A song about conflict in love. I wrote this song as an ode to 1980s synth-pop and studied many of the classics of the time like Eurthymics, A-ha, Tears for Fears, Duran Duran, Bonnie Tyler... I think you get the idea. It is also vaguely inspired by Lana Del Rey. 

Written by Paige Maikowski
Produced by Paige Maikowski
Lyrics by Paige Maikowski
Performed by Paige Maikowski

Why do your eyes, why do they hold so much contempt in the place where my heart used to be?

Why does your soul, why does it glow a burning red when we used to live so happily?

What used to hold such a burning desire has now been reduced to flames.

Why do we hold on to the shreds of a dying love? There's no one else to blame.

- You are the greatest burden of the self.

I was so stupid to share you with somebody else.

It's just a game we're playing.

There's nothing worse than being loved and overrated.

You are the greatest burden of the self.

You are an angel and yet somehow the devil himself.

Why do I condemn myself to misery?

You are the very very very worst part of me. -

Did you meet your maker late last night and

starting planning my untimely demise.

'Cause frankly I wouldn't be surprised if there's belladonna in my cup or

if you're why my phone is blowing up.

What did I do to warrant such a response?

I went from skipping rocks to skipping stops,

just trying to delay coming home.

'Cause you're not who you used to be and

Oh, my lord It's killing me.

I'm running out of options.

I want you to set me free.

CHORUS

You are the greatest burden of the self and I've condemned myself to hell.

The Greatest Burden of The Self

The Greatest Burden Of The Self

This is a song I wrote about a person in my life who didn't deserve the kindness I gave them. It represents the moment I realized I could no longer give them kindness or care if they could not give it back.

Written, Performed and Produced by Paige Maikowski

LYRICS
I don’t need your “sorries”
Or the remnants of your shattered pride,
Or your foolish attempts
To ask about my life.

If you want forgiveness,
then prove it to me.
A fool was a fool.
This fool has set herself free.

So don’t say hello.
Don’t say goodbye.
You’ve already wrecked me,
And left me to die.
You knew I was drowning.
I told you myself.
I screamed and I begged and I pleaded,
But you never came to help.
What do you expect me to say?
Hello or Goodbye.
You’ll leave me anyway.

I can’t help but wonder
If you knew what I’d become:
A husk of a person,
Chewed around and spit back up.

Left to aimlessly wander,
Like a child left in a maze.
Searching for a reason that
Your windows’ boarded up but
My hearts an open gate.

So don’t say hello.
Don’t say goodbye.
You’ve already wrecked me,
And left me to die.
You knew I was drowning.
I told you myself.
I screamed and I begged and I pleaded,
But you never came to help.
What do you expect me to say?
Hello or Goodbye.
You’ll leave me anyway.

At times I can’t believe I’d win.
No decent person ever does.
When stuck inside yourself,
The world begins to spin and
Everything you know turns to dust.
No matter what happens next,
Suffice it to say,
I’ll live another day
Without you.

So don’t say hello.
Don’t say goodbye.
I’ve got my whole life ahead of me
Without your half full replies.
You knew I was drowning.
I told you myself.
I screamed and I begged and I pleaded
But you only care ‘bout yourself.
What did you expect me to do?
Hello or Goodbye.
I’m better off without you.

Ozwin Elizabeth

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