I keep answering my phone

And driving over
Wishing these calls 
Turn into more
Trading my body for tragic hope
When we’re done
I feel like a whore

I keep answering my phone

I keep blowing like it’s my birthday
Wishing your rough hands
Belong to someone I love
Losing my hope to tired numbness
When we’re done
I feel nothing to speak of

I keep answering my phone

Calls

Outside the lakehouse, on summer days
The ghosts of children run and play
They share a memory and a spell
That none of them will ever tell

I could crucify you in my poetry with words
These children would give me the nails
I could execute you with my pen and sword
But the devil is ready for you in hell

He wants his son
He wants his glory
He wants his due
He wants his story

My pen, paper and warm, strong hand
Are no longer begging to fan the flames
My anger is happy in my heart’s new land
But the devil is still calling your unspeakable name

He wants your soul
He wants your brain
He wants your victims
He wants your pain

Inside the lake house, on summer days
My scars pace the floor, to and fro
They bump into memories on twisted pathways
That give the devil his eternal hold

Eternal Hold

I am incredible.
Incredibly happy
Incredibly sad
Incredibly sane
Incredibly mad

I am beautiful.
Beautifully shy
Beautifully outspoken
Beautifully perfect
Beautifully broken

I am strong.
Strongly still
Strongly shaken
Strongly free
Strongly taken

I am divine.
Divinely curious
Divinely sure
Divinely dark
Divinely pure

I am stunning.
Stunningly severe
Stunningly mild
Stunningly tame
Stunningly wild

I am perfect.
Perfectly soft
Perfectly hard
Perfectly healed
Perfectly scarred

I Am Perfect

I understand what you’re going through
I see you’re skin and bones
We’ll head for the coastline
As soon as we can
But until then
I’ll starve with you

There’s no doubt in my mind where we belong

No more waiting for a friend that’s true
I’m your angel in disguise
Meet me down by the ocean
As soon as you can
But until then
I’ll starve with you

The salt air will keep us young

There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
You know I’m your ride or die
We’ll give all our worries to the sea
As soon as we can
But until then
I’ll starve with you

Our solidarity makes us strong

Imagine a sky of bluest blue
Let your heart give up its hole
We’ll make our move
As soon as we can
But until then
I’ll starve with you

Dance with me, they’re playing our song

I'll Starve With You

Joyheart came into existence
Via pushing, confusion and fear
No one wanted to experience the event
Drugs nicely removed the pain and clear
Soft, stringy hair
Bright, brown eyes
Tan, knocked knees
Joyheart was alive

Joyheart grew wings and flew dreams
Out of pure spirit, delusion and need
No one noticed to encourage her flights
Negligent ignorance and dirty deeds
Styled, stringy hair
Blank, brown eyes
Breasts, full of nothing
Joyheart believed the lies

Joyheart clipped her wings and grounded her dreams
Because she couldn’t do what she couldn’t see
No one noticed the sliced oranges dipped in cinnamon sugar
Feeding her boredom and stealing her free
Long, stringy hair
Made up, brown eyes
Hips, full of ache
Joyheart hated her thighs

Joyheart lived many years in a fish bowl
Gulping, swimming around and around
No one could convince her there was another way
Until one moment when she nearly drowned
Wet, stringy hair
Watery, brown eyes
Belly, full of nothing
Joyheart was ready to rise

Joyheart grew back her wings and dreamed new dreams
Out of strength, determination and grace
Everyone championed her rise from the ashes
Fire under her wings, she soared above the waste
Burned, short hair
Red, brown eyes
Arms, full of ache
Joyheart began to fly

Joyheart adorns her wings and feeds her dreams
With hope, inspiration and faith
The entire universe answers when she calls
Healing her with its loving embrace
Sun, kissed hair
Wise, brown eyes
Heart, full of joy
Joyheart is alive

Joyheart

I learned my heart keeps score
It screamed until I could hear
Not a day goes by that it doesn’t have my ear

I traded in my fast car
And got off the mad freeway
Nothin’ on my agenda but breathing ocean spray

Hearts they can get angry
Hearts they can get hurt
Sometimes they run away
Sometimes they don’t return

I woke up this morning
And put a smile on my face
So don’t come ‘round here with your bullshit today

It’s the little things that kill
And expectations that maim
I let you walk away and gave myself some grace

Times they can be easy
Times they can be hard
It’s the hard that allows the easy
And the easy that allows the hard

It’s later than we would think
You think you can until you can’t
Only God knows how many beats your heart has left

I begin the finale 
Of my unrehearsed dance
Following the piper’s march toward the expanse

This may be my heaven
This may be my hell
I surrender to whatever this is
I pray that it all ends well

