realize +mental (maknae & sense)

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@ayeeitsnate @star607

im sick and i probably shouldn't have recorded
sorry for all the recycled shit i cant be original rn
hope you still enjoy though :)

::lyrics
the air is too thin
i couldnt read through all the signs
dont need discussion
i need you in my life
you got one shot
i got you on a tether
i thought you were on my side
i cant do this forever
my blood is rushing down my head
empty out my body see whats left
let me go~
to a place ive never been~

and every time im by your side i get really nauseous
got too many problems in my head gotta deal with
always on the back seat on the road im forgotten
always keep my head up cause i know it'll be worth it (2x)

my friends are starting to fade away
lights out now im waiting for the sun to decay
its the end of the world
im not really afraid
take my hand and we'll pray
for the day we'll be saved

(i want someone in my arms)
(you're so close yet still so far)
(someone please tell me im wrong)
(never wanted you to run)

departure (ayeitsnate x star607)

prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

@ogpichu

i got covid.

lyrics:

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

nd i tried 2 put it all together
i tried to run, but it feels like we're jus fking tethered
tethered by our emotions, for worse or better
but now when u speak all i feel is bitterness...

(because thats the way...)
nd i dont understand the things u do
(its meant to be #us)
when im feeling down i think of u
its crazy how i still dont have a clue
cuz this is not wht i wanna do...
yea its over and over
im sick of listening 2 u...
im stuck in october
im looking for some closure
abt u...

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

art by https://twitter.com/Aioi_oNo

here, tomorrow (pichu)

victxrw - cigarette buds (vistaa + rippo) #us

this song is 6 months old 😭
@resolve1k

i need a break sometimes
i can't cut our ties
i can't say goodbye
heaven knows i tried 
i will waste your time 
like you wasted mine 
why'd you ruin my mind
with the same old lies
i need a break sometimes

i see what you're trying to do and girl it will not work 
i know what you want, and thats to leave me in the dirt
so the next time, when i'm already hurt
i'll find the next one, and i'll treat her worse

cuz you know what you're doing 
you think that i am stupid 
i know i'm fucking useless
it's just too much can't do this 
you're in my way so move it 
why do you act like you're clueless
went behind my back i knew it 
don't think that i can do this

i need a break (inno)

@kurse11
@012207

i try to hide away
everything feels so frightening
always getting worse
i knew it wouldnt work
i try to hide away
everything feels so frightening
always getting worse
i knew it wouldnt work

then i realize why i feel like that
yeah i never get replies when i feel attached
ur the one that i rely on i need it so bad
always keep my head high though i feel so sad
i wont last
yeah i wont last for long
i cant always be wrong
the time keeps moving on
our love is too far gone

getting worse [kurse11 + baz]

+ @domerrz <3
prod @012207, @1wasterr

@owtiss
tell me if it's a lie
or if it's rlly love
i see it in ur eyes
i never was enough
whatever this was
it wasn't meant to be
i see u in my dreams
but i can't fall asleep ;/

i feel so helpless
(i cant fall asleep)
i wanna be selfish
(i cant fall asleep)
cuz i've never felt this
(i cant fall asleep)
i don't wanna feel this
(i cant fall asleep) 
^x2

i can't fall asleep

@domerrz
Is this all pretend
this life's not what it seems
and every night I close my eyes I see you in my dreams
hmph
you're always make believe 
I know we couldn't be
but its so hard to tell you what I want and what I mean
my hearts tearing at the seams

so tell me if its worth it 
lately I'm feeling worthless
I'll find the strength to pretend 
and act like I'm not the burden
so I call out to you 
and I know its not working
yea your words cut me deep 
I cant explain but I'm hurting

hurting again
guess its not working
am i not worth it

i can't fall asleep ;/ w/ dom (baz, wasterr)

"growing pains" mixtape: https://on.soundcloud.com/TqpYCaauaQgWLCvj9

produced by snork

On tonight
I really can't deny
You really turn me upside down
Around you I can never frown (Snorkatje)

Deprecate me, please berate
You got me feeling irate
Not a single thing I hate
Oh la-la-la

(Ah, ah, ha)
(Uh-uh)
(Ah-ah)
(Hmm)

If I tell a secret can you keep it by?
Oh god I've been geekin'
Got the butterflies

I don't like to write no love song
But tonight baby I want you here with me
Nah, nah

Keep that energy
Don't know a chorus from a verse
I lose my synergy
Uh-oh

Emotions are fickle
But I ain't no Rigoletto
I'll wait for petals to settle
Goodbye for never

And I get nervous when I see you (See you)
I'm pretty certain I just need you
'Cause you're that person that I see through
Yeah baby I know this is overdue

Always been me and you
And I don't care
And if you ever need me
I'll be right there

(Always there)
(Don't be scared)
(Don't be scared)
(I'm always there)

On tonight
I really can't deny
You really turn me upside down
Around you I can never frown

Deprecate me, please berate
You got me feeling irate
Not a single thing I hate
Oh la-la-la

On tonight
I really can't deny
You really turn me upside down
Around you I can never frown

Deprecate me, please berate
You got me feeling irate
Not a single thing I hate
Oh la-la-la

growing pains

meadow (feat. web)

Spotify

meadow +web (snorkatje)

karson friend he cool👍

+ @k4rson
prod @012207, @neohnq
big ty to karson love love <3

@owtiss
strangers back to lovers
wna feel ur touch under the covers
texts read like a thesis
i dont need this
falling to pieces
im so dreamless
and all the time we spent meant nothing
everything we talked ab shoulda meant something :/
maybe im js naive
love is dying
i wish that u liked me
but maybe im dreaming

im a stranger left to suffer
better replace me with another
cuz i wont hear back from u again
cuz i cant really deal with all the stress

@k4rson
i cant deal with all of this stress
now im not with you i hope u turn into a mess
im glad im not with you, you dont deserve me at my best
now i'm not with you i can get it off my chest

i'm with someone who appreciates that i try
someone who can understand my mind
someone who tells the truth and never lies
now im finally with someone who could treat me right

who could treat me right
who could treat me right
who could treat me right
who could treat me right

dreamless w/ karson (baz, neohn)

prod @012207, @decago 

i can see u when its raining
see the tears fall out of ur eyes again
havent really felt it lately ;/
all u need to do is ask ill do it again

kissed u one time didnt think it was blunder
u want answers shouldnt have ever gave my number
wish i didnt ever love her
i cant get away i wanna find another
its getting worse
but it never worked
and the way it hurts
feels like a curse
so say goodbye
lets cut our ties
u can try to lie
but i know the signs

u know full well what ur doing
cuz its not the first time u try to fool me
send a million texts that say u miss the cool me
i dont get it cuz u never even knew me
i know im useless
i know im worthless
i cant do this
i miss the solace
i know that u want this to happen
cuz i know that u miss the attention

dreamless w/ karson (baz, neohn)

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