It's always the good old days, if you think about it
Lyrics:
I will let you down
I will make mistakes
but I'll do my best
do whatever it takes
cause I know deep down
I won't let you drown
yeah were on the same side
just trynta survive

holding on to who you might be
is a surefire way to miss the good old days 
look around they'll blow right through you, 
the new you you find yourself youing in today

aches change rearrange 
just different parts of you, tryna get you home okay
We outgrow, and judge ourselves
 and pick at scabs
pick up selves/cells (like bio or cages who knows!)
to shed anew, and promptly shut
until one day, we feel too numb

so why repeat
that heavy moon
when you can speak
with gratitude
to all your wounds
that kept you safe
and let em know, 
they tried their best, in all those good old days

Good old days draft

growing pains

LYRICS:

how could you wait
inside and make
the same mistakes
that paralyze you, in the corner
i adore you, that's right i still love you

caked in pain, it's all the same animal to me
even for all that you do subconsciously

how could you wait
inside and make
the same mistakes
passed down to you
passed down to them
past down the depths of what you can and can't control
or understand, to break the chain
with all your heart, not just your brain
patiently, it's all the same animal to me

there's no right pace for the best you can, 
cause in the end, we all
inherit messes to embrace and deal again

but i love you more than ever
sins and blessings all the same
don't you wait for dawn tomorrow
to pave over yesterday

meet ya in the shadow past the self esteem
don't have to start over, we can just start again

forgiving jaded animals

LYRICS:
tell me what to do ill think it over
i wanna be close
admit when im wrong on the road back home

promise i wont push it to tomorrow
i know that you're strong
we can push hard in the undertow

i don't wanna chase i want an orbit!
you can feel at home in, a natural love gravitational
pull that neither of us holds in
forces or controls in the moments when the high tide meets the low

and if you ever don't, I'ma let you know
you're free to be yourself free to let it show
free to feel a change in your own damn skin

freedom to release, freedom to begin
free to let it be till I gotta say it again
together rebelieving that it's gonna be okay
it's always been
okay

tell me what to do I'll think it over
I wanna be close, admit when I'm wrong
on the road back home
Promise I won't push it to tomorrow 
i know that youre strong
if ever ya don't ima let you know

as often and as audibly
ya honest to god oughta see
your own glow

you know that I know
we'll shine our own way home


tell me what to do

Elliott Smith-Clementine cover

here is a neat cover of bbc's "how can you swallow so much sleep" n i am really proud of it!!!!!!! the cover art is mike rick asphyxiating himself behind a middle school's cafeteria

GIGANTIC THANK U 2 MICHAEL RICKER FOR DOING LIKE 90% OF THE WORK N MAKING THIS SOUND SO GOOD
ALSO THANK U 2 JOE 4 PLAYIN BASS

BOMBAY BICYCLE CLUB - HCYSSMS (COVER)

another work in progress.

LYRICS:
there's an air out there where your lungs begin to notice
all the roads bleed out, in the creases past the oceans 
on the map, your moral guidebook, 
there's a parchment of emotions 
take your time, take your time,
dream a little in the moment   

there are errors to be made, in the continuum you slave for 
when's it gonna be the time for you?
severely things strain, you've spread too thin to refrain, from ever feeling right again at all 

an earthly smell beside your pillow
that you wake to, you say hello 
to the world today 
grinning from ear to ear, you play 

though those eyes they may be fading
they've seen heartbreak they've been waiting
for a time to close
take a minute take a listen to those thoughts you stored, away

so long ago, you still taste them 
bitter as the day they burst out of your brain 
inked and splattered round the pages
seeped inside the binding through the chapters the ages 

and, there's so much left to go.
who'd know
if the time would pass at all
if the rivers would keep running
if the coral got to grow
stroll afloat, breath on the coast
shake hands with those they love they most

that's all ahead, despite the dread
that manifests inside your head

u can do anything   that u would ever want to or ever have wanted to do  in ur whole life  ever

in the backyard of and featuring mr. matt curley

LYRICS:
there's an air out there where your lungs begin to notice
all the roads bleed out, in the creases past the oceans 
on the map, your moral guidebook, 
there's a parchment of emotions 
take your time, take your time,
dream a little in the moment   

there are errors to be made, in the continuum you slave for 
when's it gonna be the time for you?
severely things strain, you've spread too thin to refrain, from ever feeling right again at all 

an earthly smell beside your pillow
that you wake to, you say hello 
to the world today 
grinning from ear to ear, you play 

though those eyes they may be fading
they've seen heartbreak they've been waiting
for a time to close
take a minute take a listen to those thoughts you stored, away

so long ago, you still taste them 
bitter as the day they burst out of your brain 
inked and splattered round the pages
seeped inside the binding through the chapters the ages 

and, there's so much left to go.
who'd know
if the time would pass at all
if the rivers would keep running
if the coral got to grow
stroll afloat, breath on the coast
shake hands with those they love they most

that's all ahead, despite the dread
that manifests inside your head

We are hanging out outside

in which i attempt to rap while playing guitar

LYRICS:
if you take it slowly step by step you’ll know
that what lingers longest’s hardest to let go, of
but everyone who’s ever changed is quick to note
that one day you wake aint like before


oh
a little progress
inch by inch and each success
don’t grow too cool
or you’ll fall on your face, now
a little too beyond your pace now

rumble rumble darkness of the jungle
dive in deep, don’t be afraid don’t tremble

you’re humble, just remember
you can’t run before some stumbles

on the precipice, but still holding your own
upset silhouettes, stockpiling stones to be thrown

