kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

Before you turned to me to speak your mind
You start to flicker around to chase the light
The shadows behind the glass have come to life
This strange confusion grows as your fear resides

Once in your life
Once in your life
Once in your life

Before your eyes renounce the vacant light
These empty walls will start to plague your mind
Inside the belly of the hollow pines
You start to fritter away the endless time

Once in your life
Once in your life
Once in your life

Once in your life
Once in your life
Once in your life, life it goes away
Once in your life not here to stay
Once in your life, life it goes away
Once in your life not here to stay
Once in your life

This House Is Empty

kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

When I leave the room, would you promise to yourself
That you won't be cruel, to anybody else
And i'll remember you, for you it doesn't ring a bell.

I could take away the pain
Tonight, you'll fade away
The touch of the doctors cold hands
Your blood will drip away

If I stay with you, would you promise to be true
Everything you do, is another way to brood.


I will pluck away your veins
Tonight you're here to stay
The shock of a sirens call
Your life it slips away

사막의 양치기, 당신은 유일한 생존자입니다

손자입니다

손자입니다

Sewn Shut

kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

Deep in the hills, late in the night
When those of this pearl has frozen dry.
Between the marquees.

A man do you see, the scab of a corpse
A blemishing sight on the marble floor.
With nothing to say.

And nothing to lose.
Too hypnotized.

Follow the voice, into the grave,
Your master has come to hunt his prey.
He's hungry for more.

Carnal desires. Mysterious flesh.
It's easy to see who's joined the fray.
Oh what a disgrace

It's time

Timeo
Please take the light away

Morsuna
너를 너무 사랑해

Are you okay?
Tired?
Safe?
Cause now you're gone.

Ohhh ooo ohhh

Take the night away

Faces appear in the conjured night
It's a long way down
A long way down
A long way down

Between The Marquees

kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

It's all part of everything we know.

Standing by the throne

As the moon peaks through the graveled walls,

A shadowless being

Choking on his boundless desires.

Feeling contrived

He's waiting for the day that he can bring anguish to those below.

kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

오랫동안 친했던 녹슨 칼이야
실수 없이 모른척 하고 있어도
자기 옆에 숨만셔도 what did you just do to me?
언제까지 놀리던 녹슨 칼 일까

Ahh
녹슨 칼이야

여태까지 몰랐던 목숨 놀이야
오랫동안 친했던 미친 인간이야
자기 옆에 기다리면, 때가 무든 주름이
피곤하고 배고픈 녹슨 칼 이야

녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼
녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼

녹슨 칼이야

녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼
녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼
녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼
녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼, 녹슨 칼

녹슨 칼 이야

녹슨 칼

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether

Lyrics:

Breaking off the particles of your design, everything will be alive
I've got a lot to think about, this other world
That you and I have been denied

I don't have the time or strength to play these stupid games.
친구들이랑 함께 서 just kill me if you wish
Living in an icicle of made up tales and lies
I wanna be one to tell you why I wanna see you cry.

Cause living is impossible.

Yeah

Living is impossible

Feeding off the ivory you multiply
your secrets, there your jury lies
I'd attest for everything, this perfect world can wait until the end arrives

Now everything is said and done, so kill me if you wish
할수 없이 there is nothing I can do to bridge
Living in an icicle with constant tears and cries
I wanna sew the stitch of your divide, id rather live than die.

Though living is impossible.

Yeah

Living is impossible

Right

그래

Die Cry Hate

kgoth

written and produced by past self
mixed and mastered by Spektor
album art by aether



You told me not to cry
To 기다려 til night
To drink until the fleeting pain has come and gone

Well I pretend that I'm away
미리 알고 I'm awake
With just a little death that quietly awaits

I never walked away

I dreamt about the places that we could've gone but spent alone
You drag me out until the mornings came and gone
The day is wrought with misery, the love we make is killing me
Without a little death, i quietly escape.

I never walked away
I'll never walk away
I never walk away

I rest my head on the cage of your bleeding heart
We set sail upon the shores never to return again

We'll never walk away
We never walked away
We never walked away

Little Death

A collaboration with darkwave trio Haunt Me from Texas. A trilingual darkwave song in Korean, Spanish, and English about being a minority living in a white dominant christian society.

