Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Mastered by Sarah Register

The Boy Looks At His Home From Afar

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register

When you wish upon a star
in late night reveries, 
others are wishing too,
on your star,
but don’t feel down,
the dream you’ve bound to future memories
are still unfolding child,
the stars they are connecting all of you 
to an immovable
luminous 
truth, 
feel your coming youth.

The crickets pulse 
the night wakes up 
a child in it’s eyes, looking skyward.
to Dahn
the infinite on wishing lips 
he wispers to the spark
“let it bind me, 
and i’ll go blindly stepping into the dark.


The pinprick in the velvet sends 
a dreaming ray of light 
to his bedroom, the boy in my life.
The curtains part 
his hairs stand up 
the windows open wide lets the breeze in
as he’s sleeping 
the boy goes off 
floating into the night. 
magically, absurdly,

Orion!

Waking. 
Where am I where's my bed? 
A needle's point 
is poised 
above my arm again 
Feeling.
Like I've done something wrong. 
Yet I feel strangely proud, 
as my head it starts 
to fog. 
Facing. 
A face I thought I knew,
but it's empty,
of the hearth 
behind its eyes of blue.
Strapped up.
As the walls they peel away, 
I'm high above the world I love,
the friends I've left
are saved from me. 
be.


The Night Mirror

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register 

Additional Drums by Matte Wood

Motions
Motions of a Life

Motions
Motions of a Life

As a child 
so innocently exploring,
the world had a mystery you hope to regain
in growing up we lose 
all of these

Motions
Motions of a Life

It’s the slow change
that makes us forget that
were aging,
while memories are photos 
so slowly degrading ghosts 
between all these

Motions
Motions of a Life

I bet you know what your reaping
but i wonder what you sow
it’s something that your giving
off 
that something's a shadow

the shallow movement of the tides, 
a seamless dancer of time, 
it unwinds
The fallow bellows of the night
are breathing 
the destiny of your life, 
of your life reprised 


Motions of A Life

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register 

Additional Drums by Sandy K-Pax

Come and play 
The quartz says to me as I cross my legs 
next to the tv screen, so excited
Grainy cathode rays.
My eyes are gleaming 
with the starlight
pixels of a video, dream 

But who is this I'm remembering?
In those different skins, 
I find it sometimes in that twinning thing 
always unbidden
Still find it in the cracks of 

The Crystal Pixel

The light is getting late,
The game becomes his life 
becomes the boy 
becomes the one being, 
Played. forced sousveillance. 
Who's to ever say?
That our ties to conscious life 
aren't really lies to keep us 
finding out that 
we're sitting there in that predawn lair. 

But who is this I'm remembering? 
In those different skins, 
I find it somehow in that twinning thing
always unbidden
Still find it in the cracks of 

The Crystal Pixel

"In the waking world someday thou may recall
this island that memory must be the real dream world 
Come on let us awaken together”

The Crystal Pixel

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register

it’s in the agates scattered glowing in the drive,
 that trails past the mutton and star
 to where i’d dream in the jay trees i’d climb
 then muse at milk thistles growin' long in the blinds, 
 amongst the rolling wind that caused the corn fields to sing with the...

Peek the mason jars lined against the wall  
in the basement where Delzetta would sew 
running through the old family bus 
that’s curled with ivy and littered with rust 
in the cement of the barn 
that pens the pigs and their sows 
we’d pet all the cat’s kids with our toes,

What is this dream?
What is this dream?
What is this dream i’ve had in which
i’m always sad when it’s over?

it’s in the lone tree that stands amongst the corn,
 in the sheep's call and the cocks early horn,
 is the emptiness: a memory, a child.
 In the wrinkles of the shallows
In the bulbous and the wild. 
Lid your cobalt eyes and breathe the air 
of your child that sees strength in your motherly mind.

What is this dream? 
What is this dream? 
 What is this dream i’ve had in which
i’m always sad when it’s over.

