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HOUSE P0LTER6EIST EP

EXCOMMUNICADO EP

I try to be the perfect man, try to be the perfect guy
You try to be a different person, no, no, not in this time
It's hard to recollect and to regain all my memories
I have a feeling you might be the missing puzzle piece

It's time to unravel all the things I kept hidden inside
The way you turned on me, my personal Jekyll and Hyde
Show me love, show me hate, show me love, show me hate
Will you call, fold or raise, please show me what's at stake

Please go away - I don't wanna feel you
Please go away - I am afraid to see you
Go away, go away - you are all around me
Go away, go away - shame and guilt surround me

Cut all ties, no hope left
Can't find closure, what a mess
Yes I left but I got regrets
All this stress, how about amends
It doesn't make sense
I really tried my best
You left me with no choice but I still can't rest
Lost a lover, lost a friend
You will haunt me to the end

I try to be the perfect man, try to be the perfect guy
You try to be a different person, no, no, not in this time
It's hard to recollect and to regain all my memories
I have a feeling you might be the missing puzzle piece

It's time to unravel all the things I kept hidden inside
The way you turned on me, my personal Jekyll and Hyde
Show me love, show me hate, show me love, show me hate
Will you call, fold or raise, please show me what's at stake

Memories (prod. by puhf)

Fallin' through the night
Fallin' in the void
Guess I missed the light
Now my body is destroyed
Surrounded by darkness
Surrounded by pain
But I don't feel emotions - everything's pale

I'm not afraid of death in fact I'm kinda intrigued
What comes after the darkness? Something nice like a dream?
A place so wonderful without pain or shame
God's sitting at the table, you gotta pay for the game
Or maybe all we long for - Absolution and Redemption
Constructs of ourselves, mankinds attempt at comprehension
In the end - That's the end / No paradise, no legacy
Everything that's left - a faint echo of our memories
Hell is on earth, we live it everyday
Live it since birth, every minute's been gray
I don't believe in god but what if he exists?
Will he hold my hand or drag me in the mist?

Death (prod. by Nax Hardy)

Now I'm feeling alright
And kiss my demons good night
Closing my eyes and think about you
I wish you were with me tonight
I don't really care about karma
I'm sorry mama
But I'mma die like my father
I just hope it's not too late for the light

All my demons abusive, but I fell in love with 'em
My love letters in my music, and I hope she calls again
Can't forget my trauma, can't forget her smile
I'm lusting for drama, that's why I'm getting high
Missing my dad 24/7
I'm feeling dead but this can't be heaven
My guilt and regrets, they won't leave me alone
It just takes one misstep for me to feel prone

Kiss My Demons Good Night (prod. by NagaSIX)

I'm constantly in pain
And wanna jump a train
I remember every name, you a bastard
Be careful what you say
I'm literally insane
Got a bullet for your brain, motherfucker
Now you got me pissed
Got your name on my list
Say hello to my fist, that's a knock out
Better hide yo' bitch
Yeah I got that rizz
Now she on my dick, and her moans loud

I don't love no bitch
I'm romanticising death
Corpses in my basement
Come and try be her replacement
Try to push me but you fail
She was vibrant you are pale
Not even close
Not even close

I'm feelin' like I never got the perfect opportunity
Feelin' like a stray in this fucked up community
Feelin' like I'm trapped and there is no god damn exit
Feelin' like I'll never find a way through this passage

Trapped (prod. by unsadly)

Unforgettable but regrettable
Kinda lost but I manage yeah
I'm not in the mood to fight
You better speak your mind
You say you can't
Then just say goodbye

Unforgettable but Regrettable (prod. by STXRMIIX)

I gotta save my heart so I kill my liver
She said "see you in hell" so I became a sinner
I wanna forget, when I remember I shiver
Cuz her lips tasted bitter, cuz her lips tasted (ugh)

