"ashes" originally made 2-22-21

im over my fears

I'm gonna start this very simple and with absolute truth - im not a pedophile. I barely knew the person who called me out, I didn't even know their name, I had no interest in pictures, no interest in finding out who they were irl, the conversations were short and I forgot about them barely a year later, like most conversations I had at that time with strangers. the second time around they reached out, I didn't even remember they were the same person let alone how old they were. the biggest mistake I made was putting myself in a space and community where there was no age control or consideration of anybody's background on a daily basis. i was maybe a year right out of high school, I am not perfect.

I've spent almost every week of the last year attending behavioral therapy, pushing myself through some very dark spaces addressing my own past traumas. I refuse to spill every detail about my life and childhood, but the biggest thing I've learned is that I'm not a self hating monster who purposefully seeks out hurting children. I refuse to be that image people think I am, I've worked so fucking hard this last year to figure myself out and I have no regrets about where I am now mentally. I made mistakes, I addressed them, I'm very proud of how far I've come. I don't care if anyone believes me or forgives me or whatever! have your own mindset, thats perfectly great. I think being tossed out of the communities I had been involved in like trash was infinitely for the better, looking back at how fucking nasty and awful some of those people are. I'm glad I didn't hurt myself and to be honest, I never will and it only gets better from here.

I'm not a monster, I'm going to continue making what I love, and I'll keep working to be a better person despite the ashes in my past. I probably won't continue omnipony other than small tidbits, but for those that know my truth, I'm happy to have you along the journey

god bless✌️

ashes 3.1

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from a young age i struggled with feeling valid. i never found a place in life where i genuinely felt accepted, so i used music as my safe haven. i hope that what our community is doing nowadays helps a lot of people feel more valid and helps them believe that the world is just as open and just as available to them as it is to anyone else. noone should feel outcast for something they cant change, and in a way maybe we should always try to look at the things we cant change about ourselves as our biggest strengths.

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pacified!

(oh brother turn that shit off...)

pacified!

'cause i'm a bad dog i need to get fucking pacified!

autism be damned
my boy be ballin' hard!
he got that collar swang
catch me at the dogpark
all the puppies say
"shit boy you lookin' fine!"
wanna come by and get fucking pacified?

it's straight up homicide
puppyboy euthanized
'cause when you come by you're getting fucking pacified!
fucking pacified!
(fur:trash motherf***er!)
pacified!

this bone too hard to pick
when i nuzzle your bits
pass me the ecstasy and i will give a good tip
i pounce around all night
come close and i might bite
'cause i'm a bad dog i need to get fucking pacified!

it's straight up homicide
puppyboy euthanized
'cause i'm a bad dog i need to get fucking pacified!
fucking pacified!
'cause i'm a bad dog i need to get fucking pacified!

fucking pacified!

'cause i'm a bad dog i need to get fucking pacified!

you're getting fucking pacified!

i'm a little puppy!
pet me on my tummy!
i stay pent up like pup
so collar me up~
yeah...
collar me up~
i stay pent up like pup

pent up like pup

so collar me up~

pent up like pup

you make my tail wag
when you smile like that
what you starin' at?
puppy wants to hold hands?
you got me feelin' high
don't wanna waste time
'cause i'm a good boy i need to get fucking pacified!

it's straight up homicide
puppyboy euthanized
'cause i'm a good boy i need to get fucking pacified!
fucking pacified!
'cause i'm a good boy i need to get fucking pacified!

fuck you, i'm a motherfucking pupstar!
your local menace, i'm barking in the backyard
shut your ass up or i'll make you
a muzzled little bitch, tie you up, make you real cute~

ain't you a pretty little thing when you dance
take a shot of vodka every time you make me laugh
little clutz boy's tail wagging to the beat

puppies like you be like...

"i'm a little puppy!"
"pet me on my tummy!"
i stay pent up like pup
so collar me up~
yeah...
collar me up~
mmm...

pup!

oh my god!
i'm- i'm so sorry! i don't-
i don't know what's gotten into me...
i- i don't even know what i'm saying anymore!
i don't even wanna speak anymore...
just wanna bark!
(WOOF! WOOF!)

(WOOF!)

(WOOF! WOOF!)

pup!

(WOOF!)

(WOOF! WOOF!)

(WOOF!)

(WOOF! WOOF!)

pup!

(WOOF!)

(WOOF! WOOF!)

autism be damned
my boy be ballin' hard!
he got that collar swang
catch me at the dogpark
all the puppies say
"shit boy you lookin' fine!"
wanna come by and get fucking pacified?

it's straight up homicide
puppyboy euthanized
'cause when you come by you're getting fucking pacified!
fucking pacified!
'cause when you come by you're getting fucking pacified!

AUTISM BE DAMNED!

A love letter to the genres both little me and big me have grown up with.
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