to the moon
it doesn’t second guess

things don’t take one day, to seep out your soul
when they’ve made their bed, and stayed for so long
if you take control, it’s a steady flow
day by day, you’ll float
toward’s the sky you’ll grow

with every pair of shoes come lessons to be learned
but every step in someone else’s wears a hole right on the sole
when you find yourself outgrowing and every part of you is knowin, 
it might just be the time to lace up kicks you call your own

all alone, say, now where do i go?
guess ill just get down on the ground and do these pushups though

hey, hey, hustling,  tell them u done changed now
every single minute       yeah  u done being the same now

of course you'll always be the same clown
riding round the neighborhood
nostalgic bout the same frowns

take it easy, cause we’re all going
where there’s a scorcher in the heart
and snows blowing 

streams caress the valleys, effervescence in the oxygen
prohibited to snakes, ain’t nobody gone be bothering, to steal, 
no looking back behind me I’m just breathing easy on these trees,
doing myself these days got me feeling Valhallic in this breeze 

ay ay ay, please take a seat, 
spit too much reality, now back to being free

things don’t take one day, to seep out your soul
when they’ve made their bed, and stayed for so long
if you take control, it’s a steady flow
day by day, you’ll float
toward’s the sky you’ll grow

valhalla (draft)

Getting to know Crowder's Mountain, NC.

LYRICS: SEAS OF GOLD
i wanna go back east, where the water's cold
i wanna bathe oh in the winter, in the seas of gold
i wanna shiver at the slivers of the sunlight
that hit my eyes in a rhythm that feels just right

kaleidoscopic cracks in the concrete, visions of a bishop marching along to a drum beat
it's vicious to assume, that superstition will resume
to spout out of your gullied eyes, and onto the butterflies

you don't know what you do, and you don't know what you dont,
so just give up the parade, take your float on home
you don't know whether to be another clap inside the beat
another feather in the cap of a slender fella in your sheets
another leaf among the breeze a shade of yellow on the beach
a dandelion petal flying away, up high in the heat

of the sky, as it rises you might realize this
and take it all back you'll take it all back
pin a needle on the facts
dont take it slow, don't go too fast
don't hesitate to burn or crash
just keep recycling those ashes until

you know that you're ready to go

Seas Of Gold

every day is a new day

First It's One Thing, Then Another

the podcast is called Heavyweight with Jonathan Goldstein but its actually a song called Sun in an empty room by the Weakerthans.


I covered this song because I'm literally moving!!!!! and also it's literally raining!

Now that the furniture's returning to its Goodwill home
With dishes in last week's papers, rumours and elections, crosswords, an unending war
That blacken our fingers, smear their prints on every door pulled shut
Now that the last month's rent is scheming with the damage deposit

Take this moment to decide (Sun in an empty room)
If we meant it, if we tried (Sun in an empty room)
Or felt around for far too much(Sun in an empty room)
From things that accidentally touch (Sun in an empty room)

Hands that we nearly hold with pennies for the GST
The shoulders we lean our shoulders into on the subway, mutter an apology
The shins that we kick beneath the table, that reflexive cry
The faces we meet, one awkward beat too long, and terrify

Know that the things we need to say (Sun in an empty room)
Have been said already anyway (Sun in an empty room)
By parallelograms of light (Sun in an empty room)
On walls that we repainted white (Sun in an empty room)

Sun in an empty room

Take eight minutes and divide (Sun in an empty room)
By ninety million lonely miles (Sun in an empty room)
And watch the shadow cross the floor (Sun in an empty room)
We don't live here anymore (Sun in an empty room)

this is a cover of a podcast theme

LYRICS:
(kid cudi hum)
every single time, I think that it’l finally turn out right
just the way I had imagined it up my mind
I come to be reminded that there was no real last time
that a plan I had came out like that

but its fine, who wouldn't be their 'you' today
without hiccups and breakdowns along the way?
its a missed step, not your last dance
you belong here, things will make sense

imperfection is inevitable anyway, take it day by day
to have it any other way's too stressful , things often align when you let go

let go, what you know and don't know
the hero the failure the ego
you're just you you're just now and that's fine
you'll find things to outgrow in good time

the fear comes the breath goes , you know this
the thoughts race , just something to notice
it's not you, just glimpses of neurons
and strong hearts to carry you forward when


things fall apart
and come together
they reign together
it's like the weather

faint of heart
it's hard to hear it,
but that pair is forever 
whether ya fear it or not

things fall apart
and come together
it's like the weather
they reign together 

how you doing? How’re you feeling?
Not quite sure, all the reasons  
Why I lied, bout it, so long before
So don’t keep youre self waiting til

things fall apart
or come together
or line up right
or stay forever

no rhyme nor reason
for the feeling
if it comes and it goes so be it


I been seeking me a rhythm i can swing to 
through the seasons of children that I see through
in the mirror, shapeshifting with every year by year  

somersaulting in their costumes, 
in the sun, and in the monsoons
some are lightning, some take seasons
summer as long as they keep meaning

to, begin anew
a brand new start
content forgetting sums of parts
that make them what they are today
as they forge paths with all that lasts

when things fall apart
and come together 
its like the weather
they reign together

faint of heart, its hard to hear it
that pairs forever whether you fear it or not so

let go, what you know and don't know
the hero the failure the ego
you're just you you're just now and that's fine
you'll find things to outgrow in good time

let go what you know and don’t know
the hippo the eagle the limo
Youre just bark and all love and no bite
Theres no tree that wood deny your hug


Cover art is a mashup of two Odilon Redon paintings, 'Ophelia...' & 'Cup of Cognition' used through public domain

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