romania moment

i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...
i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...

listen to the words that i say
'cause i don't wanna be wrong, anymore, anyway
now i'm ready for the long haul, and i wanna say
that i'm trying to be honest beginning today

runnin' from my problems since day one, i think i finally found the courage to confront the shit i've done, but it's been way too many years, all my fears came to light with all the tears, ain't it fun

i'm a pessimist, optimist, an impression-depressionist, a revisionist, anarchist, it's enough, it's enough
i'm a borderline genius, so delirious, deviant, i'm a clear bohemian, and it's all gettin' tedious

lyin' in the ward, playin' cards
i was drowning in my head in the last twenty yards
and i said i'd end up dead, here i am, i'm in charge
mothafuckin' copperhead, don't you tread on my scars

used to think my life was a joke
'cause whenever i would talk, i would shake, i would choke
and the words were getting caught, on the lump, in my throat
now i feel like i can solve all the shit that i know

i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...
i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...

i was cryptic and cynical, fully audiovisual, i was so hypocritical, let it go, let it go
i was desolate, destitute, then i switched up my attitude, now i'm absolute, resolute, you can spare me the platitudes

lyin' in the ward, playin' cards
i was drowning in my head in the last twenty yards
and i said i'd end up dead, here i am, i'm in charge
mothafuckin' copperhead, don't you tread on my scars

(i was lyin' in the ward, playin' cards)
i was drowning in my head in the last twenty yards
and i said i'd end up dead, here i am, i'm in charge
mothafuckin' copperhead, don't you tread on my scars

i think i just wanna know --
wanna know, wanna know...
(if i fold like a paper crane, do you think you'd remember me, if i'm gone would you say my name, would you cling to my legacy?)

i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...
i don't wanna die, i don't wanna die anymore...

copperhead

i'm sorry for bringing you into this world, i didn't know there would be so much pain...
i didn't know it was gonna hurt when you were gone.

i built a boy from clay, when i was down, he'd lift me up, above the ground
i sold my soul for somebody i knew
i didn't know what i'd gotten into

i built a boy from clay, and i knew he couldn't stay, but i didn't plan for that, 'cause it felt so far away
look at how wrong i was...

all i got left is the screenshots and the deep thoughts and the mirror that i'm so afraid of
(can we stargaze? can we stargaze?)

i just wanna tell you goodbye, and i never meant to blur out the line
(what a strange place, what a strange place)

i built a boy from clay, and he said he couldn't stay, and i wasn't strong enough, and i'll never be the same
look at how dumb i was...

(these are dark days, these are dark days)
(can we stargaze? can we stargaze?)

hey, i miss you more every day, and i, uh... i really wish i didn't --
...fuck.

stargaze

i'm a letdown
yuh, yuh...
let my guard down
for love...

overthinkin'
and i'm missin'
motivation
and conviction
i been wishin'
for a mission
maybe i need 
a prescription

i been running from shit my whole life long
suck at coping with stress so i write songs
i'm a letdown
like a sad clown 
take me home now
to the madhouse

i know i'm not enough and i know i try
and i know you don't know and i don't know why
every morning i wake, i would rather die
'cause i cannot face your anxious eyes
i'm a letdown
yuh, yuh...
just a letdown
fucked up...

i'm a chooser
i'm a cruiser
like a poser
i'm a loser

and i might drown
in this hometown
run away now
no one calls out
no one calls out...

i know that i've asked you this before
one last time could you hold the door
one more chance, i promise you no more
fuck, what am i even living for, for

i'm a letdown
imma go now
leave me 'lone -- how
are you still 'round
i'm a letdown...

letdown [prod. antisocial cj]

welcome to new heights recovery, one of the top inpatient treatment centers --
(i'll fuckin' burn this sad little place to the ground...)

lately i can't even sleep
am i really in too deep
(?) isn't home right now, don't leave a message at the beep
dark in places you don't know
happiness is just for show
you won't understand me when i tell you that i have to go

i don't need your therapy
i just need a friend, you see
i would rather shoot myself than pay someone to talk to me
i don't really wanna wait
no more time to contemplate
i just wanna drink and race a stranger on the interstate

i don't think you're qualified to tell me that i need some help
asked the demon in my head, she said that you should fuck yourself (fuck off!)
all i know is all i need is all i'm doing just as well
no regrets until i die, i know i'll see my friends in hell

you know i can never tell if i should let my guard down
lately i can't even spell my name, this is the fallout
i've been staying up all night 'cause i don't wanna drop out
scraping by on second chances but i'll make it through now

(i would rather shoot myself than pay someone to talk to me...)

>> AT THE END OF YOUR MESSAGE, PRESS [1]. >>

therapy [prod. YoungAsko]

[angie]
parents with paranoid personality disorder are often emotionally inconsistent. they can go from very loving to unapologetically hostile in an instant...
[paperplxne]
trust me, i know.

[paperplxne]
up, down, left, right, wanna live, wanna die
everything is going fine, nevermind, i'm dead inside
dive into the borderline, never tell another lie --
(i'm sorry)

hi my name is disappointment, can we be friends, cycle again, as i'm tryna figure out where the end is, tell me when, can i ever just feel normal again
(i'm fallin', fallin')

nothing even matters i've been thrown in the water
my brain is a shepherd, i'm a lamb to the slaughter
you didn't make me this way, but you're making it harder
(i'm paranoia's daughter)

my sense of self is like a tornado, i like to say
empty inside, and it keeps moving away
wait did i mention, that it never stays still
it's been long enough i don't think it ever will

da-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da-da
these are your flaws, and did you know you're a failure, did you know you're a failure, 'cause you act like you don't

a day ago i wanted to die, but now i'm killin' the time, until emotions arrive, oh fuck i feel so alive
(i love you mom!)

up, down, left, right, wanna live, wanna die
everything is going fine, nevermind, i'm dead inside
dive into the borderline, never tell another lie --
(i'm sorry, sorry)

i'm sorry i'm such a little shit sometimes, and i just wanna -- you know -- i just wish i could do something about it, because neither of us are happy, and it's driving me insane... we could be so much more than this.

paranoia's daughter

i tried to hang on, i did my best...
feels like it's all gone, knife in my chest...

i don't even know why i'm here, just to suffer
i don't even know if you care, and i wonder
what if i were to disappear, like a shutter
would my life really count for nothing?

sometimes i look up at the sky at night...
and i cry, 'cause... i don't really know, what i'm doing with my life
and i know one day i have to die
and it feels like such a short time
to make right, everything i've done, everyone i've loved, every smokin' gun
every time i lied, look inside my mind, show you that i tried...

maybe you hate me, maybe you don't...
maybe you'll miss me, maybe you won't...
maybe you don't care, maybe you do...
anything not false has to be true...

why do humans like to feel love for each other?
when they know, one day it'll end, yeah i wonder
after this, is there something more, does it matter
do our lives ever count for something?

i hope that maybe i can make it far...
and i hope, that... even if it's tough, even if i rack up scars
that i get my wish upon a star
and he shows me how to try hard
to see light, be more self-aware, learn to be prepared, overcome despair
know when someone cares, get up off my chair, take a stupid dare...

maybe you hate me, maybe you don't...
maybe you'll miss me, maybe you won't...
maybe you don't care, maybe you do...
anything not false has to be true...

when i was a kid, i used to look up at the stars, and... i always wished i could live forever among them. i guess i wanted to be a guiding light... i guess i just wanted to mean something.

paperplxne

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