There are no walls left in my house. Ran through them all. Not even sore.

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Ancestry - (Free Album Download)

Music written by Val Akey and Kontra Sz.
Kontra Sz plays all guitars.
Val Akey: drums, bass, keys programming in DAW (mix and master).

Many thanks Kontra for your wonderful guitar play and your contribution!
Please visit: https://soundcloud.com/kontra-sz
There is a great video created by Kontra Sz for this song. You can watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqZ2lc2GHQ4

Release date: 18 November 2022

Slow River (collab)

SINGLE FROM NEW ALBUM "CHROMAZONES PT. 2 SUBSPACES"

The Great Clock In The Ocean

Grikhy - Sanguis Iris

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of 'Last Call')

Greetings my SC friends. It’s been a strange few months, and I am excited to be back. But I have a feeling it’s not going to look like it did… at least for the near future. I’m having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. And while the musical energy is flowing better than ever, my ability to write satisfying liner notes is feeling a little clogged (this will be my 6th attempt at this write-up). 

As much as I regret it, the write-ups may need to stay on hold for a while longer. But first, I wanted to share what happened (in the form of a write-up. Lol). 

For starters, it’s important to mention I’ve been an alcoholic since I was 15 (a 40 year relationship). And although I genuinely loved what a nice beer buzz did for my noisy mind, I also knew what toxic alcoholism looked like (from many examples in my extended family). So I knew I had my work cut out for me, if I wanted to overcome my genetic dependancy. 

Granted, I also have a ‘responsibility’ vein that runs deep. I did my best to prioritize my family and responsibilities first (‘don’t drink til 5:00. Don’t drink if ya have to drive’ kinda stuff), and I considered myself a ‘functioning alcoholic’. Truthfully, I was never ashamed of my drinking. As a teenager, the ability to not give a shit that I found in a beer buzz honestly saved my life. And it allowed me to unplug from the noise for many decades after that.

But I wanted to do better than that, so I started making changes quite a while ago. Here’s a brief summary of how that unfolded:

1. Back in 2006 I concluded my negative headspace was the root of the problem (perspective is huge); so I altered my daily routines, knowing it would take years to undo the lifetime of programming that caused that thinking in the first place. I started consuming info that was positive and hopeful and loving (and avoided negative info like my life depended on it… which it did). And I did that intensively for the next 15 years.

2. But by January of 2023, I realized the beer buzz no longer quieted the noise and ugliness happening in the world (it all went too chaotic too fast). So if the crutch wasn't helpful, it needed to go. That’s when I tried Tai Chi (to give my mind something else to focus on). And it worked brilliantly.

3. Over the next 6 months, thanks to the calmer headspace created by Tai Chi, I cut my drinking tremendously (and for perspective, we’re talking 9-18 Natties daily… down to 3-6 Natties daily). The surprise outcome… the fog in my mind was clearing for the first time, and I was not prepared for sober adult Justin (man is my brain chattery when left to it’s own devices). So at the beginning of August 2023, I decided to take my Social Media break. That was more timely than I could have imagined, because…

4. On August 26th I was given the gift of Pancreatitis (the disease that lets you know ‘Wow, Dude. You drink way too much’). I went to the Emergency room with terrible intestinal pain, and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days. Long story short, I left the hospital sober, and have been that way ever since. And I’m genuinely happy about that… because thankfully, I did a great job preparing for that day.

So in a nutshell... I am back. But the writings may have to wait a while longer (at least until I figure out how my new clearer headspace works). Interestingly, I managed to produce almost an entire album of new music over my break, so I'll put those new songs up on SC over the coming weeks. 

And since I’m just a few songs short of completion, I’ll be releasing a very personal album (symbolizing my adventures with sobriety) very soon. It’s called ‘What Color Is Your Paradox?’, and I hope to have it on Bandcamp in February.

In the meantime, I’m happy to be back. And I look forward to seeing what all of you have been up to over the last few months. :)

 Big hugs from your blatantly open-book friend.
-Justin

Paradox?

Last Call

Written and Recorded by Nate Jessee at Trash Island Studios

Lyrics:
You'll sell your soul for things you cannot see
Each day it makes you sweat and it make you bleed
You never question if you're free
The game has built its walls around you and me

The game pushes you far away from where you want to be
The rules fall on you to understand the game

Your mind's stuck on repeat
Your destiny will always be the same
Because you can't see past the fact 
that you're playing the game

Braindead from the news like you got something to lose
Hold tight to your precious routine of life
Before they take it away from you, it's a game we'll all lose
We just can't quit, so what's your point of view
When the game swallows you.

The Game

Video

Ancestry

https://soundcloud.com/insatiable-void

https://soundcloud.com/insatiable-void/sets/limited-remix-collab-by

Ancestry- Insatiable Void (AudioBake Mix)

@insatiable-void

Collab playlist:
https://soundcloud.com/insatiable-void/sets/limited-remix-collab-by

Original song:
https://soundcloud.com/insatiable-void/ancestry

Insatiable Void - Ancestry ( ONKVLO MIX )

i grabbed the chance to work with the excellent stems from the great Insatiable Void !!!
Here is the original and the playlist
https://soundcloud.com/insatiable-void/sets/limited-remix-collab-by

Insatiable Void - Ancestry noxpox remix

Ancestry<>Father and Son! (InsatiableVoid + MrDjBigHouse)<> (LSMIX)

Apophenia

Bandcamp

Planetshine

thanks to https://soundcloud.com/easybeatswiss to let me remix his wonderful track

E.B.S. - Dark Dimension (Mr Menator Acid Techno Remix)

Be Alright

Düster, roh und kompromisslos – Fabsetekk – Maniac (Schranz) ist ein gnadenloser Ritt durch die tiefsten Katakomben des Underground-Techno. Treibende, verzerrte Kicks, industrielle Atmosphäre und hypnotischer Druck bringen den Bunker zum Beben. Für alle, die auf harte Bretter, pulsierende Energie und kompromisslosen Sound stehen – dieser Track ist pure Eskalation.
💣 Keine Kompromisse. Nur Schranz. Nur Wahnsinn.

Fabsetekk - Maniac (Schranz)

Rihanna - Where Have You Been Remix/ by. Løxx & Twerix

I'm currently experiencing the worst bout of depression I've had in my life. Which says a lot, because I usually have some level of depression constantly. It's been going on for a while now, and I have been neglecting all forms of social media. I apologize for not listening to all your tracks. I've just been uploading, and responding to DMs... Eventually anyway. My writing has changed a lot too. My tracks don't sound like they came from hell anymore lol. Hopefully this will be resolved sooner rather than later. Until then I'll just keep dumping my crap here for the few people who still are around.

He/Him
Neurodivergent
Satanic-Atheist
Anarcho-Socialist

Tracks vary in quality and style. I just make something and upload it even if it sucks. I just want to enjoy making noise.

Insatiable Void - Ancestry ( ONKVLO MIX )

ONKVLO

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