lyrics: 
unravelled memories wrap around what's in between both the truth and lies of my pride
twisted fantasies fade way and suddenly it seems like there's no reason left to hide 

gripping reality, finding the duality, yet making sure that I am still free, by all means

I continue to smoke, and puff and toke pretty far from woke, I sit and choke, I'm so fucking broke and there's no hope, I'm so fucking low but don't worry its jokes
but I'm still here reaching out for what is near, sit in fear waiting for this fog to clear, sipping beer,  inner demons sneer, I guess I'll try my luck next year

gripping reality, finding the duality, yet making sure that I am still free, by all means
missing reality, losing the duality and I'm so scared that I'm not who I want to be, but I am me, lost at sea

stoned in focus

your dream

autopilot-01.mp3

Lyrics:
Delete the memory
I don't wanna recall 
I don't wanna reminisce
I just wanna be asleep 
Please don't waste all your time
Trying to make sure that
I can be there for myself 

I'm so bored of my brain
Help me find a new one
I'm so up my own arse
Help me curb my narcissism 
If you choose to stay 
I hope you can relate 
Until the day
You rethink
I rethink 
You pack your things and say

"Hey, was my love not enough for you dear?"
I guess I'm lacking a lot of my own
Babe, was my ego too deflated, couldn't handle what was shown
I still feel the need to fight it

Companions disappear into the night
In the shitty little kingdom where I happen to reside
Situationships I used to be in back in 2009
Still have nothing on this current decline

I'm so sick of my brain
Make me find a new one
I'm so up my own arse
Help me curb my narcissism 
If you choose to leave
Promise me you'll recieve
All the care that you need
Until the day 
You rethink
You come to my door and say

"Was my love not enough for you dear?"
You know I'm lacking a lot of my own
Babe, was my ego too inflated, couldn't handle what had grown
There's no more motive to ignite it
"Oh my sweet man, did your flame cease to carry on?"

We cease to carry on 

Babe, I'll carry this torch
Through your forest of praise 
Couldn't keep my grip 
Trail behind me in a blaze 

inflate/deflate

it doesnt bother me, but it does (first draft recording)

Samples: Camp Orchestra by Show Me The Body, the hoi hoii deh dude

LYRICS: Picked up in the morning, taken for a ride 
Through the lonesome road, no sign of life in sight
Driving at the speed of fucking light through the divide
I don't care if we crash as long as you're by my side 

Instead I'll sit you down and tell you everything that clouds my undeveloped frame of mind, every day seems like a grind
Shoot me down and watch me fall
So you're the one who ends up tall
Sick to death of hearing you pretend that you gave a fuck at all 

Skin me alive, feed my bones to your disciples
They'll reach for their rifles and strip you from your titles


Skin me alive, feed my bones to the same flock of sheep who'd do the same for their idols 

Pissing pins and needles, the shrapnel in my guts that i got from eating up your fries and your lies
Pissing pins and needles, the iron in my lungs have run out of capacity as everything dies 

Skin me alive, feed my bones to the same group of posers who pretend to be someone they're not 
Skin me alive, feed my dick to the same hungry mouths of the whores who were left to rot
Skin me aliveeeee 

Pissing pins and needles, the steel in my stomach cannot fathom all the rust and the dust now I'm bust 
Pissing pins and needles, the aluminium in my kidneys is melting from the fire of your trust 

By the time the day comes, they'll be no time to reload 
Keep that in mind when you're jerking on your chode

pins/needles (prod. RXBMAY)

Hanging by a thread
Might as well be left for dead
Worms in my brain feast on what remain
My heart beaten to a pulp, cradled with decay
How dare they sulk and refuse to turn away
I'm barely worth one more day 

Don't tell me I'll be okay 
As the end is coming my way
Don't be afraid to pray
I'll be okay, i want to stay

How can i sleep
Hearing your weeps
Please love yourself
For no one else
Put down the screen
Shun what was shown 
Deep in your feed 
All on your own

Don't tell me we'll be okay
As the end is coming our way 
Hope and dreams start to fade
Please tell me I'm okay, if i change my mind
I just wanna say I'm lagging far behind
I just wanna say
I just wanna say

I've felt so suffocated 
Putting my whole life aside for you but now I'm closing my eyelids 
I don't want violence 
but right now i need fucking silence 

I've felt so suffocated 
Sitting in solitude feeling like a phat disgrace 
Both my hands over my face
I just wanna say, that I'm a lost case and
I cannot stay, the price is too much to pay

Climb up the moutains
Find yourself, find yourself
Ignore the shadows
Look ahead, straight ahead
Float through river
Find yourself, find yourself
Burn with the embers
In the fire, in the fire 
(I'm out of place) 