All these stupid hoes they really got me finished
Not a single problem with her, baby, you were different
But something lurks in you, no cap, I could feel it
If you're so sad all the time why don't you let me fix it? 
Days became months, now it's been a year
Always complaining, says I can't see it clear
What am I supposed to do if you don't open up
I can't read her mind so I guess we fall apart
Remember the old times? I showed you some kickflips
You were so impressed, we got back, you'd let me hit it
Everything seemed easy, everything seemed fine
Used to laugh and tease but now we yell and lie
Why you gotta cry? This shit makes me weak
Feeling like a clown that turns into a freak
I didn't expect your attitude and greed
Gimme one last kiss, mhh bittersweet

Her Lips Tasted Bitter (prod. by astrxcxre)

I don't need an answer I just need you to listen
Catch my thoughts and feelings baby this is your mission
I know it's dark in here inside my dimension
Yeah I might be broke but Imma die in a mansion
Just be there for me it's not too much to ask for
Just don't run away when you pull my fucking mask off
Now I'm looking at the past and feel a little down
Babe get on my back I wanna leave this shitty town
No complains, no restrictions, a few boundaries okay
I can deal with that and give you my affection in exchange
I wanna be free, wanna be yours, wanna be high
You wanna leave, wanna be cured, wanna be mine
Ok! Whatever you want I give it to you
I split the sea if you wanna go through
One day you will leave and this is the truth
Promise me it's when I'm dead in a tomb

I got so much pain that I need to release
Show her my chain then she gets on her knees
I wish you good luck exploring my dark corners
I don't give a fuck if you don't got hope for us

You Might Not Like What You Find Behind My Mask (prod. by desyed)

Only got a weakness for thotties with heebie jeebies
Only fucking with the meanest in beanies, fully tatted and piercings
Mental episodes - feel like I'm in a show
Goodbye hollywood, you can see me on the road
My last hoe had multiple personalities
I felt polyamorous - had a fivesome during sex
The bitch before a fucking narcissist
First she sucked me dry then she fucked my life
Vampire in disguise
Don't ask me why I always end up with these maniacs
Guess the iron in their faces make 'em really magnetic
I feel the pull - I feel attraction
My life's a circus and I'm the main attraction

Shoutout To My Exes Interlude (prod. by desyed)

Got a 9 in my hand and a 10 on her knees
Spittin' on it like she reciting all my melodies
She's doubting me I guess that I'm going into overdrive
Fuck you mean? A normal day here in house p0lter6eiSt
I am not friendly
I am a menace
She talking 'bout feelings
Feelings of betrayal
I guess that I am just destined to sabotage
John Cena - Can't see me, don't need no camouflage
Just a ghostly figure pale in it's appearance
Creepin' through the streets, cross on me, ain't talking jesus
Dominated by hell hounds and demons alike
A bitch or two, a cup of wine - I'm feelin' alive

House P0lter6eiSt (prod. by desyed)

I can't be your man, don't fucking tempt me
I can't love again, yeah I'm fucking empty
Used to love this girl, her shadow's haunting me
Sleep with other girls just to tell myself I'm free

Used to be a dumb fuck, never got some dumb luck
Now I'm pimping hot ass bitches and they give me thumbs up
Never expected to pull all these women
Somehow they just can't resist this feeling
I got a vibe, wanna be my bride?
I hope not cuz cuffing not my type
You can't be my wife, it's a waste of time
I'll think about it, maybe in another life
Just gimme head and I make you feel loved
I'm not impressed if that's what she wants
Tryna read me - hieroglyphics
Thinks she can fix me, her tools specific
Believing that shit, conceited ass bitch
Get your ass out my crib, I'm not feeling that bitch
I swore to myself to never simp again
Did that shit once and I've never been the same

There's a fucking hole in my chest
Fill it up, fill it up, fill it up yah
Figured fucking hoes is the best
Slipping up, slipping up, slipping up yah
Pain in my brain, pain in my heart
Lay in my grave, I'm falling apart
Pain in my brain, pain in my heart
Lay in my grave, I'm falling apart

Free (prod. by goth helma)

