Walking (produced by Tragedy Beatz) w/ Johnny Dukane

M.I.C. Instrumentals  -   https://twitter.com/micinstrumental

Second Chance ft Mike Maranatha and Ay-Aron (Produced by M.I.C. Instrumentals)

https://soundcloud.com/prodbyvessels  
(Non-profit use of a free instrumental)

Mastered by Will Bailey Productions 
https://www.facebook.com/willbaileyproductions/


Lyrics:

There’s a mirror everywhere I look
reflection of my inner-self 
I prayed out of desperation 
living more than cynical
life can change within a split second
miracles, beautiful
no grudges to be holding now 
I can’t be hypocritical

desired to be pitiful 
delusional and miserable
I spit that part of me into the pool of blood that gives us truth
washed away my  sins, from the present moment, I’m sitting still
have a scarlet letter stamped on my spirit, was way too ill
busy slanging negativity back then, through my own will
wanted to go platinum, with Satan.. Christ was way too real 
traded my ideal life for a hit of mind altering thrills
skipping right off in the hills 
going psychotic from chills

Mirror Everywhere (prod. by Vessels)

beat produced by Luca Malaspina

https://www.youtube.com/lucamalaspinabeats

Mixed and mastered by Colson Kelly

lyrics:
Things are looking up now
I don’t stay up all night 
worrying until I couldn’t think
things are looking up how 
I smile when I didn’t then
I know I’m no longer on the brink

Things are looking up now 
I don’t stay up all night 
I’m resting, content with inner peace 
things are looking up how 
spending time wisely, I see 
I know, I feel, let’s speak and link

I want that wisdom that’s in the moment 
When I head out, but I don’t know where I’m going 
I’m headed for it, some place that’s foreign
until a friendship forms, and we’re floating 
on, 
I just want to write a song 
overall, there’s nothing wrong 
pushed away from these 4 walls 
drifting towards a singing crowd
Imma do it all for God
making sure my family’s proud 
down and feeling stuck is no longer what I’m on
let’s grow

Within our lives, we come to life 
what comes to light, there’s no more lies

I just want to live now and be happy with my soul
that’s all that I could ever ask for 
I just want to live now, never giving up again 
that’s all that I can say, let’s grow 

Things are looking up now
I don’t stay up all night 
worrying until I couldn’t think
things are looking up how 
I smile when I didn’t then
I know I’m no longer on the brink

Things are looking up now 
I don’t stay up all night 
I’m resting, content with inner peace 
things are looking up how 
spending time wisely, I see 
I know, I feel, let’s speak and link

Looking Up (produced by Luca Malaspina)

(words can vary) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FAWZJp55Mk&t=9s

Last August, I got into an argument with my stepfather and mother.  I went to use the bathroom after the verbal conflict.  While in the bathroom, I overheard a phone call.  My stepdad, Randall Cullen, was on the phone with some type of law enforcement I could tell.  He was saying I was dangerous and needed help.  My mom, meanwhile, was busy playing weird music I had never heard there and talking about getting me in trouble soon.  I had a weird feeling while in that bathroom then that day as well.  I felt like police would show up at any moment.  I was at their house and concluded that Randy had connections to law enforcement unknown to myself ever before that day despite me knowing he is a psychiatrist.  My mom immediately approached myself to take me back to my apartment after I got out of the bathroom.  She offered me a free meal on the way back to my apartment which was unusual based on how she offered it.  

When I got back to my apartment, things seemed normal.  I made some food and tried to rest.  Suddenly, I heard people talking from above… My apartment is on the top floor out of 8 stories.  For people to be on the roof talking to me didn’t make sense but their voices were originating from that direction.  They were claiming to be law enforcement at first.  FBI included.  As time went on and the threats carried on, they began threatening to rape and kill myself and my family.  Many references to cannibalism on their part were made as well.  I realized, then, I was being stalked for the first time in my life.  My stepfather, Randy, either called some very bad friends he knew or had hired people to stalk me.  

The threats were made by people nearly laughing as they said such things.  One of the people’s voices was familiar however.  It was my neighbor friend from down the hall.  Tanya Nickel.  She and an unfamiliar sounding male continued to gang stalk me with cannibalistic threats including the rape references throughout that night.  I didn’t know what to do.

new's Album

Testimony to be being gang stalked Audio

Someone clearly whispers "rest in peace"... volume boosted.. excuse the quality and shuffling of papers/clutter but you can hear it this way..
-Ben Collins.

"rest in peace" stalker evidence (looped)

Lyrics:

I love this,
I want to feel great 
want to feel everything 
that this world has to bring 
a second plate 
there’s time to hesitate 
on my mind, only faith 
hope is all I portray 
open doors, with the skeleton key 
that inner peace, so calming
it’s a heavenly breeze
our destinies, as one, 
we’re all ready to see it
I got success on my mind 
with the energy of Jesus
I was banging on some tables, feeling angry
now it’s all good if you’re asking me lately 
one day, I’ll have a family
partner and a baby
life’s not always easy, but we move on the same scene
I forgive you if you changed after hating me 
no more chaos, I need order like we’re counting A through Z
amazing grace, from the dangers, we can break free 
Unity and Love, carrying no weight, now let’s eat 



Love is guiding me 
no more drugs for anxiety 
I’m upfront, so don’t bother me  
it goes “no more pain, I just want to be free”
yea…

 
Love is guiding me 
no more drugs for anxiety 
I’m upfront, so don’t bother me 
it goes “no more pain, I just want to be free”
yea…	

