It hurts just as much today as it did four years ago; losing you is something I don't think I'll ever get over. Thank you for showing me what an amazing person you were while you were here, for being a friend to me when no one else was. You made growing up so much less lonely, and I never got to tell you thank you for that. I wrote this melody for you a long time ago, it was one of the first things I ever put in a track a released. I've come so far since then, and I wanted to rewrite it and make something special for you with it. I hope you like it, I love you and I miss you Patrick. I hope that I'll be able to inspire people the way you inspired me, you were never afraid of anything; especially if you believed in yourself. You taught me so much and I'll always be thankful for our time together. I miss you. RIP

Through The Stars

Goodbye

something (prod. robin_cause)

No Good

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

stone cold slow theme

WHERE IS PLANKTON?

A remake of the instrumental for "You Rock My World" by Michael Jackson

you rock my world beat remake

i made another one lol

lyrics
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cold up north but she stay out east
bought that girl a new dior fleece
drop out class but i still say please
still say cheese for the camera
call back to when i copped that piece
caught that berk now the boy deceased
made that beat so i don't need lease
don't need lease
fought for the reign and the title
if i let go gon freeze frame the cycle
go right back to my plans of survival
write more chunes for the sake of my vitals
can't go back to the bando
hometown love me i can't be a rando
outside in i would still be a fan tho
clock back in and i pow like rambo

ghosting

for all those we've lost, keep creating <3

Lyrics:

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's my favorite season
illness in the boy gonna
drown the voice of reason
i don't wanna hear it
i don't wanna deal with this
give me another night to dwell on how i stepped in shit
think it's do or die
friends pass all the time now
i'm not gonna lie
i still take my life for granted
don't know how we manage
face tank all the damage

i can not slow down
for other dreams conclude
another's journey ends
but mine survives somehow?
it's not fair

it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair
it's not fair

not fair (prod. remghost)

Was the main creator with the band, Drued but started to move to a different direction with influence and  inspiration.

Goodbye

Operation:Drued

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