the suprise ?
Are expectations necessary to escape a miserasble life?
I represent a million voices that never got a chance,
Only thing that stands between us is their all in my head.

Where do I go when I cannot feel the feelings lost in the smoke.
Where do I go when I cannot find the things that I need to cope.
Where do I go when I cannot reach the people that got my back.
Where do I go when I cannot understand if my mind's intact.

This ink spills across the sky.
What do you see inside my mind?

Where do I go when I cannot feel the feelings lost in the smoke.
Where do I go when I cannot find the things that I need to cope.
Where do I go when I cannot reach the people that got my back.
Where do I go when I cannot understand if my mind's intact.

These Are Words, But These Feelings Are So Real To Me (Prod. GREAF)

OmenXIII

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