 I just want to be free (repeated)

Mixed and Mastered by Bob Lindberg 
http://www.boblindberg.com/

I Love This (Produced by Luca Malaspina)

I don’t want to be intense
I feel the holy spirit when the beat comes in
I kept running but I couldn’t get away
from the heartbeat pumping in my head
I was seeing double
good and evil, too much trouble
under rubble, God came through
lent a hand then saved the day
riding the fence got old
I was unprofessional and cold
even at work
resembling fake
at the end of the day, felt so alone
reflecting, wondering what for
suffering endlessly, no goal
extra extra sweat on every pore
when I buckled under pressure, didn’t feel so bold

Forgotten Verse (BricksOnDaBeat produced)

Lord, you lift me up
at my lowest points, you picked me up
in boiling water, I was squirming
every track is now a sermon
I’m assertive, know what purpose is
no excuses for the ruthlessness
moving, where the teachers sit
felt doomed then, I’m not hideous
can’t push away your love
side to side, down.. up above
former lost cause, not a thug
for your energy, I’m the plug
Devoted to your grace
Giving it all away now
Feel safe now
With a great smile
I’m a changed person, so I stay proud

giving it all away verse (scrapped song)

Things are looking up now
I don’t stay up all night 
worrying until I couldn’t think
things are looking up how 
I smile when I didn’t then
I know I’m no longer on the brink

Things are looking up now 
I don’t stay up all night 
I’m resting, content with inner peace 
things are looking up how 
spending time wisely, I see 
I know, I feel, let’s speak and link

I want that wisdom that’s in the moment 
When I head out, but I don’t know where I’m going 
I’m headed for it, some place that’s foreign
until a friendship forms, and we’re floating 
on, 
I just want to write a song 
overall, there’s nothing wrong 
pushed away from these 4 walls 
drifting towards a singing crowd
Imma do it all for God
making sure my family’s proud 
down and feeling stuck is no longer what I’m on
let’s grow

Within our lives, we come to life 
what comes to light, there’s no more lies

I just want to live now and be happy with my soul
that’s all that I could ever ask for 
I just want to live now, never giving up again 
that’s all that I can say, let’s grow 

Things are looking up now
I don’t stay up all night 
worrying until I couldn’t think
things are looking up how 
I smile when I didn’t then
I know I’m no longer on the brink

Things are looking up now 
I don’t stay up all night 
I’m resting, content with inner peace 
things are looking up how 
spending time wisely, I see 
I know, I feel, let’s speak and link



Produced by Luca Malaspina.
Remastered by Dustin Sisson of Blast House Studios.

Looking Up (Remastered) produced by Luca Malaspina

I sing out of key but at least I try
you gave me the keys, So i’m ready to ride now
you feel what I mean, it’s all jesus christ
a piece of mind is what I know how to value
I was in a trap, too
mental enslavement
feeling like I couldn’t move, I’m ready to live now
if it’s time to get down, I won’t be depressed then
I almost got deep wounds from trying to impress you
God came to my rescue, God came to my rescue
today, I am happy
God came to my rescue, God came to my rescue
I hope you understand me

I sing out of key but at least I try
you gave me the keys, So i’m ready to ride now
you feel what I mean, it’s all jesus christ
a piece of mind is what I know how to value

Mixed and mastered by Dustin Sisson of Blast House Studios... 



@blancobillions- for more music from producer

I Try (Remastered)-Produced by Blanco Billions

Had to let the stress go 
doing good as I can
triple check my deadbolt 
then I’m heading off to bed
I give God all the credit 
for saving me from hell
no matter how you word it
i just want to be Ben
I just want to be myself
reach my full potential
It’s hard to see out of this 
like something’s on the window
my writer’s block ended
songs, i’ll be making 
Got a large catalogue 
but only recently became creative
grew out of holding back, it was just too much to waste
I put my heart in rap, people recognize the grace
believing Christ can save saved me from the tidal waves 
at any time of day, your mind is safe, provided that we pray
dependent now on others more, that’s my cup of tea
Never using words like bored, that’s something un-unique
something we don’t need, like secrets that were eating me 
Mind control minus conspiracies 
mine is so fresh and so clean


Dustin Sisson mixed and mastered this.  He is part of Blast House Studios in Wisconsin.

Doing Good- Remastered version (prod by Def Street Beats)

Lyrics as follows:

Possibilities are endless
I could meet my soulmate
won’t stray from the path that I’m on now
see those dark clouds outweighed by bright smiles?
Miracles happen every day, here...now
My crew is every living being in the entire world
Inspire people is the mission, as I write these words
Correction, it’s coming from intuition
God-mind, Jesus Christ, everybody listens
self awareness is the end goal
common sense? of course…
but it feels good just to say it though
patience is my friend, paying no attention to trolls
until the day ends,
amen to ending war
these days, I’m crying less
focused only on what I know
no more loneliness
it’s comfortable inside my soul
disappointments somehow forgiven
I could be alone
skipping stones, across a river
merely floating, cold

Look up, never let the fear win
Good thoughts, open mind.. let the love in
Above nobody, everyone’s invited
I was rescued from myself, such a depressed mess
there’s no more dead ends
always need more best friends
I proceed to heal
helping others is my thing
we’re all angels, time to fly
no broken wings
there’s no devil to fixate on when you’re free


Mixed and mastered by Dustin Sisson.

Endless- remastered(produced by Supa Ego Beats)

Madison, WI

No longer making music but active online...

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