i love how the music feels so close and small

Yo

It's been a while since I've uploaded anything. I could no longer resist the urge to share the things I've made recently that are more representative of my current musical style. I also wanted to use that to help officially mark the transition between my old alias, "Syrge," and my real name, "Sam Guild," under which I'll be releasing music from here on out.

Also don't mind the awkward and rushed transitions lmao - those aren't what this is about

Syrge / Sam Guild - WIP Showcase 2021

do yall ever get sad and upload music that was written a long time ago.

buy on bandcamp: https://otrapic.bandcamp.com/track/sand-sun

˳sand + sun ☼

kissing - my hometown manifest

lyrics:
its eyes are made of stone
and its mouth of sweat and oil
its speaks of god and home
and my legs abandon me next
and it hates me, and they hate me
and it hates me, but it holds me
and i press it to my heart
and i hold it to my eye

i think i feel it kissing up my back

the walls and floor are screaming
and my mother's voice is far
the miasmatic chugging
of my hometown's hunger surrounds me
and it cuts me, and it fucks me
and i hate it, but it loves me

i think i feel it kissing up my neck

download/pwyw

indigo awning - kissing

spark

the convergence of independent memories, experiences, and people

originally made for FORM's All Nighter Vol. 8

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5nCIQqGDAvEOT85IPPLdHz?si=rROnVfxHR9-WBHzcM4Bt-A

Pathcrossing

rite of protection - a song i wrote to cope with medical trauma and going nonverbal

lyrics:
the doctor’s under my skin 
and pale water flows through the stone in my eye
 lysergic, I’m opened wide
 and the weight of my gut splits the seam in my core  

and I’m gone
 and I’m gone

  the nurse’s quiet touch
 there’s a cord on my throat, and a cloth on my eyes
 i whisper, the dawn is near 
and the nerves of my lungs shine a beam in the air

  its coming, I wish I could speak
 and I’m gone          
 its coming, I wish I could speak now  
and I’m gone

canary lane

indigo awning - rite of protection

below the bedframe

lyrics:
in shadow cowl
 my body wakes 
 and staring up  
beholds   

something looking  
staring wide 
twisted round 
and starving 

there’s a hole  
in my bed 
and it’s e’er  
yawning wider 
my spirit sinks 
 far beneath 
to the place 
 below the bedframe 

  my body above 
devoured whole 
and I resigned  
remain below   

goodnight moon 
 for I with you 
 remain for e’er 
in lockstep

indigo awning - below the bedframe

heron .recorded live in ontario

featuring - echorift on piano. 

thank you to everyone who has cared for me and everyone who i've cared for

indigo awning - heron (ft. echorift)

anphivena 

featuring - the sound of the wind chimes in my room pushing me forward. the sound of the trees waving me goodbye. the sound of the bugs asking me where i'm going. the sound of something happening to my body below. the sound of my spirit rising above, headed north.

lyrics:
umbra, love from another 
split my body in two  
ribcage peek through the flesh-gate 
 tongue-growth tasting sinew 

  penumbra, boiled in zephyr 
 wrapped joint twisting in clot  
skin-wisp, feed me your centre  
waxing heart-like in rot  

anphivena 
mother of moths 
 hover on creedmoor   

umbra, do you believe me
 something growing in you 
maybe feel my own arms  

penumbra, father is gone now
 nothing halting the change 
shaking, feeling it close   

anphivena 
lover of moths 
covering creedmoor

indigo awning - anphivena

Originally aired July 30th, 2021 on Twitch via  @upscale-recordings   
Watch the full audio-visual mix on YouTube: https://youtu.be/ZUWtdPg2NV0

0:00 - Alexander Panos - traveled in a blanket  //  unreleased
1:30 - Alexander Panos - trip toe  //  unreleased
2:33 - Alexander Panos - holding it  //  unreleased
3:30 - Alexander Panos - phoneme blossoms  //  unreleased
5:46 - Alexander Panos - Equinox (Prelude) 
8:10 - @dobimusic - peace treaty (Alexander Panos Edit)  //  unreleased
10:02 - Alexander Panos - sheridan  //  unreleased
13:13 - Alexander Panos - Dream Extinction
16:26 - Alexander Panos - confession  //  unreleased
17:26 - Alexander Panos - always breaking, always healing

➤ Stay connected: https://linktr.ee/alexanderpanos
➤ Listen to Nascent: https://fanlink.to/nascent

//
In the spirit of the 1-year anniversary of Nascent, I’ve decided to release my 2020 and 2021 Upscale artist showcase mixes. These audio-visual mixes are comprised entirely of original music, almost all of which is currently unreleased. The songs they feature were critical in developing my sound and hold as much of a place in heart as the music on the album. They are further expressions of the emotional space I was navigating at the time. This is the 2021 mix, you can check out the previous one here: https://soundcloud.com/alexanderpanos/upscale-showcase-mix-2020
//

All unreleased music subject to change. Please respect this music in its unfinished state.

Alexander Panos - Upscale Fest Mix | 2021

she/it
harbinger of "kittywampus"
observer
1/7 @lightbenders

indigo awning - below the bedframe

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