Standing at your grave wish that I could say that
Tell me, when was the last time I fucking visit
Not sure if it matters if you would even want that
I know you found the light but I still feel fucking haunted
The fact that you are gone and can't see what I've become
I bet it hurts you more than what I had to endure
There are things I do regret and these things won't let me sleep
The picture of you laying there in bed atleast in peace
Can't forget it, won't forget it, realizing that there's nothing that could change it
Wait a minute does that really happen
Is that the last time we are walking on the same plane of existence
This pain is so persistent
You paid for my studies and I didn't give a fuck
You never brought it up but I know it broke your heart
All you wanted was for me to never become you
Guess what? Mom said I remind her more and more of you
Became stressed like you
Became depressed like you
Became a mess like you
Even began smoking too
You got better in the end, I know you wish that for me too
I make sure to get there dad, yeah I'm doing it for you
No need to worry I'mma fight until the end
Try to live my life with purpose and intent
Maybe find love again I may aswell
And my sis, we both know she died that day aswell

XII.XII.MMXIX (prod. by SXTH)

Nonchalant:
https://www.instagram.com/im.nonchalant9/
https://soundcloud.com/nonchalant-jav

ELENA JOUNE:
https://wonderl.ink/@elenajoune
@crybaby01x

I'm not your enemy but the villain in your little world
Try to replace me with things that don't really work
Broken pieces can't be put together once they are demolished
I am now the very thing you tried to abolish
A little bit of respect everything I'm asking for
Why are you pretending like we never spent a night before?
Is it because I don't give a fuck?
Is it because I don't care what's up?
Is it because you project yourself into my flesh
And realize I manage without all those fucking meds?
Are you jealous of my way of coping?
Not giving a fuck but still praying and hoping
That someday it gets better maybe when I leave this place
And until then just doing my thing, you act like it's a race

Vampire, Vampire, suck my life out of me
You know I gave you everything, my energy
Vampire, Vampire, take everything for granted
I'm bleeding out while you are medicated

Nonchalant
I need a night cap
Tryna catch a vibe late night
She tryna fight that
Mary Jane all up in my eyes
And she don't like that
When I give it to her, late night
No she don't fight back
She like that
Drain my body, yeah
She tryna drain my soul
She want it's every time I see her
Like she's tryna take my soul
We touch, she's biting on my neck
I checked, And I can not see no holes
Somehow she's taking all my energy
But I don't really know
Don't really know
Without you here
I don't feel whole
You won't stay next to me
No texts see
I'm feelin' like a ghost

Vampire, Vampire, suck my life out of me
You know I gave you everything, my energy
Vampire, Vampire, take everything for granted
I'm bleeding out while you are medicated

Vampire feat. Nonchalant & ELENA JOUNE (prod. by laurxchu & luffy)

Yeah and when I say I'm over you
I mean I get jealous when a lookalike's making out with dudes
Wishing it was me, wishing it was you
Feelin' pretty weak thinking 'bout us two
I'm toxic yeah I know, tell me all about it
Tell me I'm a failure while you allow it
My dick make 'em say that they feelin' me
What personality?
I thought fucking hoes had pushed my ego
But in reality it pulls out my misery
I'm in fucking agony
Get me out this enthropy
Stop the time and bring me back to when you said you needed me
When you needed me

I hate lonely nights, wanna spend some time?
I might get attached to you being in my life
When we're together I forget I hate myself
But you won't be here forever so I hate myself
I can be a cool guy and make others laugh
But they chase different people, guess I'm not enough
It's okay, that's what I wanted, wasn't it?
I'd rather be alone than fallin' in love again

Lost my innocence
Lost my arrogance
I got rid of my ability to feel a thing
Lost my fucking pride
Lost my fucking time
I found a way to shine and lost my fucking mind
Used to be an angel, obedient and pure
I slowly rot away and there is no fucking cure
Yeah.. There is no fucking cure

When I Say (prod. by goth helma)

Shawty on the line
This time I think she mine
Shawty make me cry
I thought you were my slime
Goodbye our honeymoon
Too high to fight and wound
She used to sing my songs
But now she sings another tune

