Name: Chaos by OptimalObjects
Duration: 2 min 19 s
Description: Just a mirror convo, craving a return to an outdated version of me I liked.

Initial D ~D Selection~

Heartbeat/Nathalie

Anoana

mixed by Doc McKinney

prod. https://soundcloud.com/kidhnrk

gone just as you came through the broken air
now i start to question where you even there
to run my fingers through your fucking hair
girl i see your face everywhere
maybe so suddenly 
standing right in front of me
take the gun and baby let me see
make it how its supposed to be
i do this for you
and you run my right through
this was all part of your plan
got just what you wanted, never seen again
lay me down
close my eyes
send me off into the night
baby i would die for you
dont you realize take my life for you
our life only thing important to me
where am i now
since you've gone away from me
you're the only thing i ever see
i cant breath, no
when you're not right next to me 
baby i cant breath


pull (prod. Hnrk)

1. (longing) - 渴望
2. (love) - 真愛 
3. (birth) - 分娩 
4. (life) - 生活 
5. (sickness) - 疾病
6. (desperation) - 絕望 
7. (depression) - 蕭條 
8. (suffering) - 痛苦 
9. (bonus track) - 怎样 
10. (bonus track 2) - 切割 

https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/life-cycle
https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/life-cycle
https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/life-cycle
https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/life-cycle
https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/life-cycle

"If love is a gift then I am luckier than most
I am showered with more than anyone could hope
Only I cannot accept them with open arms or a smile
I push everyone away from me, neverending denial

It hurts to exist
It is painful to live
My wrists show the struggle of my emptiness

Just once I want to express myself right
To be honest to those who deserve so and cry
To bleed my own blood not for me, not my life
But someone who needs it, just once before I die
No more lies...

And when I'm gone from this life, I'll look down in surpise
The world keeps on turning, not a cloud in the sky
Without me it's better and less filled with hate
Because now I am gone, buried deep in a grave." - b e g o t t e n 自杀

"Lay me down and close my eyes. Send me off into the night."

我真的很想去杀我自己，因为没有人需要我在这里，没有人要我在这里，没人在乎，我没有在线离线的朋友，我不爱我的家人，没有任何人理解我，我是一个失败，只是浪费钱/食物，更多我可以列出

所以我在这个旅行的合唱团，但是是夏天，但有像冬天般的天气。旅游地点有点糟糕，因为我曾经住过（约3000人，充满吸毒者）。我记得走到温迪的一个场所（没有我住过的地方），但这个标志就像“老兵酒吧”那样庆祝老将。我走进去，我没有钱，也没有我的朋友，但是一位老太太说：“哦，我不在乎，你还会在这么美好的一天去冰淇淋。”然后我被我的合唱团中的男中音拉开，我完全迷失在感觉像一个梦幻般的颜色和建筑物的模糊。

我所说的是冬季天气的原因是因为在上一部分末尾的幽灵段下雨，我用身体遮挡我的东西在雨中不被弄湿。即使这次旅行持续了几个小时，我想（不记得有关旅行的细节，也没有看到我的老师或任何同学以外的男高音和男中音）。我终于得到了不公平的，在一条我很熟悉的街道上。我头脑里有一个想法：我要去这个城里的朋友家去拜访，这是我去过他们家的唯一的朋友，和他一起睡觉。所以当我到了他的房子（我像火影忍者那样跑了30分钟，而不是坐公共汽车），到了他的房子，他是真的不同。有意义的是，我想：“在3.5年的时间里，我们分开了，我发现了一种幽默幽默感，他有一种脚痛，痴迷于水獭”
但等等还有更多

我进了他的房子，他没有像上次那样的狗，但他比以前有5个兄弟姐妹。我记得的是，我问他的父母在哪里，他的父亲说“哦，Skyler发现如何把自己变成水獭，所以他在浴室里有一些”私人时间“，这对他来说非常伤心”，而我可以听到非常非常大声的浴室呻吟声。我在汗水中醒来，低声想死

(life cycle) - 生​命​週​期

(life cycle) - 生命週期

Amen

Introvert (feat. Joji)

this is just about as quick as inspiration comes, i wrote this at lightspeed. inspired by an email thread about ai and music 💀✨

"Am I being disingenuous? 
Is this even legitimate?
Need a creative outlet however,
Is this real art or just bullshit?"

I struggle with feeling like an authentic me
Bury myself in shades of ambiguity 
Don't know exactly what I want from you
Probably nothing transactional honestly 
But if it's money that you need
Take all that paper from me;
Pay ya whatever you want, 
just for interacting! (Ooo, thanks senpai! hahaha)


Complicated thoughts 
and complex feelings 
Feel my heart stop
And restart beating!!
Complicated thoughts 
And complex feelings;
One sliver of attention 
Now my minds reeling 

Am I being lazy? 
Letting machines do the work for me?
Know I'm procrastinating 
Something that used to be my hobby
It's deeper than it seems 
Collaboration feels like a pipedream 
When all of my examples 
don't even include my real singing (obviously, guilty! 😏)

Complicated thoughts 
Complex feelings 
Feel my heart stop
And restart beating!!
Complicated thoughts 
Complex feelings 

I think I create like this
Because it keeps up with me
Overflowing with lyrics 
From constant overthinking!
Could write you an essay 
about damn near *anything*

Complex thoughts, complex feelings 
Complicated thoughts, complicated feelings 

Feel my heart STOP!
And restart beating!!!
Complicated thoughts!!!
And complex 😶‍🌫️😚"

Complicated Thoughts & Complex Feelings

Just a mirror convo, craving a return to an outdated version of me I liked.

Chaos

Pass through the crosswalk
drop a penny down the street 
Make you all bend over
Go on pick it up for me
heads or tails 
Good or bad luck 
Baby I drop Schrodinger's Penny 
never fails
 greed makes ya eat it up
Product of the World boo thing
You want to know what it's like to mess with karma. 
I'm going to teach you a little thing
 about some Dharma 

you want to know what kind of vibe I rock
esoteric as fuck
 ya don't even know which planet you're on
You want to know about eternity, right? 
I suggest education about the flower of life.
Bridge it up, metatons cube hidden in plain sight
Tell my all about my inky symbols 
mansplainin on my pillow at night
You want to know about runes and rites??
Rituals, charms and things that go bump in the night?? 
Supernatural always makes me go wild
Pull up take a seat and stay for a while


Schrodinger's Penny 
Pick it up up up
Ah ah ah


Oh you want it
My two cents
It's not just nonsense 
Oh you want it



Schrodinger's Penny

AW FK (alt)

Suffer On

ACAB

Trying to build a collection of cool music to listen to while I design my 3D printing models.

Chaos

OptimalObjects

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