Delzetta

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register

Who is that wisper in? 
Sounds like a child singing 
something
but where on earth is it coming from?
Cause i’m out here on my own 
Cause i’m out here on my own 
Cause i’m out here on my own 
my own

Here I am 
a starved foolish man 
but you’re hearing my words all wrong

In vain I complain 
to myself
The Pages Printed 
but they’re just laying there 
on the shelf 
are they pulling you up 
or letting you down? 
Are they your friends or just part 
of the crowd

Tell me you’ll miss me
that you’ll still think of me as family 
and when the day comes 
i won’t be saying 
that i’m out here on my own. 
am i out here on my own?
am i out here on my own?
my own.

There you are 
a line in the song
but i’m hearing your words all wrong

Am I just a thorn in times side?
to be plucked out
annoyed 
and causally laid aside
or am I a rock 
that's bending the stream 
either way
i’ll be worn to dust 
eventually.


Out Here On My Own

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register

Did you know? 
The Wind is silence,
is silently silencing? 
Less your ears hear it hissin
Less the buildings start to groan
Less the trees leaf it thrashing
Less the mountains start to moan
Less the windchime
in its purpose 
shows the ghost in its throne.
 
Buried with care, 
I was scattered, 
I was cut like a curl, 
Blown by The Winds 
a harlequin 
of a memories timeless tattering, 
yet my dreams 
are different things than us 
unconscious and unmanageable. 
I can't help the way 
my feelings bosom bleed into the tangible. 
I'm split so you know, 
split so you 
know, split 
so you know, 
you know, 
you know

Oh Margot

Come Margot, or Meghan, come kitten, 
my love
Where are you,
my memory; a pale woman's hug 
I see you
in the shower while I'm singing you songs
And you're laughing 
and you're smiling 
as you try 
and sing along

And you know that I'm scared, 
of the next day, 
Of not seeing you 
warm, 
in the doorway where you'd let me in. 
you sneaking kiss 
I'd grab you with my weary arms 
my dreamy dawn 
my still life 
my still love 
where did you go, 
where did you go? 

go. 
go. 
go.
 
Oh Margot. 
 
Meet me where I met you 
in the triangle park,
hop the fence between 
our first kiss 
and ill take you for a walk,
you'll see me the next morning
ill be groggy and 
bare
and then your roommates will leave you 
without a bedroom 
to share
 
So I'm taking you in, 
for this beginning,
And while the moments did pass 
well the memories came 
some merrily made and easily unavoidable 
the meaning was late 
its the saddest 
of fates 
cause happiness is unacknowledgeable, 
a confusing escape 
in both the ways 
of holding on and letting go. 
Im letting go 
im letting go, 
go. 
go.

Im so sorry 

Oh Margot

The Wind

Written, Recorded, Performed, and Mixed by Otium
Final Mix by Geoff Strasser
Mastered by Sarah Register

Up there 
those diamonds, 
are all alone
for eternity, 
all that buzzing
static, 
makes my skin disintegrate in the air.
so take me to your house, 
to the basement, 
where your skins are found. 
I’m shaking,
so put me to sleep. 
 
_______________

 
Here comes the new flesh
starting to mushroom out
the whispers to turn to shouts 
now we laughing jay
and i’m glad that you're around 
somehow it’s more profound 
let’s walk outside
to where cars are blood-cells of the road
tonight
 
While we are dancing 
and the fireworks explode
I start feeling so old. 
Now i am crying out for my innocence
to rise 
but it’s only loneliness I find. 
“come lay in the grass and i’ll listen to you as the night goes past”
 
Maddie my mother is taking care of me
I’m just an infant,
in a bad dream.
Scott you have gone blind from rolling in the light. 
 
John is pensive, 
sitting on the truck,
being the lonely moon
and Jolene you’re coming 
to pick me up and 
put me in your crystal room
and she was right , 
about her basement where those 
skins are found 
I’m shaking
so put me to sleep.

New Flesh

The Boy Leaves Home With His Friends

Memories of Us (demo)

"Memory is the star in which we used to wish, the dream we lose after waking, the key we hold but cannot turn."

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