Yeah now she sings another tune
Probably sucks another dude
Whatever man, you can have her and her fucked up moods
Bitches call me pretty
Then they call me petty
I call 'em what they want so they get ready to give heady
I need a loyal babe, don't matter what she lookin' like
What good is some cake when everybody took a bite?
Okay that was lie, I need a baddie on my side
Kinda fuck with redheads but if she got cats then that's a red flag
Remember that
Don't fall for her

On The Line (She Used To Sing My Songs) (prod. by heinrich808)

Trippin', break apart the soul and essence off my body
Feelin' every nerve tract leavin' early from this party
Getting sucked in the abyss, is it luck or hit or miss?
I don't fuck with Jesus, cut my pieces like a masochist
What a feeling, so unnatural, I really can't express
Whatever pulled me down there simply vanished and then quickly left
Must've gotten tired of me before making acquaintances
Story of my life, seems like death won't be so different
Or maybe I'm already dead and this is purgatory
One last ride to end my chapter, there's no further story
But if that's the case, then why did I come back?
I don't make no sense what I present here on this track
Just spewing out what happened there last night 
I swear I slipped for a sec, on my bed, into death, but I came back
It was a close call and it made me realize
Whatever happens after death it surely is no paradise

Paradise (prod. by desyed)

2021 ey das Jahr ging gut los
Endlich ging was bei den Frauen, viel erlebt mit den Hoes
Manche nett, manche schön, manche sexy
Manche wild, manche abfuck, manche crazy
Unerfahren und unentschlossen, was ne dumme Kombi
Lernte schnell Gefühle sind verletzlich, komm ma' runter, Homie
Und dann kam das eine Mal an einem Tag, ich werd' verrückt
Mit ihren Haaren und ihrem Charme hat sie mich direkt entzückt
Zwei Welten, die dort aufeinander trafen
Nur wusst' ich noch nicht zu was wir in der Lage waren
Aus Lachen wurde Ficken, aus Ficken noch mehr Ficken
Aus noch mehr Ficken wurde das, was man glaub ich Liebe nennt
Keine Ahnung, ich mein' das was man aus Filmen kennt
Weißt du so mit Allem drum und dran, Wolke 7 eben
Ich liebe es zurückzudenken, ich werd's nie vergessen
Doch was darauf folgte, damit konnte niemand rechnen
Meine erste wahre Liebe drohte zu zerbrechen
Blicke können nicht töten aber schwör' die können verletzen
Dieser Hass in ihrem Gesicht - nicht mehr menschlich
Deshalb steckt das Wort Hass in Hässlich
Gefühle mit Füßen getreten, sie trug mich zu Grabe
Sie war toxisch, impulsiv, ja sie drohte mit Strafe
Habe tief in mir drin doch noch Hoffnung getragen
Verkehrte Welt, ey, ich ließ mich von 'ner Fotze verarschen

2021 (prod. by desyed)

Fuck!
I lost a lot, I lost myself
I lost my love and lost my health
I'm fucking lost, please I need help!
Everytime I find hope something in me tells me I don't need someone else
I'm better off by myself
How to find the truth inside when I'm lying to myself?
How to build a new life when my inner child died at 12?
How to love another girl when her ghost still haunts my mind?
How to get a million bucks when motivation's hard to find?
Fuck this shit and fuck my life
I'm just gonna take this knife
Cut my soul and my cut my pain
The only time I feel alive
I need to die to feel alive

Alive (prod. by CannonTooCold)

Excommunicado, I kill 'em with bravado
It's time to meet your maker, you a faker in the barro
Cold blooded like a - viper
Got you in my sights like a - sniper
Too many chicks, too many fakes, too many peeps who pretend to be friends
Too many cigs, too many breaks, too many issues I'm holding within
Tell me what's stopping me from killing myself by picking up pills from the shelf?
It is my subconscious, I'm fighting my demon that's meaning I'm fighting myself
Yeah, I'm fighting myself, every goddamn day I'm fighting myself
Begging the reaper "Help me get deeper, tell me why couldn't I keep her?"
"Tell me why couldn't I keep her?"
Ever since I left her side I fucking cursed my life
Feel like something's left of her in me that still resides
I've changed, I'm consumed by whatever remains
I don't know what it means but it's causing me pain