My Heart's March

The gardner left the garden
The day after she planted and watered
Our talking heads have theories as to why
But most of us don’t care

The sun and rain visit when they can
The bees seem to know a few tricks
We guess and experiment what gardeners should do
And we get it wrong most times

Some predict a wilder, diverse, stronger garden
Some complain and cry
Some can’t see past today
Some predict its demise

Time both cheers and mocks the garden
Annoyed with its alarms
We press the snooze button again and again
None of us fully wake up

And should the gardner decide to return
We would welcome her with a resentful hope
Knowing it’s too late to save the garden
But Vegas will still take bets

Gardner Goes AWOL

I’ll write one million poems about this one thing 
Until my until my heart unbreaks
Until my soul is free

I’ll pray one million prayers begging for this one thing 
Until I’m released from a hell that 
Deals out a lifetime of pain every second 

Who do I need to speak to
Who do I gotta blow 
To lift this curse of DNA and confusion

Dues have been paid with one million tears 
My well is dry
Do you want some flesh and bone

If we aren’t going to resolve this one thing 
In this one lifetime 
Just let me know

If I can’t break free of this one thing
Then set me free into the numbness of hopelessness
Just let me know

This One Thing

You decided to dive into my womb
Where there’s no death or conception
I gave birth to you through tides and moon
With me, you always have connection

You can tell me anything
There’s nothing I haven’t heard
There’s nothing I haven’t seen
You don’t need any words

Jump head first into my crashing waves
If you want to know what it means to be alive
Don’t be afraid of my undercurrent
It will deliver you to the other side

You can tell me anything
There’s nothing that’s forbidden
There’s nothing that’s taboo
You don’t need to be forgiven

You’ve been doing this for a million years
You won’t be done for a million more
Cast into my ocean all your fears
And redeem yourself upon my shore

You can tell me anything
There’s nothing you have to hide
There’s nothing you could have done
I’ll always be by your side

You Can Tell Me Anything

Your extremely ordinary life
Appearing mundane and stale
Uninteresting on the outside

Is one of the most faultless
Expressions of existence
We have witnessed.

The courage, bravery, strength
You found and exploited
Because you had no choice

Is the story we tell others
Who think they can’t make it
Through another day.

You danced with monsters
While they tore you to shreds.
Then you forgave them and
Found joy as your revenge.

Your sacred scavenger hunt
Took you inside and into places
That demanded all your guts 
And gave you no glory

While you watched the 
Rhinestone cowboys steal the show.

You graciously, brilliantly distilled the
Love, hate, pain, pleasure, joy, sorrow
Of this dense and confusing dimension
Into the revelation that 
Love is the answer to the final question

While your heart aches to know what it means.

You liberated your skeletons
And became their best friend.
You broke free from the prison of shame
And became grateful for your sins.

You discovered that joy and love are
Inside jobs with open doors
Welling up to meet you 
No matter what happens or who leaves
Because you are the perfect expression
Of all that is and all that will be.


Angel Whispers

Lyrics by Parker Crossing

I drink and spend too much when I feel dry
I eat and talk too much when I get high
I tell dirty jokes when it gets too quiet 
I’m super intense, ain’t going to deny it

Your righteous indignation and nose in the air 
Like you ain’t never had one too many beers
If I hijack a moment or two when my filters are gone
Remember your shit stinks too and let’s just move on 
But

I know 
I’m too much and not enough at the same time
Guess what
My bag of fucks is empty and I’m so fine
You told 
My girlfriend you don’t want me at your party
But she
Likes me and thinks you’re two-faced and snotty

We all know I’m sharp as a tack and funny as hell
You’ve seen me listen with my heart and wish you well
My intentions are good, and my hands are clean
I don’t talk shit about no one, and I ain’t that mean

 I understand I ain’t your people or your cup of tea
 No hard feelings my friend, it’s alright with me
 We had many good times that I’ll never forget
 And when it’s all said and done, I’m happy we met
And

I know 
I’m too much and not enough at the same time
Guess what
My bag of fucks is empty and I’m so fine
You told 
My girlfriend you don’t want me at your party
But she
Likes me and thinks you’re two-faced and snotty

I know 
I’m too much and not enough at the same time
Guess what
My bag of fucks is empty and I’m so fine
You told 
My girlfriend you don’t want me at your party
But she
Likes me and thinks you’re two-faced and snotty

At The Same Time

Lyrics by Parker Crossing

Can’t do buzzing lights or ticking clocks
Screaming in crowds puts me in shock
If you want to hang and talk with me
Let’s turn off the damn TV

Some days I’m hyper, can’t sit still
Some days I’m calm, just need to chill
I need my space, I need my time
I’m not crazy, it’s just my mind

