it's hard

lyrics:
i scribbled symphonies of peace to cope with finding out the truth
worked as needed reaching what middle school me would think was cool
fiddling pens and pencils pensive wasn’t picky with the tool
i’d use for some naive translation of my angst and fragile mood

i can’t afford it now

growing pains replaced with what the bills are like in winter now
since the cold ascended i can’t shake the taste of poetry
phonetically imperfect pretty speech protruding out of me
im cramming syllables to cry of colder temps and picture books
reliving twisted memories romanticizing what it took
to be alive surviving prerip jeans and social trends
extending my insistence on reliving those remember when’s

it’s a fucked up toxic endeavor

middle child needs attention to feel valid who’da guessed it?
choose an evening to feel hollow with my grief i’ve been selective
been a lot of things over the years but never been objective
i’m a passive dude

some would call it sitting fence and when i’m honest i probably would too
at my expense i picked the easiest escape when i could
now im desperate to do something i should

cause there’s something bout finality that scares me
wavered care perpetuated the impression that i’m distant and aware
of ticking hours minutes seconds sticking strictly to my regiment
rejected any message i was yet to learn my lesson
started strong and i accepted that’s enough to use the leverage
and projected progress farther now it’s a little more than hard
to understand i’m on a limit always finish weaker than i started
know how to begin but stutter further in the tempo how ironic

looking in the mirror a song by melmige thank you for listening [prod. eeryskies]

[verse]
i got a lot of shit pent up
and i got too much in my mental
like fucked up thoughts that don’t nobody know about
i should just go get these bands up
and i should just go get a band bruh
and i should just purchase a firearm
and when nobody looking i’ll chamber a bullet
and just blow it all in my mental
like fuck it we buy ornamentals
and shawty we drink oriental
like fuck it i’m too tee’d up off a soju
won’t fuck me like she on her menstrual
she blow me like she giving dental
and i do all this shit like i’m meant to
pop two more shots straight to the dome
500 for the double barrel
that’s that zombie shit

[chorus]
oh my god i lost my shit
i’m too fucked can’t find this shit yeah
she don’t like it when i’m like this
lost control can’t drive the whip yeah
oh my god i lost this bitch
too fucked up she hope i miss yeah
bullets fly round in this bitch
i just hope that i don’t miss yeah

stream!

L-057 (prod. lostcage)

#notacareintheworld
produced by cxrter & yashio
📸: lilly foster

lyrics:
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows
play the strings, my guitar
hear the beat of my heart
they think i'm spitting bars, but no i'm just making art
they call me KiddPicasso when they play it in their car
if ur hearing this then you’re amazing, yes you are
y’all my creepy crawlies like the spider on my arm
carter got the cartier, we cooking up a storm
i was in the studio since the day i was born
Dj, they love my taste in music
i spend all my money on useless things
it makes them clueless
materialism is the way i view it 
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows
not a care in the world
run your fingers through my hair like i'm a girl 
cuz when you stop and stare
time slows, yeah, yeah, time slows

time slows <3 w/ kiddamo (prod. cxrter x yashio)

then, i saw myself

a collection of songs that you maybe will see yourself in

dedicated to rose and onlyfriend, two people that see in me what i can't always see myself

huge thank you to shizukesa for providing a beautiful verse on revisionist

thank you for listening

revisionist (feat shizukesa) [prod surp]

guitar by me

monsters
inside my walls
they like break me
down
until i crawl
save me
i think i lost
the war between
myself and i
leave me here to rot
i’ll take u back any day
with no second thought 
do u ever feel the same
would u kill for just a day
for us
to meet
once again

walls

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

epic song ft. vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod. @pastencounters

LYRICS

Push me down to broken bricks, ill build back into double
Dust and ashes, crumbled stone, forage thru the ruble

Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Took a rotten path back home to where i dwell
Some friends may leave but the real ones are still here to tell
Things will change, time moves forward
Forgive your mistakes, but i wont forgive your words

Wording how i never felt, put me in the wrong
You were one of my best friends, in a second gone
guess one-sided connections, dont last long

Lone soul on another journey
Grab my bag, but i'm not leaving in a hurry
Blood may spill, but my truth will always cure me
I know who i am, fuck the judge and jury

[vails]
And all these thoughts I’m having lately all just seem too Copesthetic 
When I struggle with my mental health they call me so pathetic
 It’s a lot to fuckin handle, 
and it’s hard to face a smile
 I can pretend like I’ve been fine
 but my reflections in denial 
I’ve been a lost cause, a lone wolf in my eyes 
It’s been so hard, way too real to be lies 
I’d swap paper for a bitch but seems that bitches want the paper “Not a hater”, see you later? Thinking twice about it maybe I’m a lost soul

[Blospar]
Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Running thru the forest and the trees where my lifeline
Even if i had a portal back i could never find the right time
Or the right life, just to get by, cause in this timeline, im never satisfied

Lone Soul ft. Vails [prod. Past Encounters]

original <3- https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt/violent-taste
prod. michael harrison

do i deserve to be this broken?
i must've done something wrong
and when i speak i feel like choking
it must've been all my fault
i love him more
than i love myself
i'll endure what he gives me
nothing can change my mind,
nothing i won't sacrifice 

you've got such a violent taste now
is that what it takes to turn you on?
he want me to pour my veins out
is that what it takes to be your crush?
i'll keep a compliant face now
you know i would hate to make you stop
i'll be so silent, stay down
if that's what it takes to be what you want
(be what you want)

skele - violent taste (safeatlast cover)

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

shoutout @xemmy_exe for finishing this, fuck zel he a bitch

[safeatlast]:

talkin that shit but i came wit intentions
next up better pay me attention
im in my bag and you cant get a mention
tough luck but i work for my interests

im gettin sleepy off double cups
boy ima run it up
pickin up scraps but im still goin hard as fuck

im just an artist wit not enough time on my hands
do what i love do it all for the fam

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

who am i kiddin bitch ima be famous and thats on god
i got the digits im runnin the playlists bitch im on top
why is you simpin you dont gotta say it that bitch is a thot
the numbers im flippin are gettin outrageous think i gotta shot

that boy wanna tote poles dont come my way
you aint got shit to show get the fuck out my face
2 blocks down heard gunshots thats the gang
do it for the message give a fuck bout the fame

[ӼØ︎3]:

im just here for the message don’t een hit my line don’t text it 
i been wondering why did all this shit have to get messy 
i don’t understand why she had to leave could’ve gave her blessings 
it don’t matter yuh i found me a new obsession

get that bag (yeah) go get back yuh (hey)
that’s sad, damn got stabbed 
relax finger finna squeeze talmbout huh subtract 
yeah i had to leave but huh im back

L-057 (prod. lostcage)

oni boy.

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