songs like this rly remind me of 2020 and i love it

@arid
@1luvpurp

karson
don't worry about me
you know I got it handled
cuz I've been missing you 
and I know this is random
I cant get over you
and this is overdue 
I can't communicate
g̶i̶r̶l̶ ̶I̶'̶m̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶
I know it's my fault 
I always fuck it up 
no matter who it is 
why am I so dumb 
and now I fucked my chances 
I'm never enough
I took her for granted 
I'm so fucking dumb 
I don't need you by my side 
don't know how you put up with my lies 
and it's because I'm selfish 
but I cannot help it 
and I really need you in my life
keep her at a distance
little things I miss them
how'd we get so different 
you don't even listen
tell me how I fix this 
tell me how I fix us 
I call you wont pick up
I think we should break up
we fight then we make up

arid
and i cant handle all the changes
yeah i feel so faded when ur gone 
and everything i take it
always still complaining
i dont wanna start i know its wrong
yeah just leave me be
i know its hard to see
its getting hard to breathe
its straying far from me

communicate w/ arid (mxsui & luvpurp)

@jacynyte
@avit69

[arid]
idk whats real when u fumble words
idk the deal when u call me first
i just need to stick and find my way
i dont think that things will ever change
cuz i never learn
tried to tell u once but u never turned
all i did to make it work
never meant to make u hurt

[jacy nyte]
And I'll say it first
Something feels off my minds a blur
A silhouette never felt so cursed (so cursed)
Now there's nothing that you could ever say
Just need to break out of all these chains
Feel my heart its getting worse
Just don't want the past to reoccur
It can't be helped I can't get a break
I'll keep getting sicker in my brain
Watch my senses wither away
If I knew you would stay
Would've never changed

words w/ jacy nyte (avit)

@mental

(in the abyss, the darkness x2)

trynna fall into a dream
but i cnt close my eyes ><
wht does it rlly mean
when i just wanna cry?
cn i cry inside ur arms?
it makes me feel alright...
cn u hold me in ur arms
until i feel alright?

maybe i jus think
abt it way too long :/
chewing all these pills
till my jaw hurts all night long
nd do i make a difference?
i cant tell at all
will i make it thru
when i was meant to fall?

in the abyss, the darkness...
where i was meant to fall, where i was meant to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
with my back against the wall, theres no where else to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
maybe its where i belong, its where i belong
in the abyss, the darkness...
nd ill still remember everything, even when im gone

(in the abyss, the darkness)
(cn u hear me on this song?
hear me on this song?)
(in the abyss, the darkness)
(ive been crying all night long,
crying all night long)

x2

still thinking (mental)

@ihateukidu <33

oh oh (time cant fix this broken heart)
oh oh (why cant we just restart)

im getting tired of covering up my lies
they just dont know how i feel inside
and everyday its getting harder to try
and you know i just dont wanna let go
to what we had you know its getting hard to let go
it makes me sad but i guess i have to move on

and inside i just feel feel so hurt
time wont heal, time cannot fix my heart
nighttime wish upon a star
and inside i just feel feel so hurt
time wont heal, why cant i just restart
time cant fix this broken heart

oh oh (time cant fix this broken heart)
oh oh (why cant we just restart)

you knew what you mean to me
and when i close my eyes i swear its you i see, wait
w-w-who knew that you would leave
my heart is torn into pieces no i cant believe, it
cant trust no one
im done
done believing your lies
wont give my love
my love
keep my feelings all inside

and inside i just feel feel so hurt
time wont heal, time cannot fix my heart
nighttime wish upon a star
and inside i just feel feel so hurt
time wont heal, why cant i just restart
time cant fix this broken heart

oh oh (time cant fix this broken heart)
oh oh (why cant we just restart)

apology w/ victxrw + pichu [baz + sensuku]

@owtiss
prod @owtiss yeaaaaa first time solo prod :D

accidently remade a melody from omori when making this beat and kinda just ran with it lol
here's the source btw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=POMNynMVTk0

ive heard it all before
its easy to say things u dont rly mean
but its not easy to take them back
i can promise u that!
say goodbye its the last
i never wna see u again

its always stuck on loop in my head
it plays again again and again!
now i wake n i feel like im dead..
cuz at night in my bed
all the thoughts they dont end
plays again and again and again.. ;(

ive had about enough
u only believe the things that u wna see
so when it gets a little painful
when im feeling hopeful
ur always so hurtful
how could u say that?
it is what it is..

i just wna see u 
the way that i used to
cuz now when i see u 
i just cannot be true
its hard for me
it hurts to breathe
so honestly
just talk to me :(

u dont mean that (me)

@prodarisu
@xternalz

mui:

ohhh no
i jus wanna be all on my own
standing by ur side but im still alone
nothing feels the same since the day you let me go
i feel so cold
i been distasteful

u hate me when i liee to ya
our feelings, they collide for good
i wonder if you'd hide from it
can i feel at all?
is this real or not...

xternalz:

it’s wearing me down til i cant breathe
i’ll think I’ll drown, you’re staring at me
i can’t think
it’s making me bleed
it’s making me bleed til I can’t anymore
yeah you’re crushing my reality
it’s such an abnormality
guess now we’ll see the lethality
the lethality 

mui:

i cant choose
is this really safety? 
is this really love???
i dont wanna take this on my own...
you're telling me we're meant to be in this world
amongst all the faces
i still feel alone

i talk about my feelings
but dont feel a thing at all
write down all the pages 
paint the pictures in the bold
im falling into fading, this shits getting ever cold
there's nothing in the painting,
i dont wanna feel at all

reality w/ xternalz (arisu)

2024-6-1

"I don't know what we were fighting for anymore."

