Family Lies

Logical Athiest

Lyrics:

[Verse]
I told myself, I’d never be what my dad was well 
Look at me now, yea look at me now
Can’t even keep my mom around haven’t talked to my step dad since I left his fuckin house
Now I’m by myself writin’ this song on my couch
In my one bedroom apartment with no mattress
Just got off my last shift worked 12 hours today and I ain’t had shit 
Besides a few zans and half a gram of weed while I’m writin’ this music this is my life on repeat
This is why I’m me, tryna make up for idle time cuz time has no receipt
Tryna make up for stupid shit you regret is more remorse to seek
Tryna wake up everyday in this shit with a pot to piss in and somethin’ to eat but something’s missin’
This empty void in my heart done got my attention like I really hope I’m livin’ right and maintain my own vision
(Euphoria) Listen:
Someone I trusted stole everything I had but I bet you mad cuz you couldn’t take the ambition
Don’t worry I’ll make it back but you gotta live your life being who you are fuck I wish you the best of luck with that
Now back to the point I was tryin’ to make
Tryna navigate my life like a fuckin’ maze
Reminiscin’ on shit while I’m puffin’ this haze
While I’m fuckin’ this bitch on top of a stage
While she rockin’ my mic in my mind i’m still stuck in a cage
Stuck in my ways, fuck it, imma die anyways
I could die any day, from a nine or a gauge 
From the age of 9 till today I been writin’ rhymes in different ways
In my mind and with a pen on a page with 2 thoughts:
Bein the best and gettin’ paid
Fuck the rest and gettin laid cuz you do what’s hard and the rest will follow, believe me

[Hook]
When you run out of faith and quttin’ crosses your mind
Rerun that shit and try it one more time
Cuz this life is so hard yea this world ain’t easy but you push through and you will make it
Believe me



Believe Me

Better Place Lyrics

[Hook]
(And I go on and on and on)
These mistakes that I’ve made they won’t fade 
(And I’m so gone so gone so gone)
Nightmares in my dreams when I sleep
There’s no hope in me
There’s no life left in me
There’s no love left over here
All that’s left here is fear
All i know is this sorrow I live my life for tommorow
Cuz today brings so much pain and tonight i’ll make it rain
Watch these tears flow down my face
As I look up to the sky and pray I get to go to a better place

My face is so numb
My bank account so empty
Mind wanna quit
But my heart just won’t let me
Wanna ask me bout hurt man trust I’ve felt plenty
Seen poor families turn to rich enemies
Locked behind bars that you can’t see
A broken heart is hard but fake love is even harder
I could die right now and be considered a great marty because I deem these bars a confession
It takes second to die but years to learn a lesson
A second to commit a crime but years to serve a sentence
And our prison systems are still overpopulated
Makes you think whether the good people just fake it
Like lady trust gets her way whenever she gets naked 
Because behind close doors can’t nobody say shit
CEO’s, record execs, pedestrians, as well as the president
We’re all the same - In some form or another it’s all running through our veins:
Drugs, love and pain
But I can’t let my life be lived in vain I set my rights on rights that coincide with the right side of my brain
The struggle to stay sane in a world where it always rains and sunshine doesn’t exist
Love is just a myth and no one really believes in that shit
Since birth I been cursed with a gift cuz true loyalties a bitch 
Especially when you live in a world full of liars and cheaters
I would’ve rather been in a jungle with lions and cheetahs
Cuz I know I could’ve came out, leading the pack
Rather than always gettin stabbed in my motherfucking back
Man this world is so twisted and I’m steady searching for a saving grace 
Rage all in my eeyes as I look all up to the skies and pray to God when I die there’s a better place


Better Place

City Lights

[Verse 1]
All these city lights they got me in a daze
All these city walls they start to form a maze
Walking through these city streets I can’t seem to find my way
I’d ask for directions but I can’t find the words to say
So many city lights it’s like a parade
So many people in the city I can feel myself begin to fade
Into a little piece of the ambience
Lullabies for sleep sirens from police plus an ambulance
Trying to hold on as my thoughts drift away from my mind
And all these city temptations made them so hard to find
City lights (city nights) yea that’s the city life

