I Don’t Wanna Die

This beat began as one of many attempts of me trying REALLY hard to replicate Mai Yaname's "Tasogare," then I accidentally discovered drum machines inside FL Studio. After that, it sat for 2-3 months before I put lyrics to this the night before I uploaded. I continue to not be able to sing. Anyway, this is an attempt to speak my mind, and I end up merging old mindsets with new perspectives. Hopefully it means something to someone.

LYRICS:

[Verse 1: ornnmain]
Tell me what death feels like
I got too much on my mind
I'd kill myself with no gripes
But this pen compels me to write

All about the pain in my soul
All it does is rain in my home
All within the hatred I chose
All the way to Hades I go
All in all, I don't know how to live
All along, I had nothing to give
Always on the same bullshit I'm with
All because I feel saddened again

Ants crawl on gravel beneath the hot sun
Do they know that their life hangs by a thread?
How hard to see that your end sha-all come
Can I let go of this all-consuming dread?

[Bridge]
Death brings no fear
Skies never clear
Darkness is here
And I don't wanna be here

[Interlude]
Hey, you got any bars for us?
Yeah, I got some

[Verse 2]
I wonder why I am compelled
To give a single fuck about this hell
These pleasures are petty and fake
If that's all there is, then this life I shall take
I cannot wait to die, to close my eyes
And dream about those somber skies
For rest sublime, I give up this pitiful
Earthly life, and call death a miracle
So why do I stay?
Why the FUCK am I still here if everything's so lame?
Well, I had a change in my brain
And now the suffering to me is just a game, you see
The suffering is the only thing that I can feel
The suffering is the only thing I know is real
The suffering is the only thing that makes me smile
The suffering is the only thing that makes my life worthwhile

I Laugh in the Face of Death (prod. ornnmain)

(JFK) [8:07 Jul 3, 2023]

(LAX) [16:50 Jul 2, 2023]

(LAX) [13:32 Jul 2, 2023]

Singles

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Maduk - Company
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I Laugh in the Face of Death (prod. ornnmain)

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