죄를진
이 도마뱀
내 눈물이
끄찌안아오

해질녘부터 새벽까질 내
등을 부러뜨려
내 이름까지 바꿔벌려도
세상은안바껴

Deprived even when i feel alive
I’m just a fiend to crucify

Me odias sin razón
Pero no conoces mi corazón
Tienes miedo de lo que no sabes
Nos ves como animales

Deprived, even when we feel alive
We are the fiends they crucify
Always a cold and darker night
When there’s a price to stay alive

A price to stay alive…

Deprived, even when we feel alive
We are the fiends they crucify
Always a cold and darker night
When there’s a price to stay alive


credits

written by past self and Haunt Me 
Artwork by æther 
Mixed and mastered by Larry Bautista

past self x Haunt Me- Sinner (Pecador​/​죄​인​)

A romantic korean post punk song about love amidst political chaos inspired by k-drama "Mr.Sunshine"

lyrics:

불꽃으로 한 걸음 더 가까이
(I’ll take one step closer into the flame) 

이 아름다운 꽃이 시들지 않도록
(so that this beautiful flower doesn’t wilt)

다음 생활에, 또 만나 사랑하겠죠?
(I know that we’ll meet in the next life and fall in love again)

나는 죽어도, 당신은 살아남아요.
(Even if I die, please stay alive)

나를 버려줘
(Leave me) 

찢어진 세상
(A torn world) 

신성한 두려움
(Sacred fear)

총도 맞아줄까?
(Should I take a bullet for you?) 

기도
하는 불신자
(An unbeliever who prays) 

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

울지마오, 스스로 선택한 길이야
(Don’t cry, it’s the path that I chose for myself)

끝에서는 , 하늘이 너무 높아서
(In the end, because the sky is so high)

나를 묻어줘 
(please bury me) 

희망의 씨앗
(Seed of hope)

마지막 포옹
(The last embrace)

보고 싶은데도 
(Even though I want to see you)  

한 걸음 
앞에 가세요
(Take a step forward)

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

그냥 인간이야
(I'm just a human)

그냥 인간
(I'm just a human)

Music and Lyrics by Sung Joo Kim
Mixed and mastered by Spektor of Spektor Recordings
single cover by Ximena Paz

불꽃으로/ Bulkkoch Eulo

“무당 / Mudang”

A mudang is a Korean shaman who practices the art of mu. Traditionally, they are future tellers and spiritual healers. This song tells a story about a mudang who is able to see into the futures of other people and heal them, yet are unable to use this ability to help themselves. A seer who cannot see. A healer who is self sabotaging. A blind prophet descending into madness. This song is the core of our new k-goth EP called “Premonitions” slated to be released on December Friday the 13th. It is metaphorical to the dread of knowing. The dread of paralyzing sadness. The dread of being witness to a dystopian future unfolding before our eyes. Pre-save it on Spotify. Pre-order it on Bandcamp. December Friday the 13th.

The cover art is drawn by our wonderful synth player and artist æther. It was inspired by the Korean bujeok (a talisman that shamans use to ward evil spirits away) and the three headed pigeon that , in Korean myth, symbolizes calamity. 

Music and Lyrics written by Sung
Mixed and Mastered by Spektor

lyrics:

무당 (Mudang), I feel so insecure 
무당 (Mudang), away from the sun 
무당 (Mudang), I wanna disappear
무당 (Mudang), 생각없는 (thoughtless one)

You told me that you’ve visioned the fate of everyone you’ve crossed 
And now you’ve gone insane, from words, you repeat into the lost 

일식이 가까워요  
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 가까워요  
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 가까워요  
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 다가와
(The eclipse is coming)

무당 (Mudang), now I’ve lost control 
무당 (Mudang), I’m going to drown
무당 (Mudang) I don’t want be alone
무당 (Mudang), 내 버려진 마음 (My abandoned heart)

You held your judgement like a knife but now you’re cutting a kiss   
Your futures come and gone again still you’re moving your lips. 

일식이 가까워요  
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 가까워요 
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 가까워요  
(The eclipse is close)
일식이 다가와
(The eclipse is coming)

무당 / Mudang

dedicated to palestine 

꿈 속에도, somethings amiss between the cracks
숨 막히면, a stranger dwelling in the back 
날 죽이면, my pale hands reaches out the black 
날 살려 줘, our crying eyes and bloody sands. 