[Hook]
All these city lights they got me in a daze
All these city walls they start to form a maze
Walking through these city streets I can’t seem to find my way
I’d ask for directions but I can’t find the words to say, ay

[Verse 2]
All I see is homeless people
All I see is fancy cars
All I know is we’re not equal
Cuz getting far has much more to it than just working hard
Cuz living up to par is just playing your part
But living large is being who you really are
That’s why the greater the risk the greater the reward
This gold around my wrist symbolize what I hustle for
Do or die under these city lights, cherish every breath cuz you can’t live it twice
And I got no regrets I’m just living life
Oh God, oh God, what happened to me, big city of dreams turned to a reality 

[Hook]

City Lights

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Now there’s somethings that I gotta get off of my chest
And there’s someone in my mind telling me to load up a smith and wess
Aim it at everything and blast that bitch until there’s nothing left
Paranoia in my life made my mind a fucking mess
Reachin’ for this microphone to confess until i’m down to my last breath
Stuck with the curse, fuck it I’m blessed
Stayin’ faded, only kush, yea - nothing is stress
The times that I’ve waited, the times I stayed patient
The losses I had to invest, the days in a row with no rest and the irony
Cuz I’m tryna rest in peace while I’m still alive or atleast die with the people I’d die for beside of me
Blessed with the flow, ambition, and intellect
Which conceives success to the greatest degree when they intersect
You know - the work you put is the work you get out, that’s equality in labor
Spendin’ hours with a pen lettin’ all these emotions out - that’s quality in labor
Envy - that’s all I see in haters
Jealous of another man catchin’ feelins’ over money like it ain’t just paper

[Hook]
It’s a god damn shame / These people don’t know my name
It’s a god damn shame / These people don’t know my name
It’s a god damn shame
These people don’t know my name / It’s a god damn shame
These people don’t know my name / It’s a god damn shame
These people don’t know my name / It’s a god damn shame

[Verse 2]

It’s a god damn shame, these people don’t know my name
But you pay attention to my music I promise you’ll share my pain
Poppin percs and xanax while I’m watchin’ acid rain
Teardrops that eat away at your soul
Your precipitation makes your perception the same that’s something you need to know
Loyalty - that’s something you need to show because you can’t expect a seed to grow without being exposed
Relationships blossom, and sometimes it’s a rose
And sometimes you grip the stem so tight even though the thorns pierce your skin for some reason you still can’t let go
There’s rules to this game and there’s windows to this pain
On the outside lookin’ in / On the inside feeling drained
Cuz on the outside it only rains / The metaphors and analogies can construe the message I’m attempting to convey
So on this song I’ll spit it slow and clear so you can forever hear what I need to say, listen up

[Hook]

Don't Know My Name

Lyrics

[Intro]

So what if I did that shit / You know I was lit
And there’s times that I think about you and I can’t quit
So let’s talk it out, we can work shit out
But you wanna be on some other shit 
You wanna be on that whatever shit
Whatever, shit, I guess what we have is too broken to fix

[Hook]

Late nights I think / I stress so I drink
I smoke and I know / What this really means
I thought you was down for the team
I thought we had it figured out don’t lie to me
This isn’t what I thought it would be
I thought you knew loyalty

[Verse 1]

It’s been a minute we been chillin’ and I swear when this started I never intended to have these feelins’
But seein’ you on a consistent basis created a typical situation
Like I know you so well we communicate when I don’t even say shit
You get me through my day shift
A text from you just proves that i’ll make it plus the pics you send me when you naked
A definite connection like two lines adjacent
Too tired to really pursue it plus I speak heartbreak fluent
But the way you make me feel reminds me of my music 
Fuck it / let’s do it / As long as you still down I know you got your baggage but if it’s real we’ll get through it
I got faith and I don’t even know why / In all honesty I’d probably believe you through a lie
Maybe that’s a flaw in my character but I guess it’s about time
Thought I’d stay perfect forever but I knew that couldn’t be right
Everything’s meant to be broken / Darkness is meant to come to light like a lock is meant to be opened
Sittin’ and hopin / Sippin’ and smokin’, yea - just thinkin’ and hopin’