I understand what I say
I understand what I do
It must hurt to be pushed away
It’s not you baby, it’s all me
With just a touch of neuro spicy

I know I’m extra, maybe mean
I might snap if it’s not routine
A loving hug will feel like fire
When I’m sad or overtired

We’re in too deep, it’s not a fling
You say my honey is worth the sting
I’ll work to soften my many edges
And talk myself off of the ledges

I understand what I say
I understand what I do
It must hurt to be pushed away
It’s not you baby, it’s all me
With just a touch of neuro spicy

I understand what I say
I understand what I do
It must hurt to be pushed away
It’s not you baby, it’s all me
With just a touch of neuro spicy

A Touch of Neurospicy


Nineteen with a talent for dead reckoning
Still learning the stars you could trust
Dreams in the balance, pushing you forward
No one but you understood the rush
You never sailed close to the shoreline
You knew smooth seas were empty and void
You knew deep waters gave up their treasures
And crashing waves held all the rewards


Sometimes there was no sight of a lighthouse
Dark skies with no stars, no wind to be found
The compass danced around you telling lies
Sleepless nights kept you from running aground
You met ghosts who crashed or died trying
You cried tears only the ocean knew about
You knew no one was coming to save you
You don’t talk about the pain and doubt


See that ball of fire cresting over the horizon
Its light shows you you’re already home
Sailing on an ocean that’s wild and wide
You’re on a beam reach with no end in sight
Sunlight and diamonds dance in your wake
Raise your glass and let the good times roll
You’re the master of your destiny
Make it worth the price you paid


What now? 
Where do you go from here?
Is it finally over or just beginning?
Where do you go from here?


Life keeps moving and time marches on
New moons, new tides and new life
Forever changed by your champion’s journey 
It might be time to anchor and slow down
A dark night of the soul may be upon you
Or a vision quest to find your heart’s sound
Dance with your skeletons, make them your friends
We all have demons we need to chase down


Listen to angels who call you by name
Talk with them and try not to run
When it feels unfamiliar, lean into the wind
You’re in a race you’ve already won
Look into others’ eyes more than you look down
Everyone is fighting a storm that’s within
Love is the answer to all the questions
You know what really matters in the end


See that ball of fire cresting over the horizon
Its light shows you you’re already home
Sailing on an ocean that’s wild and wide
You’re on a beam reach with no end in sight
Sunlight and diamonds dance in your wake
Raise your glass and let the good times roll
You’re the master of your destiny
Make it worth the price you paid


See that ball of fire cresting over the horizon
Its light shows you you’re already home
Sailing on an ocean that’s wild and wide
You’re on a beam reach with no end in sight
Sunlight and diamonds dance in your wake
Raise your glass and let the good times roll
You’re the master of your destiny
Make it worth the price you paid

Beam Reach

Lyrics by Parker Crossing

I hear you creepin up outside my door
You’re never satisfied
You always want more
You better watch out man
I’m gonna take you to the mat
Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back

I know there will be 
Better days ahead
Of waking up with the sun
And gettin out of bed
I know there will be
A place for me to rest
Where foam rolls over the sand
And every day is blessed

I feel you creepin up inside my shoes
You’re never satisfied
No matter what I do
You better watch out boy
I’m gonna stop you in your tracks
Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back

I know there will be 
Better days ahead
Of waking up with the sun
And gettin out of bed
I know there will be
A place for me to rest
Where foam rolls over the sand
And every day is blessed

Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back
Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back
Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back
Cuz I got angels watchin my back
I said I got angels watchin my back

[chorus]
I know there will be 
Better days ahead
Of waking up with the sun
And gettin out of bed
I know there will be
A place for me to rest
Where foam rolls over the sand
And every day is blessed

Angels Watchin' My Back

Lyrics by Parker Crossing

Purple patches of passion flower
Purple clouds over them tower
Purple sunset kisses the shore
Purple horizon promises more

Purple veins marble our legs
Purple hearts for our country bled
Purple lips when there’s no more air
Purple ribbons in purple hair

Purple robes on queens and kings
Purple ropes subliminal dividing
Purple shadow on a five dollar bill
Purple old fingers robbing the till

Purple haze in Jimi’s brain
Purple rain soaked Prince’s pain
Purple sky misses Jimi’s kiss
Purple sequins miss Prince’s hips

Purple grapes and purple beets
Purple tongue and purple teeth
Purple cups and purple bowls
Purple wine soothes the soul

Purple light pours into your crown
Purple bridge leads you round
Purple enlightenment, wisdom and sin
Purple everything, breathe it in

Purple

Parker Crossing emerged as my bridge from verse to voice, turning my intimate poetry into songs that share the depth of my lived truth.

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