Cuts like a blade, the shame, the pain of you looking away. 
Nowhere to hide, or sleep, tonight you’ll be so wide awake

So how can we wait? 
So hard to find you 
Theyll blot out the light
Someone to hide you 
You can’t define 

내 사랑 귀신이 언제 보일까? 
꿈 속에 돌리며, 웃음 나오냐?? 
어디 가도, 귀신, 그림자 같애 
달처럼 내 사랑, 귀신 나온다

Why are you looking away 
A city at night, waiting to die, waning away 
A city a night, the look in your eyes how many lives, how many lives

Music and lyrics by Sung
Mixed and mastered by Spektor
The cover art is drawn by our wonderful synth player and artist æther. It was inspired by the Korean bujeok (a talisman that shamans use to ward evil spirits away) and the three headed pigeon that , in Korean myth, symbolizes calamity.

귀신 / Gwisin

the air that has been split by lead

아침에 
찬바람
갈라진 
공기가
숨막혀
세상이 
또 변한내

Music and lyrics by Sung
Mixed and mastered by Spektor
The cover art is drawn by our wonderful synth player and artist æther. It was inspired by the Korean bujeok (a talisman that shamans use to ward evil spirits away) and the three headed pigeon that , in Korean myth, symbolizes calamity.

재난 / Jaenan

k-goth forever
a nuns dance

translates to "my heart is a grave"

the sadness and beauty of a woman who dances to release herself from the shackles of earthly attachments

깨진 나비 처럼
밤새 춤을춘다
소매 하늘 까지 
날다

얇은 고깔 아래
장미 같은 빛이
슬프고 아름다운
밤새  촛불  타며
마음은 무덤이다

마음이 무덤이다
마음이 무덤이다
마음이 무덤이다
결국 사람이야 
마음이 무덤이야

예쁜 얼굴 아래
눈물  두번  흘려
반짝하고 사라진다
평범한 날이

별빛으로 변한
몸의 움직임이
예쁜 나비같다
마음은 무덤이다

마음이 무덤이다
마음이 무덤이다
마음이 무덤이다
결국 사람이야 
마음이 무덤이야

Music and lyrics by Sung
Mixed and mastered by Spektor
The cover art is drawn by our wonderful synth player and artist æther. It was inspired by the Korean bujeok (a talisman that shamans use to ward evil spirits away) and the three headed pigeon that , in Korean myth, symbolizes calamity.



내 마음이 무덤이야 / Nae Ma-eum-i Mudeom-iya

lyrics: 

사실을 알고나니 (Now that you know the truth), isn’t it strange?

좋아하던 사람도 (Even the person you once liked…), feeling it fade

약속했던 사람이 사라지기 원해 (You wish the person who made the  promise to disappear) 

Since you were the one who chose this, 그렇겠지 (of course you feel that way)

눈을 감고 사람들 갖고 노니?
(Are you playing with people with your eyes closed?)

거울 inside 한번도 본적 없지?
(You’ve never once looked inside the mirror haven’t you?) 

잘 봐
(Look close) 

Bridge—

The life that you envisioned took us back to the start  

Chorus——

Your delusional mind 

사랑 없는 (Loveless) July 

지나가는 (Passing) goodbyes

At the edge of your life 

Verse 2—-

수갑 채운 내 자유 (My handcuffed freedom), pleasure of wrists. 

가족들도 괴롭혀 (Even harassing my family), your hearts in abyss 

생각하지 말라고, 계속 말했는데, 는데 
(Though you always said, Don’t think about it) 

Now that things have changed 너도 느껴지지? (you feel it too) 

너도 숨이 막히지? 괜찮겠어? 
(You can’t breathe either, it should be fine right?) 

이제 너무 늦었어, 돌아가지 못해… 
(It’s too late, you can’t turn around) 

Bridge—-

(We’re counting your incisions and we’re stitching them back) 


Chorus——

Your delusional mind 

사랑 없는 (Loveless) July 

지나가는 (Passing) goodbyes

At the edge of your life 

Outro——

At the edge of your knife x4


music and lyrics written by Sung
mixed and mastered by Spektor
photo for cover by Amanda Castillias 
calligraphy on cover by Mee Ran Kim

약속 / Yaksok

k-goth band consisted of Sung, Spektor, & æther. 

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