[Hook]

[Verse 2]

I thought it was just me and you, you and me
I swear I thought I was doin’ me
I was believing in something that doesn’t exist
I hear em talk about love but fuck that shit
I thought I found love, but you wasn’t it
There’s a million fish in the sea but I can’t swim
So I drown in hennessy and gin

[Bridge]

[Hook]


Late Nights

Lyrics

(Theories originated from these ideas that never made it)x3

Roses bloom / And when the thorns take shape, all the lies become true
Remember / Bittersweet is still bitter too 
And what glitters isn’t always gold / Just like what’s used isn’t always old
Smokin’ on these theories while I got another rolled
Real one / i’ll never fold
Hot boy / Still forever cold
Too real / I’m in a league of my own
Sixteen / When I first left home
With just a starter jacket and a throw away phone
Down bitch / Even when times was rough
Sneakin through windows / So infatuated with love
Blowin’ indo / Passin’ all these oppurtunities up
Stuck in smoke like a fuckin’ cigarette butt
Shit / Where the fuck did the time go
Like damn / Where the fuck did my mind go
The pressure / Broke me awhile ago
Eyes red / Marijuana smoke
Calm me down / Put me in my zone
Underground / Put me in my throne
I don’t need a crown I just need to learn to sew
So I can reap my rewards
Burn the roof / Raise the floor
I’ve always stayed down they always wanted more
They couldn’t stick to the script, so they’ll never find out what it was really all for
I made investments / Sometimes I didn’t get a dime back
But money comes, money goes but one thing I know is you can never get any time back
Record deals / I’ll never sign fuck a contract
Dollar signs / Moneys important but loyalties’ bottomline
Day dreams / While i’m buildin’ a solid foundation 
To be a boss you gotta rid your mind of any kind of hesitation
Retain knowledge / Like danger is real but fear is only its imitation
Kindness is weakness and will always be mistaken
So watch who you hang with because these snakes always be snakin’
So I mow the lawn / I cut the grass
Y’all chasin’ pussy / I chase the cash
I’m who you would be / If I ever, ever ever came last

(Theories originated from these ideas that never made it)


Theories

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

We stay / So high, that
These days / Go by
So quickly and so fast, I don’t know if i’ll last
I only wanted us to be together / Forever
I never want to be apart
You took away my little heart
You had me from the very start
And now I’m trippin so damn hard
Cuz I watched you walk away and I had nothing left to say
I just let you go / I just let you go
And I hope you know (that I’m not okay)
And I’m on my own (tryna find my way)
And now there’s one thing that I know, that I know

[Hook]

I hate bein alone
I hate bein alone
I hate bein alone
Bein’ alone, yea I hate bein alone

[Verse 2]

Hey pretty girl how you been doin / Just thought I’d check in it’s been awhile
Heard you got a new man shit I find that amusin’ / Cuz I know he can’t make you smile like I make you smile
But I think I’m startin’ to realize that this is more than I thought it was
I had a chance to look you in the eyes and tell you it hurts me more than you think it does
But it’s a whole world out there and there’s a lot you should see and I’d be a selfish motherfucker to try and stop you because of me
I guess that’s just how shit has to be 
I guess it’s a question of what you want and what you actually need
I guess I did you a favor by letting you leave and setting you free
But lately, I’ve been thinking of you so much that I’m forgetting to breathe
Not really you in particular but the things that you showed me
Like how I’ve always been alone but now I get lonely
Now I know the difference, you showed me what was missin’
And I think i’m startin to finally figure it out
That being alone doesn’t just mean being the only person around

[Hook]

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