JL180

Ambient

I'm afraid I am rotten

cooked

Visions of Light

Intro

stream / download:
https://kurate.lnk.to/DS039

this feeling

See-Through

Psychic Sweeping

Advanced Myth

Teams

Operation: Doomsday (Complete)

? (Instrumental)

Panta Rhei

Sunrise

There is nothing remaining other than the desperate want to return

Goodnight Dad I Love You

Wander Into

さまよう

everything written, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by me

wonder if you care

DISTANCE

Slide Back

Steal The Air

Lyrics:

Just one more lie and then I fall

Don’t play pretend you had it all

I’d kill for you dont even start

Dancing alone all in the dark

I’m hurting im hurting i wish you were dead

Don’t reach out my hand ill stab you instead

You said you wont hurt me, now look what you did

I’ll pretend i don't need no help, but i said I need you bad

scars

transatlantic

Second single from our upcoming album "Between Heavens" out September 13th, 2023.

Tour dates:
rubyhaunt.com

Fallen Air

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

i was only temporary

spotify link

trade winds, white heat-Tim Hecker

first try at spoken word poetry/music
something i wrote up when i couldn't sleep
download here: dandelionhands.bandcamp.com/album/19

invisible

repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
time has proven that fooling yourself into believing
a lie is the most effective way to deal with
things you have no control over

keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
overanalyse every single word you hear
"was this a sign that things were going wrong"
no no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them

stay up every single night staring at your phone
either attempting to gather up the courage to
turn these demons, these constant reminders of
your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
or praying just for one second you could feel
the warmth of equally returned love

go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
always bring your notebook, never stop writing
leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
watch them smile as you get in your car

always talk down on yourself whenever possible
my life is shit because i deserve it, right?
you must have done something real bad
its nearly impossible for you to cry now

avoid your friends for weeks even though
they're the only sense of consistency you have
left in your life, if they really wanted
to see you they'd come, but they won't (who cares?)

allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
watch as you begin to take a backseat to the
world around you, don't fight it
become a secondary character in your own motion picture

but most importantly drown every single one of
your feelings in old stolen rum, learn to
love the taste of it dripping down your throat
find comfort in the warmth coming from your
stomach, you're drinking bottled love now

you don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
you just needed to find a way to talk to it

how to never stop being sad

found sounds, tape collages, and pop songs about forgetting
https://beacons.page/orchid.mantis

transatlantic

orchid mantis