Worms in my brain
Hung by a thread 
Nothing remains
Already dead
Put down the screen 
Must not be seen
Deep in your feed
Yet we repeat 
How can they sleep 
Hearing our weeps
I'll love myself 
For no one else
I'll love you all after i fall

zer0 signal

junglebob

sleep paralysis

21 (demo)

dissociate

clipped

tinfoil room

prisoner

I'm in the passenger seat, I'll give you all the control
Count the red lights, as impatience takes its toll
The time it takes to get to the end and my whole body aches as I try to ascend, still I'm struggling to stay awake

Running away from the high that I chased (can you help me pick up the pace) 
Yet I can't help but feel a bit spaced (all I see in this field is your face)

Yet I continue to sprint, trying my best to not leave a print

I refuse to blink, I keep my eyes peeled on the highway we chose to pursue 
There's no one left out there to get me so you may as well join the queue 
Catching my breath now, my liver and lungs are beaten black and blue 
Things have never felt the same, I'm not the person you once knew
I bite my tongue as the growth in my spine expands and interwinds to the back of my neck 
We crashed on the side of the lane and i stand on my feet and look back at the wreck
A part of me is still alive, still breathing as it pounds on the four walls surrounding it's adolescent mind
I feel the presence struggling to escape as I put down my foot and leave it behind

Running away from the high that I chased (can you help me pick up the pace) 
Yet I can't help but feel a bit spaced (all I see in this field is your face)

Tied down, bound and gagged while the denial deep inside me tries to resist 
I don't know what it is that's confronting me, but I refuse to believe it exists
Maybe in another life, we would have had it easier in a world full of shame 
I bow my head down, I let go and give in to this twisted game 

I never thought that you'd come back (I'd never think that you'd return) 
I never thought that you'd attack (I'd never think that you would learn) 
You wouldn't think that I'd fight back (you wouldn't dare to end my turn) 
You'd never think that I'd look back (you'd never think I wouldn't burn)

spaced

Take the train to nowhere as I'm trying to find myself yet I still can't seem to put aside my demons on the shelf now I'm trying to distract both my anger and my doubt as I try and find the easiest way to back out


Everything's fine, laying on the grass  as the sun is beaming in the sky
I'm afraid to look you in the eye, as I'm bad at telling you a lie
Everythings fallen into place, the memories that you erase I can see by the look in your face
But I'm struggling to look you in the eye as I'm trying so hard not to cry

Never said that it was easy, never said that it was right while it took me long enough to finally put up a fight 
May not gone about it smoothly, no matter how hard I tried
But I can't help but destroy you while the guilt is deep inside

Everything's fine, laying on the grass  as the sun is beaming in the sky
I'm afraid to look you in the eye, as I'm bad at telling you a lie
Everythings fallen into place, the memories that you erase I can see by the look in your face
But I'm struggling to look you in the eye as I'm trying so hard not to cry

You push me away, at the same time you tried to change my ways
Tell me a lie
You push me away, making me feel as if I wasted my days
Please tell me why
You fucked me away, here I'm standing in such a dark place
Now you wanna try
To throw me away, yet you never ever deserved my praise

Everything's fine, laying on the grass  as the sun is beaming in the sky
I'm afraid to look you in the eye, as I'm bad at telling you a lie
Everythings fallen into place, the memories that you erase I can see by the look in your face
But I'm struggling to look you in the eye as I'm trying fucking hard not to die

I wouldn't dream to do this again
I wouldn't wish to do this again
I wouldn't care to do this again
I wouldn't try to do this again
You'll never believe me
You'll never believe me
You'll never believe me
Never believe

opia

I wipe my face with cold grey clay 
hoping all this time you'd stay 
feelings on constant delay
no surprise if you'd fade away
peeking on cosmopolitan 
sudden lack of oxygen
will never know the origin 
of my lingering toxicant

it's a sign that I need to get by
every day I want to die
but maybe I'm trying to imply
escaping a reason to say goodbye
a feeling no money can buy
convince to give up or try 
like the apple of my eye
I never seem to comply

hanging on the edge of my borderline mind 
a voice above always seems to remind
there's more to life I struggle to find
in the void of my borderline mind

I feel so far yet feel so close
there's something between us I'd like to boast
it's almost as if I've seen a ghost 
but who can disappear the most
I wonder if I could ever break free 
If only my other side could agree
Fragments of the past lost at sea
I lose control suddenly 

Borderline mind (we'll find another way)
Borderline mind (another mountain to climb)
Borderline mind (another needle in the hay)


borderline mind (rough demo)

converting regular vibes into regular sounds on an irregular basis 

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