Stoic 

"At Parting"

Calling,
Calming,
Sounds like,
My name

Don't leave my sight
Don't leave my sight

Coming,
Silent,
Looks like,
My face

Don't leave my sight
Don't leave my sight

Don’t leave my sight
Don’t leave my sight

//

"I Shaved My Father's Face"

Masturbating,
In a bar bathroom,
Why did I call myself,
'Living Room'?

Shaman's cataract eyes -
Didn't grandfather die?
Didn’t grandfather die...

This pit in my throat:
A swollen lymph node,
That I can't swallow away,
I can't swallow away…

//

"Anaesthetic"

What's eating my insides?
Your voice – a silent sigh?

Hold your breath,
‘Featherhead’
I'm here,
I'm here

Let go,
Of waiting for the guide stone,
I'm here,
I'm here

//

"Say Stay"

Say stay,
How long have you been having to pay?
I'm not really this age,
Incubating in a ‘skull-shaped cage’

Whispering your name,
When no one's listening,
Whispering your name

You can't hear me,
Drowning screaming suffering,
I froze,
And my lips came closed

Whispering your name,
When no one's listening,
Whispering your name

//

"The Poisoner"

I am my own murderer - 
The ‘poisoner’
It's that story I know - 
It's me
I'm holding onto shadows

I'm a waking rush,
Hushed,
Moving through space,
Holding my shape,
Hold my arms in my Mom and Dad's sarong,
Keep quiet,
Sit still

They're all gone
They're all gone
They're all gone
They're all gone

//

"Something Vanishing"

Hear me,
Here now,
I surrender

Here now - 
My ears ringing,
I surrender,
I surrender

//

"Calm"

Calloused,
Enough of this,
Put me down,
I give up the ground

Anxious eyes,
Announce themselves,
I'm sorry,
That I've been pulled apart

All this time
We've been losing him
All this time
We've been losing him

We've been losing him
We've been losing him


All Music Written & Performed by Alex Stooshinoff
Except - Drums; Written and Performed by Jordan Esau;
Piano on “At Parting” Written by Alex Stooshinoff and Performed by Craig Horan
Produced by Alex Stooshinoff
All Music Recorded by Alex Stooshinoff
Except Drums and Acoustic Guitars Recorded by Jordan Esau at the Hive in Montreal, QC. 
Vocals on Track 2 recorded by Mike Gore at the Sweat Shoppe in Saskatoon, SK.
Mixed by Alex Stooshinoff, with Assistance from Jordan Esau
Mastered by Gus Elg at Sky Onion Studios
Cover Photograph by Jelena Markovic 
Photo Editing by Kyle Grimsrud-Manz


Recorded between 2014-2018. 
Field recordings were taken along the Camino de Santiago in Spain.

At Parting

"The Poisoner"

I am my own murderer -
The ‘poisoner’
It's that story I know -
It's me
I'm holding onto shadows

I'm a waking rush,
Hushed,
Moving through space,
Holding my shape,
Hold my arms in my Mom and Dad's sarong,
Keep quiet,
Sit still

They're all gone
They're all gone
They're all gone
They're all gone

The Poisoner (Single)

I Shaved My Father's Face (Single)

Patient Hands is the solo-project of ambient musician & songwriter Alex Stooshinoff. A Russian Doukhobor (‘spirit-wrestler’) from the Canadian Prairies, Stooshinoff relocated to Montréal in 2015, where he earned a degree in philosophy and electroacoustics. Stooshinoff self-released his debut album "Stoic" in early 2019, with Japanese outlet Note.mu calling it a "...masterpiece.” The record concerns a many year-long sickness, and the warp and weft of mystical experience that ran through it. 

An artist who values risk as a sign of true vulnerability, Stooshinoff writes honest, at times confessional lyrics, and often appears nude in his visual output. Outside of music Stooshinoff is a professional model, and something of an aspiring historian of philosophy. He has ambitions of pursuing a PhD someday.