recorded and wrote 9-2-2020

Yuh your loves the solution
I tripped and fell into this dissolution
My mind seems to break up from all of the fusion
I can't seem to escape there's no resolution
Take a step back
Thoughts never change
when you still on Prozac
If you tryna find a way
just to make it through the day
I know exactly what to say
Just listen to the facts
Tripping off you
Lets make through just don't fuck with my mood
Losing your ego from an ounce of the shrooms
Left a strong mark just like a tattoo
If this wasn't true
Nothing would matter then what should i do?
Can't seem to focus when I think of you
I find nirvana when you are my view
Everything's alright
Loving the moments when we stay up all night
Its the highlight of my day
Past the twilight and it's grey
My emotions always spray
Just like an AK
My mind and my soul
Felt really cold I don't wanna grow old
I ended the cycle from what I was told
Start a new title and let it unfold

Dissolution

(2021)

yeah i thought i found it all out
i'm down sad and all bad
knowing i can't call back
hurts but you still saw that
i'm high with all the lights out
might type but flashback
calm down, alright
don't catch me if i fall down !

yeah i'm not alright i thought about it
but i have a feeling
it's lost inside my doubt
and gone inside and out
somewhere i thought i saw a spark
but reality tears me all apart
my heart, right start, wrong heart

yeah the tabs aren't worth the ride ...
even if your serotonin's fine ...
i bleed oxycodone i want oxytocin ...
we can nod sober but still be sky high !

(2024)

[GREEN|
i wont fight back, false flag attack
try to distract me, wont help at all
it wont help me baby
dont hide your pain from me

It pains me but i wont lose my composure
lost my mind all the way back in october
put me on the pulpit, swallow the corrosion
lying on the pastures, watch my soul dissolve

[ORDER]
leave me fucked up
i dont wanna grow up !!!
what am i supposed to do if i'm not enough
too bad, you cant feel my pain now
cause i dont care about your pity
i just wanna know Love

24/7 trapped in a living hell
and i cant help but lie and say i'm doing well
you wanna know the secrets?
i honestly dont want you to hear this at all

but if we recap then we'd know we found it
kissing on your neck and taking in your deep breaths
and i wonder if she knows it's something i need
but she looks me in the eyes as if she loves me
and i got my foot trapped between both worlds
and this old man notices my changes
he says "she's lucky" if i'm able to share all this
and i "deserve love" but i'm straight out ABY$$

<3

Your Love Makes Me Nod (Feat. GREEN)

HG-8853 Edit

i wish you had known what i know
so maybe you'd hear my words
i see right through your chest
you're lying to your self
and that's why i don't fear death

i wish you knew what i do
every single little word i say is true
and even though i couldn't save you
it's all i ever wanted to

i wish you had known what i know
so maybe you'd hear my words
i see right through your chest
you're lying to your self
and that's why i don't fear death

My Life's An Ocean, and I'm Drowning in Love

i feel like i might just give up
and I still cant fall asleep
cause i'm still in love
it makes me throw up
and I'm tired of this
all i wanna do is quit
all I wanna do is quit
my life feels like shit
fuck what I feel cause it's not even real
i'm a selkie between worlds and that's okay
sometimes I wonder if you're okay
i've witnessed true horrors and shifted my fate
everything changed when I looked in your face
the love I felt, failed me
i just want some peace of mind
that's why I sing a piece of mine
this brief moment in our time
i can't even slow down right now
i think we frayed the twine we had
Do you trust me or think we're bad?
i just wanna get in your heart
show you my art
so you know why I'm falling apart
yeah, nobody knows
i reap what i sow I'm loving cause thats all I know
and that's why a year later she says she is sorry
she knows where I'll go and can't wait when I start
stacking up cash posting pics with nice cars
dadadada I don't care it's not hard
I have no love for this world
it's tearing my soul so I pray to Christ for a new heart
yuh I'm looking far
yuh ay faith will take part
relearning my love
I want to show you these feelings above
I know that one day you'll realize
when you look in my eyes
and see past all the butterflies
and i can finally tell you what i've been hiding inside
that i'm in love with you
if only you knew

i feel like i might just give up
and I still cant fall asleep
cause i'm still in love
it makes me throw up
and I'm tired of this
all i wanna do is quit
all I wanna do is quit
my life feels like shit
fuck what I feel cause it's not even real
i'm a selkie between worlds and that's okay
sometimes I wonder if you're okay
i've witnessed true horrors and shifted my fate
everything changed when I looked in your face
the love I felt, felt me

Blue Eyes White Dragon

duck gang! :DDDD
mixed by Greennotes

yeah, she got a lot of baggage
and it's sad shit
cause she was a bad bitch
yeah, smoking gas, spill my ashes
lose my mind like I'm on acid
yeah, and I don't even wanna pass shit
keep it humble cause they blowin cabbage
lights out, that's it
in the dark, bloody mattress
got me flaccid, cause she ratchet

i'm out the door
she on the floor
she like britney sayin 'gimme gimme more'
and it's cold in my core
is this existential horror
hoes in my dms but i don't fuck whores
spoken words from the past tense
once it's said and done it's my advantage
i'm rampent
and i'm snapping
and i'm laughing
don't get caught lacking
guns out
no strapping
no packing
no lust or bad acting
you're not a link to me so why you masking
that's asking
rosin bowls and i cache it
passed out outside and i meditate on magic

yeah, she got a lot of baggage
and it's sad shit
cause she was a bad bitch
yeah, smoking gas, spill my ashes
lose my mind like I'm on acid
yeah, and I don't even wanna pass shit
keep it humble cause they blowin cabbage
lights out, that's it
in the dark, bloody mattress
got me flaccid, cause she ratchet
no packing
no lust or bad acting
you're not a link to me so why you masking
that's asking
rosin bowls and i cache it
passed out outside and i meditate on magic

baggage!

i said i would never lie to you
i thought i was right for you
would you care if i lied? i lied.

not so fast
wanted us to make things last
wanted to regret our past
and i thought i was honest cause honestly
all i ever had was lust inside
i really thought you were my ride or die
now i'm tryna figure out who i'm inside but somehow...

I SAID I WOULD NEVER LIE TO YOU
I THOUGHT I WAS RIGHT FOR YOU
WOULD YOU CARE IF I LIED? I LIED.
SOMETIMES PHONE LIGHTS ARE MY NIGHTLIGHT
I WISH FOR A NEW LIFE
BUT UNTIL THEN I'LL FIGHT
I'LL FIGHT

and that's the way it ends
no more time to play pretend
you won't forgive amends
how can i make sense?

at the time in the past
i just wanted your love fast
felt your tongue
taste the rum
thought desire'd be more fun
if only i had knew it's not true

I SAID I WOULD NEVER LIE TO YOU
I THOUGHT I WAS RIGHT FOR YOU
WOULD YOU CARE IF I LIED? I LIED.
SOMETIMES PHONE LIGHTS ARE MY NIGHTLIGHT
I WISH FOR A NEW LIFE
BUT UNTIL THEN I'LL FIGHT
I'LL FIGHT
SINCE SIN
THOUGH I'VE BEEN LEFT RIDDEN
I STILL LOVE WHERE IT IS
LOVE IS ALL THAT'S WRITTEN
WHAT'S GIVEN
SOMETIMES I KNOW THAT I MISS YOU
BUT I CAN'T LIVE WITH YOU
YOU SAW THROUGH ME IT'S TRUE
AND I DID TOO

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