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Jse0WvTFGPO2Ecg825GUN?si=98571880612a491c

tysm to the goats @prodarisu @shatter3d for the crazy beat!!
and tysm to @miraie for hopping on the song!!

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@remiliaxd :

"is it alright?"
you did me over and left me on the floor
and i don't think i can help myself again
yet you come back to ask for more, for more
i need a reason
i need to know why you left me at the door
'cause even though that my heart was sore again
i smiled, said no more, then walked away

so hide away
don't let them see inside
inside inside
it's hard to maintain what we had
but is it worth it?
do we deserve this?
doing it time and time again
it's hard, hard
don't know what we were fighting for, anymore

@miraie :

I'm fighting for my life every single day
I'm struggling finding meaning of my life just to find out
That life is nothing but a tragedy
Yet we still live on finding our own pace & melody

SO FLY AWAY 
SOMEWHERE SO FAR AWAY, AWAY
THERE'S A KNIFE, IN MY HEART YEAH
FALL APART NO
I'M BLEEDING SLOWLY
MY VISIONS FADING
MY CONSCIOUS GONE INTO ISEKAI
REINCARNATING
Twenty three reasons written on a page and it's still not enough
I took my organs took my soul bleed myself out it's too rough
Fighting against the voice
Did I made the right choice?
Gotta keep my heart close
Can't let it decompose so-

@remiliaxd & @miraie :

so hide away
don't let them see inside
inside inside
it's hard to maintain what we had
but is it worth it?
do we deserve this?
doing it time and time again
it's hard, hard
don't know what we were fighting for, anymore

reason +miraie (arisu x shatter3d)

amv - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aoR8Jdom6QQ

@domerrz
@whyhaze
@victxrw
@rewind214

instagram.com/01domerz/
instagram.com/whyhaze/
instagram.com/victxrw/
instagram.com/rwnd214/

[@domerrz]
i can't run
where's the fun in this if i'm still feelin numb?
took my heart in ur hands u crushed it to dust
and oh its so wrong
been hurtin for too long 
I cried when uUu left 
I turn then ur gone :/

[@whyhaze]
my heart no longer beats
i die when you leave
i tried to get it back
but it’s all for you to keep
i turn when you’re gone
toss and turn in my sleep 
keep my head down when i walk
cuz i wish you were next to me
i know it’s all hard to process 
i turned when you walked away
i keep walking
I took too much feels like I’m falling and falling 
feels like I’m running and running, but what we had just keeps calling me. 
I keep my head up high, my body still on the ground
Will you be there when I need you
I pick you up when you’re down 
I’ll ask you am I enough 
enough for you to stay around 
enough for you to stay

[@victxrw]
u didnt notice
how time flies
feels like im floating
i close my eyes
i say tht im hoping
tht we'll be fine
my chest is wide open
waiting 2 die

simply im not enough
im not enough for u
i know this feeling sucks 
just wait for me a day or 2
just wait for me my luv
i care i swear i do
they caught me coughing up my blood 
its only for uUu

SPOTIFY

i cried when uUu left w/ whyhaze, victxrw (rewind)

@prodkirian @kyoakyo ^_^
amv! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSfzd9EE4ng&pp=ygUGYml0ZWtp

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

(i miss u more than youll ever know but this loves a tragedy)
(js know ill be here when ur feeling down even though its not meant 2 be)
(oooh ohhhh ohhhh x2)

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

tragedy (kirian, kyoa)

hey im back, again :D
@k4rson, @yashio20k, @neohnq <33

lyrics:

and i got so much trust i dont know what else
these feelings fake i dont know myself
my heart break drugs i cant play pretend
unblock my love
i gave all that i have
x2

@k4rson
i gave all that i can
i never thought that it would end 
do u think we could pretend 
i wanna be more than friends 
i wanna be more than friends
but you let me on when you said it'd never end 
so dont act so surprised when im gone i meant what i said
i dont wanna miss you 
dont know what's the issue 
i think i cld fix you 
i dont wanna hit you up 
girl i miss you, fuck
imma come around by 8 
n i'll pick u up

@luvpika
and i thought we was forever
but it just feels im being lied to
thought you fucking ment it
cant believe i even tried to
crying in my face all the time
i couldnt even say goodbye
im running fast out of time
this time i never felt alive

(bridge)
i can say so much but i keep quiet
its like i never been myself anyway
and i dont care what you say
i try my best everyday

@k4rson
(outro)
i dont wanna miss you
dont know what the issue
i think i can fix you
i dont wanna hit you up
girl i miss you, fuck
i will come around by 8
n ill pick u up

u dont mean that (me)

owtiss

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