This is the story of growing up in a world where softness is punished and called weakness. I learned early to hide my sensitivity, my intuition, my heart. This track is me reclaiming those things and saying out loud that softness is not the opposite of strength, it is strength.

DON’T BE SOFT

This is the moment the “funny friend” breaks character. The smile stops working. The jokes stop landing. It’s when the people around you still see entertainment, but you feel like you’re dying inside. It’s what happens when performing becomes too heavy to carry.

WHEN THE LAUGH DIES

This album is my life story told the only way I know how, honest.
Every track in EXILE is a part of the journey I never thought I’d survive: the first wound that split me open, the mask I built to get through childhood, the inner-child I locked away, the addictions I ran to, the collapse that forced me to finally face myself, and the slow, painful climb into becoming a man I can actually respect.

I didn’t make this to sound cool.
I made it because I’ve bled for this growth.
Because I’ve cried in rooms alone, panicked at 3 a.m., lost people, hurt myself, rebuilt myself, and kept showing up even when part of me wanted to disappear.

This album is every scar I earned on the way back to my own soul.
And if you’ve ever felt like you were too soft for this world, too emotional, too sensitive, too “much”… if you ever hated the mask but didn’t know who you were without it… then this is for you too.

EXILE is the story of breaking, remembering, and becoming.
This is my pain, my truth, my healing.
If you press play, I hope you feel seen in the dark parts and a little less alone in your own fight.

INTERLUDE I: THE BREAKING POINT

Produced, Recorded and Mixed by: Nathan Allan Sunderhuse

Defective

“I make music for people doing the hard work the ones healing their trauma, breaking their patterns, and rebuilding their identity.
My sound is masculine vulnerability, shadow work, and emotional truth.
I don’t make songs to entertain you.
I make songs to guide you through the parts of yourself you were taught to hide.”

INTERLUDE I: THE BREAKING POINT

EXILE

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