Excommunicado (prod. by VEEDY ON THE BEAT X JOBE)

I got nothing to do but everything to deal with
Stuck in a delusion hoping for a scene switch
Everyday I'm losing faith, people say it's not so bad
Then I look in my mirror and I wish I were dead

Questions over questions, lessons over lessons
What is life teaching when you're failing all it's exams?
Never say never, one day I'll get behind it
Dweller in a cellar, one day I'll find the light switch
All this fucking pain, all these fucking regrets
It's always "drain your brain" instead of "sit back, relax"
Pandora's Box - let me open this shit
A paradox - there's nothing in it

Pandora's Box (prod. by borgiolini)

Voices gettin' louder, gimme some more powder
Sisyphus in this bitch, nemesis my boulder
Devil on both shoulders, I won't get much older
Sisyphus in this bitch, nemesis my boulder

What are you saying? What is the matter?
Can't understand you, eardrums are shattered
Rather won't listen, rather won't see
I'd rather be numb, rather won't feel
I've put myself in this position
My boulder - my acquisition
Lemme carry this weight
A baggage of my own mistakes
The more you lie the more you die
Every day, every hour, every minute, every second you feel how you fucking die
Bit by bit, piece by piece until there's nothing left
I guess I'm past that point, finally I can rest

Sisyphus (prod. by borgiolini)

I swear I'm 'bout to crash out
Do you notice when I black out?
Yeah she told me that I stand out
'Bout to tell that bitch "I am out, bitch I crash out!"

There's nothing that could hold me here
Would you notice when I disappear?
We both crash out

Is there something you ain't tellin' me?
All these fucking doubts they killin' me
Silent treatment is so damn loud
Because everytime we make out - we both crash out

Crash Out (prod. by borgiolini)

Pussies always ask me "do you wanna fight back?"
"Fuckboys gonna piss on you, set them on the right track!"
Nothing I would rather do! Fuck em like it ain't the truth!
Gimme reason to smell treason and I might snap!
Somehow everybody now wanna be a villain
Show em what that gun do yeah I'm down to fucking kill em
(Ayo she) told me she like bad guys, cook em like they french fries
Nobody got my back I'm sick and tired of these fake ties
I try to be a better person
So tell me how come my reputation worsened?
Roll up for fun, leave my pain and sorrow in the ashtray
Sorry I'm blunt, ask the lord why he rolled me that way
Mayday, mayday the ship I'm on is sinking
She vowed to rescue me but left me hanging
Back in the day I was standing in the attic
staring at the hook in the ceiling feeling panic
This is shit I thought I'd never say out loud
Better drop it on a track than to take it to the grave
Are you proud?

Are You Proud Freestyle (prod. by goth helma)

Nonchalant:
https://soundcloud.com/nonchalant-jav
https://www.instagram.com/im.nonchalant9/

You better look me in the eyes and tell me what you see
Just a dead soul vibin' in the summer breeze
Got shit to attend, got shit to lock down
Maybe next year I'll see you in another town
Sluts wanna fuck - this ain't nothing new
If I love her better keep her fuckin' ass in view
She told me I'm cute but I can be a sick fuck
She pull slip down if I don't slip up
Whatever man, fuck these hoes
Kill me when you see me chase a bitch instead of dough, yeah I mean it though
Yeah it's time to get my money right
Cuz I'm tired of the feeling when the money tight
(That's why I) Gotta save some bands, fuck anyone who's begging
Let 'em know how many fucks I give and they start sweating
What do you mean I've changed? Who do you think I am?
Ey yo N to the C tell 'em how it be

Summer time
An I'm back in this abyss
Stackin money over feelins
Coz these feelin I won't miss
I'm nonchalant To the whole world
Give the finger to my old girl
Everybody try pull me down
But I'm like atlas
Wid da whole world
Weighing on my back
But I'm like
Oh well
Petty shit can't never draw me out from Where my soul dwells
Haters hate to watch me level up
An doin soo well
But I'm doin soo well

