I wrote this about ten years ago now (2002), which was a few months after losing my sister to cancer. Those were very dark days and months in my life. I was blessed to have some amazing people around me at the time but one of the main things that got me through was definitely my faith in God. Faith in a God who ultimately loves and cares for me; even when none of what was happening made any sense to me. I needed to remind myself of this blind faith often and again at those times.  In 2010, I got tired of 'sitting' on it and wanted to share it with others. I recorded it in my room using a headset I got and my laptop. I emailed it to my friend, Dehumo (@dehumob), to see what he could do with it and he returned this to me shortly after. It's by no means finished but I wanted to share it with you. What do you think? Let me know via the comments box. Thanks!

I KNOW WHOM I HAVE BELIEVED
A heart broken. A promise unkept
A soul wounded. A dream unfulfilled
I struggle as the waters threaten to drown me
I fight as the odds increase against me
What is this that threatens to overcome me?
How is it that I find myself in this place?
There is no understanding the situation
No answers yet questions persist
I stand on the edge of this grand canyon
Right on the verge of such deep distress

But through it all Jehovah bids me come
Come rest in His comforting arms
My hand in His as He leads me
Walking me through the winding paths of life
I know that true strength is never in my ability to fight
It's in the willingness to hold my head up
Up above the storms
And to say
“I know whom I have believed”

Tunmise Usikalu
2002/2010

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