What a lonely road
This deep dark Abyss
Wid the luv you showed
It soon turns to this
But on the bright side
A Deep light inside
Helps me to fight
And hold onto this

I'm nonchalant
So come let's spread it to the whole world
If you don't like me 
ima do you like my old girl

Middle fingers up
Like when I level up
It's soon time to blow
I stay in the zone
Hustle in night an cold
Girlies love my flow
But when they gotta go
I stay chasin doe

Remember when we use to play out in the rain
Kiss and cuddle just the same
Now thing between us ain't the same

Summertime Flows feat. Nonchalant (prod. by IAFG)

No, I don't need no barbie
Feelin' fine by myself since I got that money
Doin' well, tell me what the fuck is strugglin'
Ex behaving snuggly, bitch you could've called me
Feelin' like a rockstar
Bitch be like a pornstar
Moaning like a monster
Fill her like a boxcar
Never late I'm right on time
Fuckboys wanna do a crime
Handle it with my new nine
Now they momma gotta cry
Actin' like they in a trance
Switching sides like JD Vance
Pull up in a brand new Benz
Let 'em know I love my fans
Gettin' high and raise a toast
No more love for dirty hoes
Fuck around and find out
They can't help but feel aroused 
Yeah Yeah

#Justhavingfun (prod. by goth helma)

Yeah I guess I feel alright, alright
Why don't you stay one more night, night
Take me to your neverland
Take me to your neverland

Tell me 'bout your neverland
Tell me 'bout your many friends
Tell me I'm a gentleman
And I tell you why I simply can't
Keep up, cuz all my demons creep up
Gotta deal with all of 'em before I put my feet up
Speak up, baby let me hear it one more time
Tell me I'm not worth your time
I just need a single sign

Neverland (Prod. by Vydee x andrzxz)

Nonchalant:
@nonchalant-jav
www.instagram.com/im.nonchalant9/

What is memory lane
Place that's filled with hella pain
So I don't go there
Get caught in the snow where
Silly rabbit tryna run from all the memories
Alice is catching up I'm stuck knowing that time don't ease
The pain get stuck in my own brain
Feels like it's heavy rain
Thoughts raining thousand pains
Why can't I love the same
See you don't act the same
An then I start to change
Reacting to the pain
Storm growing in my brain
Don't get what up and changed
Like did I cause you pain
Girl did I cause you pain
All these thoughts in my brain
Stuck too me
Like a stain
Maybe my love had changed
Doubt that I love the same
Heart bleeding out the pain
But still this pain remains
Wish memories would change
Acting while feeling change
Communication strained
Can't say what's in my brain
Can't feel the love it's changed
Tragedy left you wid pain
Wish I could take you pain
Guess I weren't worth the pain
So I leave you right there
Stuck in on memory lane 
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run
Wid all these memories right here then one must have a gun
I'm steady rolling loud coz feelin I ain't feelin none
Chillin with Mary Jain no spidy an I'm feelin numb
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run rabbit
Run
Gaslighting really works no cupid got me feelin dumb
Climb out this dark abyss father said we already won
They on the losing team
So silly rabbit
Run run run 


I got so much pain inside
So much pain that I can't hide
Let me tell you 'bout my life
It's a struggle, it's a fight
Let me take you back, moments filled with pain
You won't make it back - trip down memory lane
It's 2006, first time in the loony bin
My dear parents in despair, I'm consumed by sin
It's 2012, another four months locked away
Realizing it's myself that puts me through this pain
It's 2019, my dad in a coffin
Still mad at him but I hope he know I love him
It's 2021, I lose the love of my life
Four years gone, she's still haunting my mind
It's 2025 and I question my existence
Demons in my head but I promise I resist 'em
Whatever comes whoever goes I don't give a fuck
Life is a bitch and I demand that hoe to suck
Now I'm looking back I think I fell in love with pain
It really is insane this trip down memory lane

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